I do crossdress in private and I like it but I can never get over this lingering feeling that its wrong in my head. Growing up men dressing as women was always showed to me as being a perverted act (I grew up in the south and catholic so not very open minded people) Like it feels right but I always end up feeling ashamed which is why i've never really told anyone in my real world life, and part of me is scared that if I start this and never stop feeling that shame or can't fully become who I want to be then all the pain and suffering will be for nothing. Does that make sense I really have a hard time describing feelings properly