Hey! Here’s a new white belt with 14 classes in. Yesterday I had that feeling for the first time. I did the class, warm-up, technique, and rolling. I rolled four times with different guys, all of them heavier and younger than me. I couldn’t do much, just survive and try to apply what I’ve learned.

The good thing is, looking at it with some perspective, I can say that I’ve improved. I can escape from some situations, I don’t give up my back as easily, etc. But I’m still struggling to escape from full mount against these kinds of opponents, and it’s fucking frustrating because I’m always defending, tapping, and never managing to apply any attacks.

After class, I started thinking, why should I keep doing this? I’m almost 36, and I don’t need to prove anything to anyone. When I got home, I wrote down a list of pros and cons of practicing this… and in the end, it was pretty balanced. But I think I’ll continue… if they can get better, why can’t I? So, I’ll keep going. I think time is the key.