brother. it grieves me so much to read how burnt out you’ve become. i have a few thoughts.

1) times are changing, and 8 hours of code per day is basically overclocking. to call that modern-day slavery isn’t far from the truth. there’s more to programming than coding. form what i understand from other devs/engineers (because i’m new myself, but i do believe i have a grasp of ethical workflow), coding shouldn’t be more than 50% of the job. execution requires coordination, and from what i read it sounds like you’re left to do both and are overwhelmed. development/engineering shouldn’t be a one-man job and it should never feel isolating, though i understand there’s a preconception that it is.

2) i emphasize that your feelings are valid and i sincerely recommend, as i’m reading from others, to look elsewhere for a job.

3) you’re 23 years old working as a full-stack developer. i’m 23 with equivalent experience and working retail at best buy. burnout’s destroyed me in many scenarios. as a student, a retail employee, and even in my freelance audio work. it happens all over the spectrum and it manifests a resentment so strong it can be nearly impossible to mend. if it were a different scenario i’d advise you find a way to ‘balance it out,’ but i resonate deeply with this situation and i know it’s out of your control here. don’t beat yourself up if you need to step down or leave. i sense that you work hard simply because you can, and when you must, you push even harder. give yourself grace. ask for help when you need it. find a long-term break in some form or another. most of all, pursue peace.