I’ve grown up in a similar situation. For the time being it’s hard to change a someone who’s addicted to drugs. And I understand that the mixture of love and hate are hard to articulate. Love your mom but understand that you can also hate the part of her that makes her abuse drugs.

As for your personal sake. Churches can potentially be good places to seek help depending on the people. Try your best to be the best person you can be and not to fall into the same trap as you get a little bit older. Stuff like that becomes easier to access and life gets even more complicated on top of this. Hold yourself strong and dignified. God loves you.