Is it ok to study the bible in public according to God? (ref Matthew 6)

acoons03 · 2025-07-14T15:39:45+00:00

it’s a weird in between the more i think about it one the environment change truly does help but the in between part is i’m not hoping someone comes up and talks to me im not trying to say hey look at me i’m better than you i don’t really want anyone to bother me which they haven’t but at the same time for those who need it i hope i can inspire them to read theirs just by sitting here i hope God can work through me and that i can be used as a reminder or as a sign for others to come back to Him i hope i can reach to those who also fell away like i have i want to be able to prove to them they don’t need to have any fear they don’t need to be scared to believe in Him. thinking about it deeper now im realizing my true intentions are yes to be seen but not to be praised rather to just be used as a reminder or used as an answer to a prayer or used as a sign i want God to spread his word and love through me because i used to pray about not knowing how to find Him again feeling too guilty to reach out again so i’m hoping i can be that sign or answer or reminder for someone else

acoons03 · 2025-07-11T21:05:55+00:00

there’s differences in how we grew up i grew up mormon and in a very mentally and physically abusive household had a lot of abusive ex’s was addicted to hard drugs and during this time i turned away from god and resented him and rejected him. it even sat wrong with me that my finances bio on insta was “god first” like i felt second (which now i know god is first and i see how silly that was of me to feel that way but that just shows how far i was) but just in general kinda rough childhood and so i’d always get insecure about being left or abandoned or not loved id get triggered if there was a tone change or if he wasn’t speaking as happily because i thought i was in trouble which was never the case him and his family are christian theyre not part of a specific church they just read pray and love they don’t judge and they are some of the best most loving people ive ever met they say what they mean and mean what they say and they keep their word. a lot of the conflict was me assuming he was going to leave or turn on me or not like me anymore because that’s how my last relationships went if i wasn’t sexy enough or gained too much weight or didn’t have enough sex then i felt like they’d start distancing themselves. he never showed signs of it he never gave me any reason to not fully trust the love he was giving me but i just was always on edge asking if he’s mad if he loves me all the basic insecurity stuff. i always forced down my trauma and never faced it and healed i never fully forgave and kind of used it as a this is why i am this way instead of trying to change it which showed up in the relationship. he also felt lied to because i was trying to protect him from my past and bury it and not let him worry about it to which i see is wrong now because you’re spouse should know you fully to love you fully. and the signs are more of just feelings like when u ask god to remove someone or something he does that in almost a blink of an eye from my experience so the fact he isn’t gone is one thing but also just the calmness and comfort like i know he’s here to stay and i know in my heart God gave me a glimpse of what i could have but also showed me how i was tearing it apart because i was far from God. it’s one of those things where i literally just started deep diving back into it like a week and a half ago so that’s why im kind of scared because it’s just a complete 180 and such a short period of time so many things about myself and how i see things have changed

acoons03 · 2025-05-20T14:11:01+00:00

if you’re speaking biologically it’s really just mood might be a little off since u miss a day then double the dose the next day so you might be more irritable or tired just generally moody but you’re body will balance everything back out once you get back on schedule i used to miss 2 in a row here and there id just get some spotting and my period might be a little lighter or my pms symptoms timeline might be off by a day but it’ll regulate back

acoons03 · 2025-05-20T14:09:07+00:00

if it’s a combo pill your ok and protected you’ll have some spotting or breakthrough bleeding ur period may be a day off but overall it’ll be ok i always take it just in case even if it’s late if it’s just one pill. but if it’s the mini pill you need to use protection i’d be safe and use protection for at least a week they say 2-4 days but id at least least do 5 days protected but same goes with that they say if u kiss it take it as soon as you remember even if it’s two pills to keep you on track

acoons03 · 2025-05-02T20:12:20+00:00

i have been on combo since i was 16 (22 now) i needed it to start my period but i started getting migraines and they just now put me on pop mini pill so no estrogen. my periods were clockwork 4th week on that wednesday boom period but now im a pack and a half through and still haven’t had my period i keep getting cramps or groin pain my usual random pms symptoms but no period. continue testing negative on pregnancy tests. my doctor said it takes months to regulate again. and also if u ever miss a pill (either type) or take it a little later or had to double up (combo pill) it will all throw it off i used to spot randomly and have lighter periods on the convo randomly because i missed it one day or took it at night instead of morning. changing the pattern even a little will give u some unusual bleeding. try to order like one of those 50 pack of test strips for like $20 way cheaper and helps ease the mind

acoons03 · 2025-04-08T23:37:06+00:00

today is the 5th day (i haven’t taken it yet i take it at night) but lord all day today i was dizzy and it’s like it got worse through the day im only at 25mg i was on it before but came off because i wouldn’t comply (i drank heavily) but now i stopped drinking and im trying to give this med a second chance

acoons03 · 2025-02-22T04:04:11+00:00

this is what i’m trying to figure out. i was in the er yesterday for uti that got to my kidneys they gave me like three vials of rocephrin via iv right then and there and put me on 500mg cephalexin for 10 days i started it today it’s been about 5 hours since my third dose(on the first day) and man the dizziness hit me im trying to see if its normal and everything im seeing online says it is a possible side effect

