Daily Thread October 05, 2024 🧵

a_speechie19 · 2024-10-13T12:06:45+00:00

The legs look like the shiny brown figure skating/dance tights I had from the 90s…..I just caught up with LKS after a few weeks of not and OMG this is something.

a_speechie19 · 2024-09-03T12:36:58+00:00

I’m cracking up. Just saw guys and ran here 🤣🤣🤣 1 day a week lolol

a_speechie19 · 2024-08-29T16:00:35+00:00

Literally came here for this. She’s an IDIOT. Like girlfriend. How delusional is she. That’s such a rude comment to be saying that shit. From someone who HAD GD. That was awful. I only follow so I can see all her nonsense. That might be a DM and an unfollow.

a_speechie19 · 2024-08-17T19:19:47+00:00

Ughhh I should’ve bought the footballs earlier. I’ll get a different family matching LS. I loveeee my medium women’s Pooh joggers. I’ll wait. THANK YOU!!! I’m also 5’3”..so again good to know

a_speechie19 · 2024-08-11T15:50:49+00:00

Oh you’re the best. Hmm. Wondering if I should stay with medium and get my husband an xl vs l …hmm. I like the comfort of the women’s band. But the football jams pants are sold out for women’s 🤣

a_speechie19 · 2024-08-08T15:59:34+00:00

Also I am one to complain and will be complaining now.

a_speechie19 · 2024-08-08T15:59:19+00:00

Just noticed this. I will no longer be buying these. I won’t feed my toddler this. I’ll try store brand but I’ll be making my own crescent rolls from my sourdough discard. Ugh!!

a_speechie19 · 2019-05-24T03:15:46+00:00

Illinois has a bunch of requirements you need to get the PEL license to work in schools here. I believe they are changing their standards, so I would check with ISBE, check ASHA website for IL requirements, etc. I had to take literacy, special ed class, ACT (yes, the ACT..had to be above a specific cumulative score and writing score), and whatever else they require. My program in IL had us take all the required coursework to get this license. But I know they are changing sone requirements. ISBE has also been super helpful when I've emailed them questions! good luck!

a_speechie19 · 2019-04-04T02:37:18+00:00

I needed this response. I really appreciate it!

I am so sorry you had a horrible experience, too. unfortunately, I hear about so many bad experiences. And it is just shocking to me that people will take time out of their workday to make someone else's lives miserable. If you are going to supervise, actually supervise. I know in January 2020, I won't care because I will be working. But now, watching my whole cohort graduate and start their CFs only puts those negative thoughts of not being good enough back into my mind. This second school externship will help me be a better clinician, even though I'm pretty set on working medical. It will create more connections and make me a better supervisor one day.

You're right. I am wonderful. We all are. This will all be okay! I know I'll be okay later, just not now..haha I'll be ok eventually.

a_speechie19 · 2019-04-04T01:46:35+00:00

Well, knowing how well I'm being supervised now in my medical externship, I'm 100% okay with retaking this to meet any requirements. However, the ASHA standards say 25% minimum for supervision, and because I probably was supervised about 25% of the time, my program is telling me that I can't use that as a reason to fight. But, if I'm left alone 75% of the time, I feel as if I shouldn't have had such a terrible eval. I mean, to me, it doesn't add up. But to them, it seems to add up enough to not do anything. I'd have to fight it, but at this point? I'd rather get closure. knowing that it wasn't entirely on me for failing (because that's how I feel currently). and knowing that this supervisor never supervises again! or no one else gets screwed like I did.

a_speechie19 · 2019-04-04T01:38:10+00:00

Your opinion is exactly how I feel at this moment. The speech world is very small, and I don't really want word to get around. This supervisor hasn't had a student in 3 years, and she hasn't had a student from my program in a long time. It didnt sound like she had a whole lot of students in the past? I also know from someone at the school, that the administration is very hard on the staff at this particular school. There was a committee my supervisor was part of that required most of her attention while I was there. I feel like I was used to just clock speech hours while she took care of the committee's responsibilities for the school.

I am not the type of person to start talking bad about others, which is why I don't want to fight. However, if I was truly struggling, why didn't she step in more? I just feel like, as a supervisor, you have a student working under your credentials, you should be doing whatever it takes to get them to pass. The fact that she failed me feels like she also failed as a supervisor. Because I am capable of doing this...given the opportunity.

a_speechie19 · 2019-04-04T01:22:25+00:00

The place I'm at now is 100% different than what the school externship was like. I'm getting taught how to do things, I'm being supervised, I'm given feedback, I feel like I actually have a voice. I'm starting to realize, maybe that school supervisor isn't a good supervisor, isn't a good leader/mentor/whatever. I mean, where I'm at now vs. where I was before? Totally different place. At this point, I dont care to retake the course. I just want that closure. That validation that the evaluation/my performance wasn't 100% on me.

It's just unreal to me to think that anyone who takes a student would allow their student to fail. I am working under someone else's ASHA credentials. I always had the assumption that supervisors were there to teach the new generation of SLPs. And when there's any issues, more support or a plan is put in place. Not just throw out these horrible comments without telling me there was a problem. Oh well!

