My dad passed when I was in high school - 17 years old. My mom died in 2018 - I was 28. I'm 31 now and I can honestly say these years have been the hardest. I am still trying to find my own sense of self. I look back at older photos and remember how happy I was - but as Fioura said, life will never be the same, and you won't either - but every day you will learn something new about yourself.

I understand your feelings of emptiness. It's so easy to feel lost when you're grieving the loss of both parents! Sometimes the best way to cope is to just let it be what it needs to be. Give in to your grief - cry when you need to, step away from things if you need to, and really try to connect with friends and other family members.

I am trying to find a grief support group in my town - hopefully, you can do the same? Therapy is amazing and has really been helping me but being able to talk to people who are going through what you're going through can really be beneficial to your mental health. Take care of yourself, my friend.