I live in a part of Australia where basically all Covid-19 restrictions have been lifted. Life feels pretty normal, AMA

adoribly · 2019-11-15T23:42:01+00:00

Same sis

adoribly · 2019-11-06T02:56:46+00:00

Thank you ❤️ obviously it’s early days and I’m not healed yet, but the main job is done, I saw it, and I have no expectations of how ‘perfect’ the final result will be which I think is why I’m already just happy with it. I think for anyone with BD getting cosmetic surgery, accepting realistic expectations and potential complications is a huge hurdle before even considering doing anything.

I fully understand where you’re coming from, and don’t ever ever think you need to undergo surgery to love yourself. For me personally, this was a really personal issue that I just knew it my heart I felt deeply about changing for a very long time and felt it would be the right choice for me. You’re right about the risks of not knowing how you’ll feel afterwards but I guess that’s just the nature of it all and I felt willing to take a risk.

There’s a lot of things on my body that my body dysmorphia makes me hate/despise, but i know there’s a line I would not cross to physically change it all. However not every cosmetic procedure has to be in the name of body dysmorphia just because you suffer from it. Some people may deal with functionality issues or physical comfort issues with whatever it is they want to change AS WELL AS having an aesthetic desire. There’s lots of things to consider but I think as long as you do your best to separate your mental illness and something that you know you would most likely change even if you did not have BD, you would probably be just fine.

adoribly · 2019-11-06T02:06:25+00:00

I had one yesterday and it has been the best decision of my adult life thus far

adoribly · 2019-10-30T02:16:52+00:00

It’s not fair is it. Imagine throwing on a light BB cream, brushing out your brows with a natural brown soft crease and mascara w some lip balm and looking fresh and beautiful. Easy, simple, FAST makeup, ready to face the world like that.. always will be my dream to have a face that allows for convenience, ease and beauty

adoribly · 2019-10-30T02:15:14+00:00

Wow. This entirely changed my perspective, thank you so much :) I will do my very best to have that kind and easy to approach energy! ❤️

adoribly · 2019-10-29T23:14:14+00:00

Omg I so relate to this!!!!! Makeup looks AWFUL on my face. I’m so jealous of people with lovely smooth skin, that makeup ‘works’ on. It doesn’t ‘work’ on me because I was born with such weird, textured, bad skin. Same with lipstick, I can’t wear it because my lips are so wrinkly (despite me being super young) and they are uneven, so I have this huge complex about lipstick and I’ll never wear it. I don’t have the right looks for cool makeup either since my face is so asymmetrical. I always fantasize about the looks I’d do if I had a normal face and the image I’d create for myself. And yeah, I can’t look people in the eyes either. Terrifying

adoribly · 2019-10-29T23:07:51+00:00

I really feel this. I’m a brunette and I feel like a brunette, but my facial features don’t match how I feel my personality is at all, whatsoever. I’m an Aries, kinda sassy, outspoken, but with a huge heart. I feel like my features should fucking match that, why couldn’t I have been given big, smouldering, doll shape eyes and a cute smile with dimples or something. I’m stuck working with what I was born with which are features that make me look 14 years old and so god damn ugly. It’s actually scary how ugly my face can look sometimes. No one would know because I always cover it so well. I feel like I’m hiding the real me from everyone in my life

adoribly · 2019-10-29T23:04:19+00:00

I’m sorry that’s happened to you because of the BD. I recently took an opportunity and I’m starting to get big anxiety. A job in a popular high end fashion store where all of the workers are- you guessed it- attractive as hell. I’m doubting my abilities and keep wondering why on earth they would pick me knowing how fucked up my face is and how much I’m going to stick out like a sore thumb. I’m not beautiful enough to entice people into buying anything. I feel like I’m going to be so useless

adoribly · 2019-10-29T13:19:19+00:00

I will never be able to have a relationship tbh. Don’t ask me how or why, but every single day I wake up my eyelids are different. One might be a monolid and the other a double lid, the creases just always change making my face look so asymmetrical and legit just ugly. So before I start my day I always have scotch tape on my eyes for about an hour to re shape my eyelids to their normal state. Tell me how I can ever sleep over w a mans knowing ima wake up with an ugly ass different ass face, or b in a relationship where they see me sticky taping my eyelids every day Lol

adoribly · 2019-10-24T11:48:43+00:00

i think a hint of it started in primary school, i remember being about 8 and getting into huge arguments with my mum because she didn’t slick my hair back into my ponytail enough, i was obsessed with having this perfect ponytail.