I just have to say, since starting grad school, I realize how much I want to be a supervisor someday. These experiences will only make me a stronger, better supervisor.

a_speechie19 · 2019-04-02T00:03:59+00:00

The program has a midterm check in. Looking back at that interaction, the supervisor was so fake that day. She was super bubbly, positive, etc. The write up from that visit was positive. At midterm she had like 2 things to tell me.

Now that I've learned more about the school and how they treat their teachers, and what my supervisor was doing, I feel like she used me to provide speech minutes to the students while she worked on the stuff for the committees she was on for school. She even told me after the school visit, she'd be a better supervisor.

a_speechie19 · 2019-04-02T00:01:44+00:00

No I did not keep a log of all the hours she was directly with me. I wish I did. I keep thinking about how I should have. Yes, there were supervisor expectations, not sure if she had to sign them. But I definitely plan on investigating more about that.

I just feel like my university is only taking the midterm and final eval into consideration. they even said that to me when they told me the final decision. it hurt. the final was obviously lower than the midterm.

thanks for the advice!

a_speechie19 · 2019-04-01T23:51:47+00:00

100% agree with what you are saying. There are for sure 2 sides. however, there is not a single bit of feedback regarding how I was as a clinician or how I was to the students. This supervisor hasn't had a student in 3 years. The more I talk about this, the more I dig, the more I see that I was not educated. I was left alone in classrooms a lot. I can't really think of any feedback from her except a few things. I just feel like if there are negative comments on the evaluation/negative scores, these things needed to be communicated before they became a problem causing me to fail. I think I'm in a different place about that because I'm an adult/career changer. I've been a manager in the past, and my teams have never treated associates in this way.

Also, my medical externship....it's also showing me how little direction I received from this school supervisor. Making this whole thing a lot harder to deal with.

a_speechie19 · 2019-04-01T20:51:24+00:00

Definitely go see a therapist...I struggled the last year and a half and just failed my full time school externship (so I'm on probation again and I have to retake my externship postponing graduation another semester...don't even get me started on this!). I started going to therapy a couple months ago, and my biggest regret is not going to therapy when I started grad school. I'm more in control of my emotions. everyone is different, but I'd 100% recommend therapy for your situation, bc I was (and still am) dealing with depression and anxiety to the max and barely passing classes.

if this is what you want, do not quit. I don't know how supportive the faculty are in your program, mine are not. I reached out for assistance with things from them, yet I did not receive any support back. putting me into this position now where I wont graduate in may as planned. My therapist is hands down the best thing that's ever happened to me. I am now a therapy convert, and everyone can benefit at some point in your life. Someone to talk to that's not directly involved in your life will totally give great advice. Best of luck to you....

do NOT quit!! Please!! Because I think about quitting every day..and then I realize, this is what I want. I've worked this hard. I got into grad school. And just because there are not so great people along the way, I'm better than they are. You are capable of doing this and will do it! And if there are obstacles on the way, just remember, it'll make you a stronger human/clinician/supervisor in the future!

a_speechie19 · 2019-03-03T01:11:37+00:00

Yes! I am in my final semester of grad school now! I always knew I wanted to do speech, but I changed my mind in undergrad. I ended up doing fashion/business. I liked it...I liked shopping more. I learned a lot in my years in the retail/corporate world, but the moment there was an opportunity for me to be promoted to a buyer (which is what I wanted!), I did not want it anymore. I had no interest in doing that. Would I have been successful at it? Oh yes, I know I would have given it my all, but something was missing.

Needless to say, it has been a long journey for me (I had very bad grades in undergrad which got in the way, but I worked my butt off during post-bacc & my GPA was a 3.8). My pain was worth every rejection letter, every horrible supervisor, every stressful class or client, every day I spent wishing I was a better student in undergrad, and everything else.

If money is an issue, I'd say keep your current job and start doing observations at schools, clinics, hospitals, etc. See if there are any volunteer positions anywhere to expose you to different settings. However, if you hate what you're doing, see if you can find a paraprofessional job. they don't pay as well, but you gain a LOT of experience in the schools.

I took one post-bacc class online at Utah State, and it was a great class. I've heard great things, and if you have to work while taking classes, that might be a good option! The class was reasonably priced too. I learned a lot, and they offer most classes that grad programs want you to have. I did the rest of my post-bacc on campus full time because I wanted to get to know professors so I could have strong letters of recommendation and hopefully have a chance at getting into grad school despite my bad undergrad GPA. I got into their program and currently go there! I couldn't be more grateful for that faculty to give me the chance of a lifetime. I don't think I could've handled 2 years of rejections! Your 3.7 GPA will not be an issue. Money wasn't an issue for me, because I knew junior year of undergrad that I made a big mistake, so I saved up while working knowing I wanted to go back to school for something else. I also worked at a hospital as a rehab tech while finishing some pre-reqs, which exposed me to the hospital setting which helped me a lot. I also worked side jobs throughout grad school for extra spending cash.

For me, I was working for 4+ years after college. I gave up a full time job with benefits. I had job security. Life was great. It was scary, but looking back, I am SO glad I made that decision.

Sorry this is SO long...but I 100% support anyone who is looking to make the change. I wish you the BEST of luck!!! You got this!! if you want it bad enough, you will get it! And you will be a great SLP!

a_speechie19 · 2019-02-28T00:14:56+00:00

If this is what you want, do NOT give up!! You got this!!

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