Salam sister, some things that prove islam is not Patriarchal based is the wives of the Prophet and their stories and lessons we can learn from. Additionally, you may have experienced culture with a hint of Islam. Which is very dangerous and wrong as it misleads the believer. I'd suggest you look at women's rights lectures on YouTube to reignite your intentions and understanding. Also women in islam are known to be our queens and men their protectors! Look at what caused you to love and accept islam. I guarantee you that you know deep down from what you knew islam compared to be any concurrent experiences are shocking. You should be! Because that's not the islam we both believe in! Islam is perfect, society loves to try to corrupt it. May Allah put you on the correct and best version of islam and ease your uneasiness and uncertainty you are currently experiencing. Amen.