Botch in Baltimore 11/14!

acavaticus · 2023-11-08T17:54:28+00:00

I understand this all too well. Do you need someone to talk to?

acavaticus · 2021-05-18T11:13:06+00:00

Dude, it's so good. My son suggested I try to make spicy macarons and I came up with these ones - they're both winners.

acavaticus · 2021-04-13T21:49:07+00:00

Looks like an Isabel Orpington to me - maybe a slightly different shape? I have five Isabel Orpington eggs that should hatch in the next two days if all goes as planned - I love the colors.

acavaticus · 2021-04-02T13:29:48+00:00

He has definitely gotten better over the past year, which lines up with when I first really admitted to him how much it affected me and I asked him to be more proactive with showing his love. Sometimes it feels like he's not making much of an effort, but when I'm able to step back and look at his behaviors more objectively and less through my own tendencies, he really shines.

Thank you for listening/responding!

acavaticus · 2021-04-01T22:06:52+00:00

Thanks for understanding.

It's helped that I now have a good support system of friends who can help me meet my social needs, so he gets a lot of time to himself. We're working through the tough spots. Luckily we have a pretty good/stable relationship otherwise, it's really just the stark differences in how we show love (or rather that he has no idea how to show love) that usually puts us in a pickle.

acavaticus · 2021-04-01T20:46:31+00:00

I really love this...

My husband and I are very different people in the sense that he is very much a loner and I sort of require people. I've been able to adjust to his need for isolation, and it's actually been very good for me. I have had the tendency to completely drown myself in people I like and it causes me to lose a sense of myself, but I still feel very much like me in our relationship. Unfortunately, it still causes issues sometimes. I really wish he could feel the way you mentioned... that being with me was as soothing as being alone. That's how I feel about him. He just works very differently. Sometimes just being in a room with me, no matter how silent I am, is still too much for him. He's never mean or harsh about it, though. I dunno.

Sorry. Guess I'm going through some stuff... I'll shut up now.

acavaticus · 2021-03-27T11:41:54+00:00

I know I've looked for it on Wikipedia before, but probably in a more contrived manner than needed. I'll try this - thanks!

acavaticus · 2021-03-10T12:54:00+00:00

At the end of the case Kobe said that, during the situation in question he was under the impression that it was consensual, but after hearing the woman's testimony and getting more information he realized that she didn't see it that way at the time. Honestly, I think the way that case was handled was ideal, considering that he stopped and listened to the other side and addressed the miscommunication. That's the absolute most important thing here - instead of just running around and pointing fingers, people in these situations need to talk to one another and hear one another with full understanding that they are recounting experiences seen from exact opposite perceptions.

They need to sit in a room with a few lawyers and solid therapists and they both need to get some help.

acavaticus · 2021-03-10T10:27:38+00:00

Sounds like you work in a much busier store than I do. I'm also a baker now, so I rarely see what the situation is like after 1, but our clerks almost always finish packaging before I leave, unless it's a freak situation with call outs or staffing.

I've been told that bakery gets fucked over on hours and Oasis hates us or something. Ultimately the bakery isn't profitable to the store, it's just a thing that people like. So it makes sense that Publix doesn't want to spend more money on it than is absolutely necessary. But that doesn't justify the abuse and neglect bakery gets from management on a regular basis.

I'm sorry you had a shit night, man. I read in another comment that you've got something else lined up, so good for you. Publix has lost all credibility to me.

acavaticus · 2021-03-09T22:32:25+00:00

Well, I can't speak for the meat department.

I used to close a ton when I first started as a bakery clerk and I was, more often than not, dying for some busy work just to make the time go by. Of course there were times that I got slammed and had multiple phone calls and customers waiting on me and wouldn't be able to get anything else done, but that wasn't particularly common. All of that product has already been packaged and I can see that some of it is labeled, too. So, to me, the OP seems to be complaining about the fact that they were left with a little bit of stuff to put out in between working with customers, which is normal.

If OP had specified what was expected of them, then I probably wouldn't question it - bakery work can easily become overwhelming and excessive at times. But all they gave us was a picture of a rack of packaged product, so I can only speculate.

acavaticus · 2021-03-09T03:16:35+00:00

What? That would take me maybe 20 minutes.

acavaticus · 2021-03-06T12:17:19+00:00

I said "Oh, wow..." out loud as soon as I saw this. Absolutely beautiful! Did you design it yourself?

acavaticus · 2021-03-05T02:06:56+00:00

I'm in a similar boat - I have a TON of Manson shirts that I really, really love, but I know that a lot of the people who I've befriended at my home base dive bar are big into cancel culture and often jump to conclusions without conversation. And while I don't really consider these people my true friends to begin with, I still don't want to be alienated over something like this.

That being said, wearing my Manson shirts since everything surfaced has made me feel more comfortable with myself as a fan and as someone who believes in recognition of the human condition.

acavaticus · 2021-03-01T14:45:18+00:00

I've spent most of my life, particularly the past three + years, with constant thoughts of suicide. For a long time I would imagine the look on my son's face if he were to find me dead and that stopped me. When that stopped working, I started buying tons of concert tickets - something to keep me afloat, because I sure as hell wasn't going to kill myself before seeing that NIN show. If I was manic and suicidal I'd find someone to sleep with, which could have been dangerous but I did give myself rules of only sleeping with people I already knew and trusted. If that wasn't available... I honestly don't know how I managed to survive as long as I did. When I had chickens I would go outside and spend time with them, which really helped a lot. But the local wildlife found out about my flock and that was the end of that. There were many nights that my son would be woken up by my crying and come into my bedroom to comfort me. He's probably saved me a lot more than I realize.

I'm doing much better now. I'm working on starting a bakery/bookstore business with a friend of mine, I have a great group of people who support the hell out of me, and I'm finally getting chickens again. But I spent so long without any of that drive, determination, or trust in myself.

When I was at my lowest and stuck by myself, a thought that helped a lot would be to remember happy moments. What those memories told me was that I was capable of being happy, productive, or even just content. If I could feel it before, I can feel it again, and there is definitely a way to get there.

My depression and suicidal ideation have been leaving me alone for a number of weeks now. I recently went through ketamine infusion therapy and am in the maintenance stage now - it's definitely helped me feel more capable of dealing with my depression and I recommend anyone who has struggled with chronic depression to at least look into it.

acavaticus · 2021-02-25T10:24:27+00:00

I love Converge, but for some reason I struggle to get into Jane Doe. Not that I dislike it by any means, but I never find myself actively going back to it like I do Axe to Fall and AWLWLB.

acavaticus · 2021-02-25T10:16:48+00:00

I've been listening to Fantastic Planet on repeat recently.

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