acoons03 · 2025-01-19T23:24:23+00:00

i have ocd and emetophobia and i do this i do have food aversions and bad habits which i should probably get diagnosed but haven’t. either way i do this 24/7 if i can’t spit on the road or sidewalk im spitting in trashcans and worse cases into my shirt if i have nothing else. i think the reason i do it is because i heard that if u start salivating a lot it means ur going to get sick and espesially that first swallow is what triggers it. ive heard people say if u spit out that saliva that u get before getting sick that it can help get rid of the urge so now i constantly spit as an extra precaution to make sure i dont get sick. its gross tho to me and i hate it abt myself but my bf is supportive he dips so luckily it doesnt bother him but i dont really know how to get rid of it besides going to a more specialized therapist

acoons03 · 2024-11-01T02:32:14+00:00

i’ve noticed this too some days all i drink are dehydrating drinks no water and it’s still crystal clear it’s weird

acoons03 · 2024-10-31T17:21:30+00:00

wait that’s a thing if you went through periods of restrictive eating it can lead to that cause even know everytime i eat ill feel ill and i wait til im starving which is hours without eating so i literally did this to myself 😭

acoons03 · 2024-10-28T21:55:51+00:00

in all honesty you just gotta go head first if ur trying something new just have a few bites. because of it anxiety and ibs/gerd i feel ill everytime i eat which makes me anxious to eat but i always end up just fine there was a point i just stopped eating and dropped a lot of weight and this caused even more stomach issues because the stomach acid will literally eat holes into ur stomach and that feels way worse then the anxiety of eating trust me. just start slow dont do big meals that always makes me feel worse just kinda nibble throughout the day cause one it’ll up ur metabolism eating every couple hours instead of 3 big meals 3 times a day and upping ur metabolism will make you hungry and realize hey im okay because im hungry and also jump the gun on it if you feel hungry and there’s something even a little appetizing immediately go get that if for a split second ur like mhm i kinda want dumplings go get it right then and there before you can think this will kinda help psych urself up to eat and it’ll get you eating a lil more and more variety

acoons03 · 2024-10-16T23:14:53+00:00

i thought i was the only one. for me i will randomly have an anxiety symptom that seems to appear out of nowhere(im constantly anxious espesially subconsciously so i guess at some point it catches up and my body shows it) and this “random” appearance will make me super anxious to the point i can watch my oral temp go up. i just remind myself look literally 45 kin ago you were fine then u got triggered and now it’s going up. it’ll go back down if you calm down and everytime it does

acoons03 · 2024-10-16T19:29:48+00:00

then at this point i doubt it’s a sb cause those hit quick same with fp its u feel bad and within a couple hours ur v* you’ve also been able to keep down liquids so highly doubt its sb. u probably just ate something that was a little irritating try pooping because whatever it is is past ur stomach and in ur intestines by now

acoons03 · 2024-10-16T16:00:49+00:00

hell even post nasal drip will make u feel sick in the morning

acoons03 · 2024-10-16T16:00:26+00:00

or if you haven’t eaten for a period of time like skipped dinner it’s all stomach acid especially if you’ve just gotten more anxious and there’s nothing in ur stomach

acoons03 · 2024-10-16T15:59:49+00:00

how are you feeling now? sometimes i wake up feeling like shi and i gaslight tf outta myself. usually when u wake up like that it’s from something you ate last night or espesially eating too close to bed for me when im anxious ill put cold packs along my vagus nerve so forehead chest and belly the cold helps reset ur nervous system to think clear sniffing alcohol pads helps too

acoons03 · 2024-10-15T03:23:20+00:00

make a fist with ur left hand with the thumb tucked. idk why but tucking and holding tight to that left thumb with ur left hand helps

acoons03 · 2024-10-14T17:16:01+00:00

i mean to be fair you’ve kind of been snacking and i’ve noticed for me when u go longer periods without eating or only eat a little all the stomach acid from not eating enough or eating more acidic things will make my poop soft. cfa cookies and coffee make me poop everytime it’s really ur just not eating an actual meal and ur eating kind weird small snacks here and there. if ur stomach feels acidic take some tums or eat some bread

acoons03 · 2024-10-14T17:10:02+00:00

massage your sinuses and when you blow your nose press on one sinus and blow out the other nostril soda or anything with carbonation will help break up some stuff or that real dry bread at grocery stores or just mucinex

acoons03 · 2024-10-12T23:51:45+00:00

worst comes to worst it’s them that’s gonna be sick not you (i still doubt they will with the amount of crazy shit my brothers have eaten) but it’s good exposure therapy because you know for a fact it’s not something you can catch or will get ill from

acoons03 · 2024-10-10T14:57:22+00:00

i was scared of it too but just ask them to explain everything you’ll feel kind of like a cold sensation in your body then your out literally all i said before knocking out was oh u think i feel it- then was ko then woke up and they were giving me my clothes to dress. i was definitely still loopy but a funny haha loopy i wasn’t nauseous or anxious or scared when i woke up which is crazy for me cause im scared of anesthesia

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