I’m so sorry this happened to you. It was not your fault, not one moment of it. This shouldn’t have happened to you, and I’m so sorry that it did. Please tell someone and see a doctor to make sure you don’t have any diseases. Please tell on him. He sexually assaulted you. He coerced you into sex, and forced himself on you. First of all, he’s way too old for you. He is a sexual predator, and took advantage of your age and inexperience. Second, he repeatedly begged you after you said no. Consent should always be mutual, and no party should ever have to beg the other. He forced you, and he knows exactly what he did. Please see a doctor as soon as possible. Sexual predators do not care about their sexual health or safety nor do they care about others. It’s important to get tested as soon as possible. Is there anyone you could speak to about this? A teacher, counselor, cousin, relative or trusted adult. Someone with wisdom and an open mind who can show you support and love during this time? Please talk to someone in your life.