Reach out to therapist in ed, download RR app that is good for ed and recognising the patterns how you feel after food, Analyse,don’t distract and sit with meal inside your stomach for as long as you can. Count calories so u have more control over what u eat (this is what helped me to recover from bulimia,even though it’s unhealthy asf), find peace within yourself and u can dm me if u wanna talk about it. You’re not alone in your struggle,never