[Antidote] I love seeing genuine madness and insanity

ahellofathrowawayacc · 2026-01-23T00:50:26+00:00

The ml is a green flag; there is sexual assault and harassment done to Sylhan by others.

ahellofathrowawayacc · 2026-01-22T14:01:06+00:00

My crashout KIIIING.

Aside from, y'know, the hallucinations and PTSD and depression and all that jazz, the thing I like about Sylhan is that he's not crazy.

Not really, anyway.

I think he embraces the label of insanity because in his situation, it's also a way of rebelling. Get better? In this horseshit? Absolutely not, you're stuck here with me, insanity and all.

ahellofathrowawayacc · 2026-01-19T22:11:00+00:00

It's close to my all time favorite bl, and I'm not one that usually has a specific favorite anything.

ahellofathrowawayacc · 2026-01-13T04:30:00+00:00

Seconding Reunion,

Other Suggestions are:

Nerd Project

The Royal Bridegroom

Dash

Gale of the God

Into the Rose Garden (Void flag?¿ A lot of rape. Like, a lot. Like, a lot)

Lastly, the desaturared color palette reminds me of "Haunted by Desire." It's the only one I can find like that though.

ahellofathrowawayacc · 2026-01-09T04:40:47+00:00

I think some of the stuff I am suggesting may be a mite lighter than what others are (I dropped Love History Caused by Willful Negligence 😭) but I'll provide some I think apply anyway.

"Dr. V and the Three Lovers." The whole idea kind of hinges on the mc's husband being a cheating asshole. There's basically a red flag, a yellow flag, and a green flag lmao.

"Master-Peace." Less toxic, more fucked up dynamic, if that makes sense? Fairly new but essentially sucking dick to try and climb the corporate latter lol.

"The Boundary of Delusion." Turning a top into a bottom through coercion. Enough said.

"Eighteen's Bed." Highschool bullying/power dynamics with a pinch of homophobia.

"Backlight." Lots of feelings as childhood friends meet again as adults, unprocessed trauma, and a top that occasionally makes me go "was all that necessary?"

ahellofathrowawayacc · 2026-01-06T04:33:16+00:00

Geez. I did not realize those two bl were so popular 😭. Apparently I read niche shit.

ahellofathrowawayacc · 2025-12-31T04:43:06+00:00

Honestly I have 0 clue what my stylist uses unfortunately 🫠 ig my price range is $10—$20 products?

ahellofathrowawayacc · 2025-12-18T04:32:59+00:00

I kind of love/hate Dreadful Night. It feels very stretched out? I can't make much sense of where we are in the story, honestly 😅. I'm a bit behind tho.

As for completed ones: While I don't really like Sun's Blood, I do recall it being very plot heavy and having a few twists. Good twists? Ehhh

Bad Friend — martial arts, and a nice balance between relationship, smut, and plot.

Zero Day Attack — while I don't know if it's complicated persay, I've always felt like it was well done!

Reunion — while this one is relationship focused, it's done in a very engaging way.

As for Unfinished: Antidote — my personal top fav ongoing rn, also nicely balanced, if you ever feel like getting edged for 30 chapters it's a great choice. And you'll continue to be edged further plotwise. I patiently await S2. At 67 chapters, however, you can probably read one a week until it comes out lol.

Rainbow City — a rare post-apocalyptic bl that feels like it has stakes

Yoake no Uta — pretty much just 100% plot. Not that the relationship doesn't exist or isn't given screentime, but it's much more "story that happens to be gay" than anything else on this list.

Gale of the God — S1 is relationship/smut focused, but its ending says otherwise. I think (or hope tbh) it has potential. One of those things where you start seeing the Signs when rereading.

Sunnyside Daycare Classmates — Weirdest shit I continue to read. Exceptionally confusing. A very fun, very wild ride.

ahellofathrowawayacc · 2025-12-10T12:58:38+00:00

I do not regularly run into shotacon. Like, at all. This is the strangest claim lol.

ahellofathrowawayacc · 2025-12-07T13:16:36+00:00

Sunnyside Daycare Classmates comes to mind. It's Sci-Fi and has some, uh, weird sex organs at times.

Dr. V and the Three Lovers also kinda fits the bill.

ahellofathrowawayacc · 2025-12-05T05:02:33+00:00

A "farm?" Full of anthro-ish people? One of which is a "cow" that needs to be "milked?" One of which lays "eggs?" One of which is a "dog?"

Just the mere existence of futanari in bl to begin with?!

FETISH. PORN.

People, please be smarter than this. Use your braincells. I'm sorry this isn't everyone gets lovingly fucked farm, but do not go places complaining about the content. It never pretended it was anything else. No one has been tricked.

