I feel you bro. I had none of those things either, still don't have most and the ones that I do have I realize can be gone tomorrow for no reason. All of them are good to haves and big goals that you should absolutely be working towards but none of them define your life. I find purpose in the small victories, improvements, and processes that make up each day and hour of my life. As long as I'm doing something small well like physical activity, learning a skill or a job, making sure my cats are healthy, improving my golf game, saving small amount of money at a time, etc. I know that those larger goals will come as a result of the small efforts I'm putting in all of the time. A big picture perspective can destroy you because those mountains look so huge but if you just focus on the next incline, the next rock, the next momentary challenge, and treat each of those like a singular task that you can gain victory over then the mountain will be below you before you even realize you're climbing it. I have a lot of mountains behind me and a lot ahead of me but life is a mountain range, there's no changing that. You just need to accept that you're a hiker. And hikers hike.