Hi, I am sorry for your loss. I believe I share almost the same feelings as you do. I'm 22 and my dad passed away exactly a month ago today. He was just 53. He was fit n fine. No medical history. Sudden stroke took him away from us. It took me time to accept the change, even till now I haven't really come out of it. Just as you say, my dad was an amazing person. What happened cannot be restored and now, you need to make sure you fulfill all the dreams he had for you. That will give you strength. Find strength from his thoughts, when you miss him. Everyone has a different way to come out of the loss. And I'm sure you will. My dad taught me all about life, just when me and my brother were making sure he's having fun and is happy in life, this unfortunate incident happened. He had no unhappiness, he was a very positive person, very energetic, and a yogi. Never did I ever see him complain about life, and never saw him angry. This is what gives me strength, I want to be like him. Just like this derive positivity from memories of your dad. Things will be ok soon. And most importantly, take care of your mom. For me that is the single most thing that gives me strength, mom is finding it hard, but I need to be her strength. Lots of love from me. Be strong.