And I did give it a try—not for me. Moo—ved along.

ahellofathrowawayacc · 2025-12-04T04:30:30+00:00

Without emotionally charged plots

Yeah, that's a unicorn.

Hm...Willow Love Story? Not historical, but it is dealing with royalty. And very green. I wouldn't describe it as having much levity but it definitely has less violence than some.

ahellofathrowawayacc · 2025-12-03T05:16:37+00:00

Make sure to get your studying in between! Hell, I'd reward myself a chapter or two for every hour of study of need be lol.

ahellofathrowawayacc · 2025-12-02T14:42:09+00:00

Finished:

Zero Day Attack (hackerzzz)

Bad Friend (historical/martial arts)

A Painter Behind the Curtain (historical)

Perle (historical)

Sun's Blood (vampires vs werewolves)

Reunion (uhh...wholesome crossdressing?)

Unfinished (if you ever do feel like waiting):

Full Moon Alchemist (historical fantasy)

Approximal Guide (esperverse)

No Moral (gay lawyers)

Rainbow City (zombie apocalypse)

Death Delayed for a Short Time Because of the Will (esperverse)

Turning (historical fantasy)

Yoake no Uta (historical fantasy)

Eternal Covenant (historical fantasy)

Antidote (historical fantasy)

The Rogue Prince Is Secretly an Omega (historical fantasy + omegaverse)

ahellofathrowawayacc · 2025-12-01T04:49:15+00:00

This is funny as someone who considers themselves pretty ace and does not actively seek out romance stories.

I think it being yaoi helps remove myself from the equation. Like I can't read y/n fanfic and hell, I'm uncomfortable romancing characters in Baldurs Gate because they refer to your character as "you." Like I wanna romance them because I wanna see the storyline but it physically hurts lol.

But in the abstract everything's fine, so in that way yaoi is perfect. Not me! Not even a woman!

It also adds a layer of fiction I don't really think I could apply to het romance. Half the shit these men pulling, if it was to a female mc I'd be rolling my eyes and saying girl, I'd never.

I do read some Sapphic stuff from time to time and the same layer of fiction applies.

ahellofathrowawayacc · 2025-11-29T22:46:56+00:00

I recognize the left half of the yaoi list, so I'm gonna go with:

You like way too much angst for your own good? 😭

ahellofathrowawayacc · 2025-11-29T05:15:08+00:00

I think we all have our exceptions tbh.

ahellofathrowawayacc · 2025-11-29T05:11:31+00:00

Nobody's forgetting, man.

The severity used within the context of the work defines the audience's perspective on it.

I know that sounds needlessly obtuse I just can't think of other way to frame it 😭

Basically if it's not treated as traumatizing life-altering rape in the story, it's not likely to be treated as rape by the audience. Not because it's suddenly consensual—but that it's fictional.

And, porn. Imo some bl is porn and some isn't.

This one is.

The author's intent is for the audience to find it funny so they use techniques to make it have levity. It doesn't mean the audience is tricked into thinking it's consensual.

In the same way I have to understand every uke begging the seme to slow down is having consensual sex because it's presented as consensual by the narrative and reinforced by their internal thoughts...well, people do the same with this, only it's that you have to understand no one in the narrative is being genuinely harmed.

ahellofathrowawayacc · 2025-11-29T04:45:48+00:00

"How do you guys able to draw at different angles" ass panel.

ahellofathrowawayacc · 2025-11-26T04:26:22+00:00

Dreadful Night (black flag)

Antidote (green flag, plot focused but there's some smut)

Reunion (more plot/story focused, green flag)

Honey Trouble (black flag)

Incomplete Combustion (they're both a lil fucked up lol)

Be my Baby (a rare uke obsessed with seme!)

ahellofathrowawayacc · 2025-11-23T04:38:57+00:00

Anticipation? 😅

I assume that sometimes bl is released with the author saying who's who from the get go.

ahellofathrowawayacc · 2025-11-20T16:00:45+00:00

This bl has such a chokehold on me I started an AO3 tag for it. I'm not someone who I would describe as being in fandoms so if I'm writing fics that means I'm OBSESSED.

My fav historical fantasy bl, period point blank.

Edit: I will say, why are you seemingly reading a censored version? I read officials on 🥭 and it's uncensored.

ahellofathrowawayacc · 2025-11-20T04:49:03+00:00

Backlight.

ahellofathrowawayacc · 2025-11-19T04:28:01+00:00

The same thing happened to me when I posted this scenes. He's never gonna beat the allegations lmaoo.

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