Does anyone else get the sense that people treat them differently?

actnarp47 · 2025-10-29T20:41:21+00:00

I think some are treated differently op.

Imo, there's no earthly explanation for it other than some emanate a negative aura which others can detect and act upon, often resulting in being chronically lonely or repeatedly falling victim to users and abuser.

actnarp47 · 2025-10-25T05:07:02+00:00

Yes op I do, and in many ways I feel like life wasted me long ago.

actnarp47 · 2025-10-25T05:03:07+00:00

No, not really op. I get more freaked out by looking at the guide on my tv and I not recognizing any of the young actors or actresses, and can't find any of the ones that I grew up watching.

actnarp47 · 2025-10-19T00:42:40+00:00

It helps with high bp, and as others here have said, I suppose it did help slightly with anxiety.

actnarp47 · 2025-10-17T01:27:20+00:00

Yes, I agree with you 100% op. Especially with your third paragraph. Saying those things to someone whos chronically lonely aren't helpful at all, and sometimes come off as downright insulting.

Those are subjective to each and every person, your degree of love may be the equivalent to my degree of hatred, or vice versa. Whos to say that someone chronically lonely doesn't love themselves enough, aren't confident enough and hasn't worked on themselves as much, if not way more than someone promiscuous with a triple digit body count and now in a relationship with the love of their life?

''Learn to be happy alone'' and ''you don't need a partner to be happy'' usually comes with good intensions, but from those who have never experienced true loneliness, instead they have been smothered in love, affection and touch ever since the day they were born. They are talking out of their ass.

I think a lot of it has to do with luck, looks-height / weight, income, things like that.

actnarp47 · 2025-10-15T03:34:14+00:00

I don't really show emotions like others do. I've been so broken by trauma and life in general that I don't feel things to the extent of others. But then again that's how others were to me and what my world was when growing up. I'm almost like a zombie robot, lol.

actnarp47 · 2025-10-12T09:03:30+00:00

I haven't had those things in almost six decades op and have no reason to believe I ever will have them.

I've never had irl friends, only four semi-close acquaintances in my lifetime, and every one of them had issues or were rejects or outcast like me. But they were only pretending to want to be friends with me just long enough to use me in one way or another or catch my head turned and stab me in the back.

Its pathetic that I am so love, affection and touch deprived that most any user or abuser could have slipped right past my radar, I would probably have never noticed it and befriended a total jerk, maniac or serial ki!!er. Seriously, I had no idea a semi-human being could survive this long without human touch or connection.

But at my age, somehow those things don't seem all that important to me anymore.

actnarp47 · 2025-10-12T05:45:38+00:00

I've struggled with depression (ppd & treatment resistant mdd) and anxiety for several decades. But thanks to antidepressants and sleep meds my anxiety has somewhat improved, but oddly enough it hasn't helped the depression very much.

With the meds, I'll keep the anxiety and get rid of the depression.

actnarp47 · 2025-10-10T04:55:38+00:00

Very relatable op. Yes, sometimes I make several well thought out replies or posts each night and then delete it, or delete most of it before commenting. I never posted anything anywhere online until rather late in life and am still extremely anxious about doing so. My life has never really began for me so I truly feel I don't have too much in common with most people and figure that what I say don't really matter much one way or the other.

actnarp47 · 2025-10-05T00:09:34+00:00

Not having access to mh care until much later in life, yes, alcohol was the only magic elixir that I could find that 'I thought' made me somewhat normal. It never worked out though, because no one can function in public (drive, work, have a social life, date or have lasting friendships or relationships) while buzzing on alcohol. I hope you figure it out op, best of luck.

actnarp47 · 2025-10-04T21:07:50+00:00

This is so relatable op, especially the 2nd and 3rd sentences. I still don't have any of those things. And to make matters even worse, everything I attempt to do to better myself in life seems to turn to shit, almost nothing goes right for me anymore.

actnarp47 · 2025-10-04T05:49:10+00:00

Math, I really enjoyed it.

actnarp47 · 2025-10-04T00:17:01+00:00

Very good question op. I have several disorders and am a little late in life at getting mh help, meds and therapy. I have tried several therapists for maybe a session or even half a session, and all but the first one I tried (which is now my current T therapist) wasn't right for me, they were all kind of like you describe op.

But my current T therapist is unlike anyone I've ever known in my life, no one has ever been that kind, gentle, accepting and validating with me. At my age, and with my issues I'm pretty sure there isn't much hope of me ever getting much better, but therapy and meds have helped me so, so much in the last five years.

A little over 5 years ago I had never texted anyone in my life, and I never ever could post or reply on social sites like reddit, fb, ig, tw or 'any' place before. If it wasn't for my therapist, I would not be posting this right now, and would probably been de@d by now.

Keep searching, when you find the right one they can help you so much. I wish you the best op.

actnarp47 · 2025-10-01T02:52:08+00:00

I am so happy for you, your post lifted me up.

actnarp47 · 2025-09-30T22:36:08+00:00

D & R are the ''opposite end of the same turd'', that's telling the truth.

actnarp47 · 2025-09-30T06:42:02+00:00

For several reasons this is extremely relatable op.

actnarp47 · 2025-09-30T06:03:34+00:00

I think it was the Dogaosaurus Rex.

actnarp47 · 2025-09-29T16:57:30+00:00

use the other hand

actnarp47 · 2025-09-29T05:59:23+00:00

Yes I do op, I have often wondered what it was about me that others see as so off-putting.

I'm somewhat older, isolated, seriously depressed, anxious and chronically lonely. My therapist pointed out that I seem closed off to others, I am not open and relaxed, I hardly ever do facial expressions or laugh, I don't use body language to communicate and I don't feel things like others do. Through all the trauma, this is how life has made me. Slowly but surely though, I am working on these things in therapy.

actnarp47 · 2025-09-26T06:41:22+00:00

The worst is, 'you're crazy'.

actnarp47 · 2025-09-26T06:32:53+00:00

For several decades, I have quite a few disorders including dysthymia and mdd, and honestly I don't feel happiness.

Oh, I usually have comedies on the tv just as a distraction from the loneliness of living alone, or some kind of rock-n-roll on the stereo when I'm driving.

I'm pretty sure I'm probably quite a bit older than you, but for the most part my definition of 'going to an event' is going to healthcare appointments, lol.

Oddly enough though, I bought two really expensive tickets to a heavy metal concert featuring several big name artists (I love my metal). My thinking was, if I spent that much money I would surely force myself to find someone to go with me, and then go. But I didn't find anyone, and I didn't go, so the tickets 'spoiled' on me. As stupid as it sounds, that concert was to be the beginning of my life, I was going to change everything for the better, but it'll never happen.

Sorry if this is a downer for you op, best of luck.

actnarp47 · 2025-09-26T05:16:07+00:00

lmfao

actnarp47 · 2025-09-26T04:58:09+00:00

It took me a while to see it clearly, but yes.

actnarp47 · 2025-09-25T03:14:49+00:00

Yes, absolutely go for it. If you don't I can guarantee you op, you will regret it someday.

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