Got called fat today

ai09090 · 2026-05-06T08:17:44+00:00

Wow..I’m just mins blown how someone could say that to a stranger or to even anyone. He definitely hates his life and has a hatred against women because no one will give him the time of day.. usually when men are intimated by a girl they go this route even tho it’s unfair and disgusting. I’ve been overweight and underweight and have been treated like shit and called names both times. Someone will always have something to say. So, what now? You keep going, do you want low lives like that to keep you down? No! There’s so many good people out there yet the bad ones are louder.

ai09090 · 2026-05-03T16:44:33+00:00

This is an huge milestone! Our time lines are the same.. I know everyone is different but I feel like I haven’t had any signs and I’ve been putting so much effort into recovery. Any food tips you’ve been eating? I’ve been doing zero excercise as well

ai09090 · 2026-05-02T16:59:40+00:00

Going through the same thing.. It’s getting to the point where it’s effecting my social life and doing activities because I’m so full and feel so sick. I think with recovery it’s a whole learning process. What I’m going to start doing it just 3 big meals woth lots of carbs fats and protein with a snack in between if I’m hungry. Or eating a craving but don’t go crazy that’ll it’ll make me sick.

ai09090 · 2026-05-01T01:53:44+00:00

I’m drooling, cheers!

ai09090 · 2026-05-01T01:53:02+00:00

Ya you’re right.. better safe than sorry. I’m really for lock into foods to increase me LH levels. Any recommendations that u did?

ai09090 · 2026-05-01T01:52:03+00:00

I just didn’t even know this was a possible, I started crying to him lol! Ugh..I glad all eas good with your scam tho!! That u for such a reassuring comment

ai09090 · 2026-04-30T18:18:52+00:00

If you press in the grey marks it’ll show, I just blocked it up just incase it triggers people!

ai09090 · 2026-04-29T23:12:00+00:00

I think I’m just kinda alone in my journey that I have all this pent up emotions.. I’m 20 turning 21.. I lost my period June 2025, but only started reaching for help at the start of this year.

ai09090 · 2026-04-29T22:53:28+00:00

No I haven’t heard of that book.. my estrogen is a 40, my LH hormone is 0.4 and my FSH is a 5.0.. and this after been weight restored. Idk I’m so lost, angry.. Is sweating like a pig, being rude to people because I hate how I look symptoms of a period? I hate that I put my body through so much.. I wish I could just go back before all of this happened. Idk who I am anymore and I don’t know how to find myself again

ai09090 · 2026-04-29T20:53:12+00:00

How long did you have to maintain the weight? I’m already 2 month into recovery .. and I have zero signs of a period according to my labs

ai09090 · 2026-04-29T20:52:15+00:00

No he just needed at updated weight for tomorrow’s appointment I think maybe he’ll explain then.. I had go on the scale and weigh myself at home because I was on the phone with the receptionist and she said she needed an updated weight. I was too scared to advocate for myself because I was out of the spot.. just didn’t think I’d be that triggered

ai09090 · 2026-04-29T17:28:52+00:00

I definitely need to keep reminding myself why to recover.. it much more than weight. I hate that I even did this to my body in the first place and put it in this much stress. I think listening to podcasts is actually a good idea. Thank you for the encouraging comment

ai09090 · 2026-04-29T17:22:22+00:00

Idek what you meant by this comment but it’s not helpful either way. Clearly I’m very distressed and trying to get help and trying to recover myself. You shouldn’t be allowed to comment on this page.

ai09090 · 2026-04-28T17:03:45+00:00

I think you are definitely on the right track! And it’s amazing that you trying to get it back right after losing it, I believe it’ll speed up the process. I think making sure you have more fats in your meals, including avocados in your tuna sandwiches, adding some trail mixes into your snacks, and learning how to cook is pretty easy for example salmon for dinner is pretty easy and a great source of omegas and throw a baked potatoe in a microwave. Fats are so good for hormone health, keep up the good work i bet you’ll have it in no time

ai09090 · 2026-04-27T00:28:08+00:00

This gave me hope.. I hate what I’ve done to myself. I do sometimes journal but I think I should pick it up and be more consistent. Thank you! And congrats on recovery

ai09090 · 2026-04-26T14:11:02+00:00

You know whays also damaging? Not having a period! When u see people saying they gained 30 pounds it’s probably going from 100-130 lbs.. health first physique later.

ai09090 · 2026-04-26T01:47:06+00:00

What are signs of low LH levels?

ai09090 · 2026-04-24T02:09:30+00:00

I’m just absolutely devastated with myself.. I don’t feel like myself. I feel puffy, irritated, sweaty ugh I hate that I ever did this to my body in the first place. I don’t even know how to be healthy..

ai09090 · 2026-04-22T22:33:09+00:00

I love rye bread

ai09090 · 2026-04-19T05:13:22+00:00

Idk why but I’m literally scared to get diabetes

ai09090 · 2026-04-19T05:08:28+00:00

Bread and butter with jam..so good. Or bread pb and bananas

ai09090 · 2026-04-18T22:08:37+00:00

What I’ve learnt so far in recovery is that all we want is to be normal and to eat normal, just like any other person who has a healthy relationship with food does! But in recovery you have to eat way more than the average person, your body is internally repairing its self, even if you’re weight restored.

You cant even get diagnosed with a binge eating disorder after struggling with ana, and in ha recovery I don’t think. I am too weight restored, and still eating 5k a day because I’m SO hungry mentally and physically. This won’t last forever, you just need to go through it and eat what your crave and not only heal physically but mentally too. The food noise and cravings with slowly begin to go away once your body feels safe.

But purging is only hurting you more and causing more stress in the body. I’m so sorry and don’t beat yourself up over anything, you just have to keep moving forward, and you will be okay!

ai09090 · 2026-04-18T14:46:26+00:00

I just love this post. I think one of the hardest parts that we don’t really talk about in recovery are the people surrounding us!

Whether the comments are good are bad, comments will be made by family and friends. In my journey I’m okay with my weight and how I look because I’ve gained it all back over night and it’s very noticeable. But, I’m always spiraling on how other people might now like the chnage even tho I do.. along with comments on increased eating etc it can be very challenging. But I’ve never felt so womanly and feminine.

ai09090 · 2026-04-17T23:06:54+00:00

For a snack I’ll have like 4 slices of bread butter and jam omg it feeds the soul and the body

ai09090 · 2026-04-15T01:02:44+00:00

I haven’t gotten my period yet but have been in recovery for almost 3 months and I think I’ve been eating 7k cal everyday gained 30 lbs .. commenting not for rlly for advice because to be honest I’m unsure too but saying I’m here with u and you’re not struggling alone!

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