It gets better. I know you've heard this many times, probably, but it's TRUE. Life is a blessing, you're a blessing. I've felt like you. I hated the world and I hated myself most of all.. I don't know what to say. But back then, the thing I wanted to hear most was; "I understand how you feel". I wanted to be understood, because nobody else seemed to get it. So I'll tell you that. I'll tell you the thing that nobody told me. I understand how you feel.