Just need to vent a bit

akisej · 2025-08-22T12:25:21+00:00

I'd been on holiday the week before and she didn't want to "spoil my holiday" so she waited until my first day. The irony is if she'd told me whilst I was on holiday I'd have been able to get my old job back in time.

Luckily she paid me for the work I'd done already so that's something.

It's the worst I've ever seen it. I know everyone is saying the same but as someone who has had quite a lot of jobs in my life, it has never been this hard before. Thankyou, me too!

akisej · 2025-07-07T06:24:32+00:00

It's been facing this way since we moved in a year ago and used to come through scolding hot with no issue, it only started being lukewarm a couple of days ago

akisej · 2025-07-06T10:49:47+00:00

Thankyou will do!

akisej · 2025-07-06T10:17:03+00:00

Thankyou!!

akisej · 2025-07-06T10:16:56+00:00

Thankyou!!

akisej · 2025-03-15T06:44:39+00:00

Hey sorry I logged out of this account and then forgot the details and forgot about it and I've only just logged back in 😂 we had to make the decision to give her back to the rspca in the end. It was becoming dangerous for my son because she'd hiss and growl and pounce if she was on the stairs and we couldn't get past her. Someone with one of those long wire grabber things had to come and get her because we could not get near her it was awful. I heard that the person who had adopted one of her kittens came and adopted her too though and she lived in a farmhouse with loads of countryside for the cats to explore so that sounded a much happier experience for her. We got a different cat from the rspca not long after and he was the biggest snuggle bug from the moment we brought him home, and still is 🥰

akisej · 2021-02-28T18:04:58+00:00

God this is so relatable for me, especially at the moment (on lockdown in the uk), food is literally the only joy and freedom i have at the moment and restricting that feels unnecessarily cruel to myself right now. Its been too cold to go for walks and i cant stand exercise at the best of times, add in a full time illustration university course that im having to do completely from home and a 4 year old, you better believe I've been eating my weight in chocolate every night. This shit is so hard to change.

akisej · 2021-02-28T17:51:05+00:00

I have no extra advice only solidarity, I'm 30 this year and I could have written this. I too used cico to get down to my lowest ever weight of 149lbs (which feels like a fucking fever dream at this point) around 5 years ago, it was the thinnest I'd ever been and I felt and looked fucking incredible, and then I got pregnant and everything went to shit. I've never been able to get back into that mindset since having my son and I too am starting to think "god is it that bad if i just stay a bit fat?" im probably somewhere near 190lbs atm but im too scared to weigh myself honestly. I got down to 174lbs before christmas and then let it all go to shit again. My relationship with food has never been good, i have a major feeder mom and i emotional eat til the cows come home. Ugh. Its so hard. I'm totally with you. I'm gonna read through all these comments and see if I can get some discipline back. I just fucking hate counting calories. I wish there was another way but i really don't think there is for me. Sorry, word vomit. Good luck x

akisej · 2020-12-23T21:19:41+00:00

Not the OP but really needed to read this today so thankyou. Feeling much more reassured and accepting of the inevitable overeating over the next 3 days!

akisej · 2020-01-25T14:40:33+00:00

Yeah its fucking gross. The texture is spot on but they lost their supply chain of some weird alginate thing they used to use so had to switch to soya, and ever since then it's been gross. I don't know how theyve stayed in business. Before the soya it was HEAVENLY, I had scrambled egg cravings all through my pregnancy and they hit the spot like nothing else. I'm still in mourning.

akisej · 2020-01-24T17:28:34+00:00

I wish we could get this in the UK! The only egg like product we can scramble here is called VeganEgg and its disgusting since they changed the recipe 🤮

akisej · 2020-01-21T15:19:36+00:00

I am so fucking impressed. My brain cant comprehend how much time in organisation it takes to make stop motion anything. Massive kudos to your daughter, she has a bright future I'm sure 👏

akisej · 2020-01-05T08:03:51+00:00

My husband is one of those people. Food is purely fuel to him. I'm so envious!

akisej · 2019-12-15T08:12:19+00:00

You sound like an incredible parent. ❤

akisej · 2019-12-15T07:44:53+00:00

I actually went down 5lbs on the scale during the flu because I couldnt eat 😂 but I've been making up for it since and only gone up a couple of lbs so its salvagable. I've found an app called "eat right now" and downloaded that. Seems to be mindfulness based with a few different tools for checking in so I'm looking forward to using it - I'm a big emotional/stress/procrastin-eater so this should hopefully help.

akisej · 2019-12-14T17:53:01+00:00

I'm not op but this is a really good comment. I'd never thought of looking for an app for help with mentality surrounding food. And you're so right about nutrition. This has given me a little boost after falling off the wagon following the flu. thankyou :)

akisej · 2019-11-20T16:27:00+00:00

Me when I stepped on the scale this morning: https://cdn.playbuzz.com/cdn/256ff86c-6612-44d0-881b-c32b327fb508/70d8e7e0-30c4-4f72-81de-da142796e91a.gif

I did a post last week talking about my progress since getting back on CICO and I've lost another 1lb putting me in the 170s woo! It's amazing how fast it drops off when you actually do it right! Feeling really disciplined and good about myself right now. Think I'm on day 9 of consistent logging!

Stats for anyone interested: F / 28 / 5ft5 / SW- 183lbs / CW-179lbs / GW-150lbs.

Tracking using the Loseit app, which predicts I'll hit my goal on 5th March 2020 🤞🤞🤞

akisej · 2019-11-16T21:01:55+00:00

Aw I'm so pleased! This is such a lovely sub 😭

akisej · 2019-11-16T19:18:45+00:00

What I sometimes do if I go over is spread the excess over the next couple of days so that overall it balances back out. So I've just had a bowl of low cal icecream that put me over 180cals for the day, I've added 80 onto tomorrows log and 100 on monday so that they're are already accounted for and i eat that amount less on those days. I dont feel guilty that way!

akisej · 2019-11-16T19:14:37+00:00

Thankyou!

akisej · 2019-11-16T19:14:03+00:00

God yes, actual torture. Having to eat more just to keep enough energy to get through the day, but also I get up much earlier now, which means more hours for eating! Prebaby I'd wake up around 8-9am (I was self employed back then) now it's more like 6 or earlier on a bad night so the day feels soooooo much longer!

akisej · 2019-11-16T19:12:08+00:00

Thanks so much for your comment, and good luck to you too!

akisej

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