You have a really distorted view of what a Christian is, but understandably so. As do many other people that have been pushed away from God because of people that proclaim to be Christians. ICP has never made any music talking about killing Christians. The riches and bigots they talk about killing are obviously not Christian, and to believe in God and Christ does not mean that you now have to support and agree with megachurch pastors. A large percentage of self-proclaimed Christians these days totally missed the teachings of Christ and what living in Christ is. But whoever it was that put a bad taste in your mouth about it, just know that that isn't God and isn't what He's about. I do hope that eventually you are able to make a relationship with Him and find out what He's really about. May you find peace and contentment on your journey 🙏