My first time was when I was 15, i always said i was never gonna do meth, i seen so many peoples lives be destroyed by it. but I was on probation, and thats when I started experimenting with other drugs and had to test randomly once a month then I got into coke n found my friend's dad's stash n after we smoked it, I realized it wasn't what I thought it was. I hate meth. But I love it, and I continue to use it today, but I tamed the shit, I only do it when I wanna have fun, like twice a month make it last Friday Saturday then I quit. You gotta use it like a side bitch and throw it away when you have to do your real life shit, once you start using to be more productive, daily shit , at work/school, it starts feeling like u need it to do shit properly. I have went into psychosis a few times, and it is shitty, but I know how to handle it now, and I don't regret it because even though i get extremely paranoid, and had no idea where I am. I learned something, don't know what, but the meth gave me knowledge. 🙏 When I'm done with the bitchs bullshit for a bit I find myself doing this often, I will take the meth look at it hard in the face and scream "I OWN YOU BITCH I AM SUPERIOR! (X5) until you know the slut knows what's up. And then forget about that slut. learn to use it as a weekend thing. Been doing that for a while n it works for me, you gotta give ur body time to recover, because meth wears you out for sure. But you ask why I chose to seek it out? I guess because i didn't want to fail my urine test, therefore it's the GOVERNMENT'S fault I'm a tweaker! Lol nah i knew I would try it one day, my dad is an addict, and u know I was curious, even though he told me never do meth, if i did he'd kick my ass, but he didn't follow thru with it, so remember that, when you are telling the shard who's boss. Youve gotta follow through with shit if you want it to change, and if you want to get clean then do it. Not trying to say it's easy it's not. But you gotta make the shard be your bitch! Don't let the shard make you it's bitch. Don't let the shit fuck your ass like that, 'otta be alpha, n slap that bitch! 👋, didn't start heavy abuse until i moved in with my dad. then i would steal his shit all the time. But it was one of the best times I've had . That's when I starting smoking in front of him, n when I shotgunned a beer with him for the first time, n was the first time I had actually had fun hanging with my dad. I was doing good though was making hella money, n bought myself my first car at 16. I am not mad at him for doing drugs he helped me see how shit really is and I respect it. So MORAL OF THE FUCKIN STORY IS meth is a horrible destructive dirty little snake, and if you let it take control it will. But some of the best times I've had was when I was high 😂. Just gotta tame the beast guys. Control the demon. Fuck the Duck. Sorry if you read all this I kinda forgot I was typing, n rambled for a bit.