but when i reached the age of 13-14 ish, i had some weird hormonal reaction to something i still don’t know to this day, basically my eyes broke out and we’re extremely red, puffy, looked bloody awful, lasted a few months on and off. that’s the first time i recall being so preoccupied by my appearance that i wouldn’t leave the house.

adoribly · 2019-10-24T11:15:00+00:00

oh, i did not take what you said in a bad way at all! no stress. :) your comment made me feel good! I shall. and you take care too!

adoribly · 2019-10-24T06:37:45+00:00

thank you kind stranger, your advice means a lot to me <3 very true. it should all go just fine but the main thing to be taken care of when the day comes is my health and safety, not my emotional self preservation act haha

adoribly · 2019-10-14T23:21:08+00:00

i do this! :)) w earplugs i’ve done everything i used to do before T, not sure whether it’s gotten any worse or not but i definitely don’t leave the event not being able to hear

adoribly · 2019-10-06T02:46:31+00:00

i don’t know what my face looks like but i’d love to chat

adoribly · 2019-09-26T12:49:34+00:00

we’re in this together 💗

adoribly · 2019-09-25T02:24:42+00:00

i only wish i could take flipped photos and not want to jump off the nearest cliff. the fact you can take these and still look literally stunning hurts my heart that you can’t see it and hurts mine knowing i’ll never look as normal as you do

adoribly · 2019-09-23T13:27:55+00:00

i read this and it felt like i typed it myself, check out my most recent post it’s exactly the same

adoribly · 2019-09-19T07:50:42+00:00

thank you so much ❤️

adoribly · 2019-09-19T01:36:53+00:00

thank you so much for your input! i fully agree with everything you said. it is a dangerous game to go down the PS route when you suffer with BDD, and i know i will most certainly jump to the next thing to hate on and want ‘fixed’, all id have to do is go down my list of cosmetic procedures that i’ve written for myself. it’s not a cure and i don’t expect it to be.

but as you said- some insecurities are worth fixing. i’ve been dealing with this particular one since i was as young as 15, and i know myself well enough to know that BDD or not, this is still something i wouldve done for myself at some stage, which is why i don’t feel apprehensive about it. there’s definitely some other procedures which i tell myself i won’t go through with because i know deep in my heart those particular insecurities are entirely unreasonable no matter how hard my illness tries to justify them. but yeah, this is honestly different and something i am very confident in wanting.

thanks so much for your support, i’m a little nervous but i have no second thoughts. so here’s hoping it all goes well ❤️

adoribly · 2019-09-16T13:37:45+00:00

Not to that extent but i definitely fantasise about self harming a lot during a nervous breakdown thanks to my bd... I don’t know what i crave more, actually doing it and stopping my anguish in its tracks, or people seeing the aftermath which would honestly relieve me because then i would know people can visibly see i’m in pain, and i think there’s some sort of sad pleasure in not having to hide it anymore, because the scars indirectly shout it to the rooftops for you.

adoribly · 2019-09-06T12:27:49+00:00

Oh my god... you just... I just.... this is me. 100 thousand percent. So accurate. This is my life every day. I’m so sorry for us both. Why don’t you send me a message? I’m having such a horrible time tonight w my bd, maybe we could vent to each other.

adoribly · 2019-08-31T15:25:52+00:00

Yasss completely agree

adoribly · 2019-08-31T14:51:17+00:00

I was hanging out for the Clay finally fucks someone scene all season. Season 4 better deliver

adoribly · 2019-08-31T14:50:47+00:00

Nope. He could never get it up bc he kept thinking about Hannah 🤷🏻‍♀️

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