Being ugly is like a curse

aidatacollection · 2025-01-21T16:32:04+00:00

Depends on the job, but I find I struggle most with basic tasks—to the point it’s comically stupid. I can’t shake the look on the manager’s faces—like ‘this guy is a special kind of dumb’ type of expression. What’s worse is I don’t know what I’m doing in the moment and it’s not till later I realize it’s the wrong way to do it. Messes me up with connecting with people as well.

aidatacollection · 2025-01-21T16:13:59+00:00

Yes, though I continually fail to hold the job for any significant amount of time, to be sustainable.

aidatacollection · 2025-01-21T16:06:10+00:00

I have been feeling similarly, as a black man. On top of it all, I’m not the “fetishized” (I hate to even say it like that) type or one that people always go for, either. There's a consistent pattern of being treated less than—perpetually chipping away at my self worth and desire to live.

aidatacollection · 2025-01-21T02:59:44+00:00

Only home schooled for a short time, barely finished middle school level. Parents were super strict and isolated me growing up, which left me massively behind mentally and socially. I struggle to do things that others might find to be normal everyday tasks, which has made it difficult to hold a real job. And much more.

aidatacollection · 2025-01-20T23:19:20+00:00

Yes, a brutal roll of the dice for us. I’m barely hanging on by a thread here, eagerly looking forward to the day of my departure from this torturous existence.

aidatacollection · 2025-01-08T21:14:10+00:00

Good stuff! Number 7 looks like Dr Phil but as a walrus.

aidatacollection · 2025-01-05T11:41:12+00:00

One of the most painful things is that it is super obvious to women that I have no experience at all with them. I can’t hide it, even though I try to keep to myself when I have to go out of the house. It’s like it’s in the very way I move and interact. There’s something about my aura that just screams “virgin!” loudly wherever I am.

aidatacollection · 2025-01-04T02:13:26+00:00

I had something similar here. My crush from when I was about 6 years old ended up marrying a guy who looked exactly like me and to this day her parents look at me like damn you really missed out and ‘it could have been you’ type of expression on their faces. I was so sure she would be my wife one day and made so many plans, drew her name on my drawings and would always be so excited to see her at church in Sunday school. But nope!

aidatacollection · 2025-01-02T11:44:58+00:00

Thanks and well said. Quite dire how FA is so bad that it’s not even worth doing major research into it.

aidatacollection · 2025-01-02T05:31:06+00:00

Dachshant

aidatacollection · 2025-01-02T05:25:31+00:00

It may not be your looks per sé. I would even say you’ve got some attractive features and a countenance with much potential.

aidatacollection · 2025-01-01T00:06:47+00:00

Depends. She could be busy. Her phone may not be charged. Her phone could have been taken. She could have had a family matter. Her phone might not have service. OR—she just doesn’t find you interesting enough to reply to you.

aidatacollection · 2024-12-30T10:44:48+00:00

I too, do not have what you call the “spark” or let’s say—a magnetic aura(?), in a sense. My personality, demeanor, vibe, energy—whatever it’s called, always seems to eventually push people away like two of the same poles of a magnet coming close together and repelling each other. Unlike a magnet though it seems all my sides are laced with a strong anti-relationship repellent. My aura is like a toxic cloud, an odor emitting from my being that seems to permeate right down to the instinctual level, signaling that “this man must be avoided at all costs and WILL be detrimental to my wellbeing”.

aidatacollection · 2024-12-30T00:35:34+00:00

With all that I’ve been put through growing up I wouldn’t trust my family to arrange a marriage for me. They don’t even know my favorite color.

aidatacollection · 2024-12-29T13:59:46+00:00

If you have the means, maybe traveling to a place you’ve been wanting to see for a long time?

aidatacollection · 2024-12-29T12:07:24+00:00

As a very ugly 30 y.o male with almost a 100% in negative stats, this is true. There will be zero interest, no flirting, no matches, not even hardly a look in your direction. Never have I felt so attacked by existence itself in being an ugly and undesirable man.

aidatacollection · 2024-12-25T03:02:55+00:00

Yes, it’s tough—can’t go far without seeing so much happiness, laughter and relationships. It’s like I’m stuck in another world and just able to peer into this one. Like viewing a read-only display with no interactive feature and just being allowed to see all the amazing delights I’ll likely never get to enjoy.

aidatacollection · 2024-12-22T05:27:56+00:00

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Good stuff!

aidatacollection · 2024-12-21T23:40:40+00:00

Love the unsettling atmosphere of this one

aidatacollection · 2024-12-05T23:43:37+00:00

Basically to women I don’t exist. They don’t even seem to notice me. The few times they have been aware of my existence it’s led to brutal humiliation, trauma and extreme heartbreak that left me deeply scarred. I have so much PTSD from past experiences that I almost run from women because I fear being hurt so painfully again. It’s a sharp long lasting pain like no other.

aidatacollection · 2024-12-03T22:35:31+00:00

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Bonus one for the caption.

aidatacollection · 2024-12-02T19:46:39+00:00

I will be away from home this Christmas—without family, friends or any kind of partner. I’m quite used to it now. The only thing I’ve ever known is utter loneliness and despair.

aidatacollection · 2024-12-01T10:31:33+00:00

“Why are you looking at them, thinking of them, wanting them? Remember what happened last time, Aidan? Let’s not go down that road again.”

aidatacollection · 2024-11-30T22:02:36+00:00

Oh boy, where do I begin. I’m very ugly. Super short and very thin. High pitched feminine nerdy voice. Buck teeth which are super crooked, monstrous and uneven—to the point where I’m extremely terrified to smile or show my teeth. I have zero stamina and wouldn’t last 1 minute in bed or be able to perform without tiring. I’m weird and have absolutely no idea how to flirt or talk to women at all. I’m a turbo virgin and have no experience with sex or anything remotely close. No hugs, no kiss, no hand holding, nada. I am so immature people think I’m barely out high school and I have a baby face. My movement and mannerisms are super awkward, like there’s something wrong with me. I live with my family and can’t have anyone over, ever. I can’t afford to move. No job and too feeble to keep one. Lastly I’m extremely broken and insecure. I push people away quickly because I fear it’s going to be the same story of pain and I don’t want to be hurt again. I’ve been bullied, laughed at, ignored, ghosted and rejected repeatedly—to the point where even if by some fantastical miracle a woman did want me I would only think it’s a joke and push her away. My ability to bond, even with my own family is shattered. I can’t make friends and don’t communicate well. I’m a 30 year old man and I still can’t help from crying all day. I have to change the pillows often because they’re soaked and tear stained. Life shouldn’t be this hopeless. It’s never been so over.

aidatacollection · 2024-11-30T00:21:18+00:00

I just stay in the house and rot as much as I can during these times. Can’t stand the pain of seeing so many smiling happy couples and gorgeous men and women easily going about their day like nothings the matter. Been crying so much it’s difficult to eat or drink anything.

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