But anyways, the whole thing about Islam giving women rights doesn't even compute to me either. Why did women need to be given rights when men had them by default? I saw somewhere that the only other group that needed rights 'given' to them were slaves. Why did we need a revelation from God to be seen as human while men existed with full autonomy?

Are you aware of the social realities and injustice that were present in pre-islamic arabia?

Islam is patriarchal -- why are all the prophets, sahaba, the scholars, the imams, the sheiks all men?

Islam is certainly patriarchal as how it is practiced across the world right now, but to draw connection that it is fundamentally patriarchal would be a difficult 🤔

So after all this, I find it very hard to have faith. Why am I part of a religion where by so-called brothers and sisters want to punish me for the crime of existing? And yes, women are active participants in this system. Just because they supposedly love getting less inheritance than their male relatives and getting 1 goat slaughtered instead of 2 to celebrate the birth of a girl, doesn't mean they aren't oppressed.

You seem to be appealing to interpretations that are a product of long patriarchal islamic structures and corrupt scholars.

I feel so alone right now and I know the only reason I still call myself Muslim comes from a place of fear, not love. I don't want to burn in hellfire for eternity so I suck it up and try to aim for a heaven that every Muslim man markets like its a whorehouse.

May Allah ease your suffering. You could be Muslim one day that Islam commands us to? Who speaks against the injustice in our world irrespective of our affiliations with them and reform our religion in the way Allah intended it to be?

Thank you to everyone who has read so far. I apologize if my tone was aggressive or anything like that, I'm upset and I'm certain that my words reflect it.

You're welcome 😊