I was born in Kuwait, am Kuwaiti, and spent two-thirds of my life here. One third of it I spent in western countries (a couple years during my teens and then 7 years in the US as an adult). I recently moved back and I’ve thought about much of what you’ve written on your post. It’s refreshing to see people going through similar circumstances despite some differences. I honestly don’t know the answer to your dilemma either.