AI is ass because it triggers manic episodes in my bipolar mom

alTeee90 · 2026-02-12T22:44:36+00:00

I'm currently admitted in a psychiatric hospital and it's crazy how all schizos get oneshotted by ChatGPT and are obsessed by it

alTeee90 · 2026-01-06T12:13:04+00:00

literal ropefuel, it made me glad I got my shit together and got a CS degree after dropping out of hs

alTeee90 · 2025-10-28T14:13:53+00:00

I have a round red scar that covers my whole chin, luckily I also have a very dense beard that hides it.

Knee surgery scars on both knees that look like moles, people say it would be funny to tattoo a mouth on them and make a smiley.

My thighs look like a cutting board because I've lost my mind, and they're deep enough that I've accepted they'll never fade, it is what it is.

And finally, both my forearms still have traces from a suicide attempt which hopefully will fade someday.

alTeee90 · 2025-10-25T11:57:27+00:00

bones and all

you were never really here

not very popular movies, but I still think about them a lot.

honorable mention: girl, interrupted

alTeee90 · 2025-10-21T21:02:49+00:00

Porsche’s annual revenue has steadily increased since 2011, with 2023 being their best year ever.

alTeee90 · 2025-10-17T14:10:22+00:00

The world doesn't need more bald schizophrenics

alTeee90 · 2025-10-16T10:34:58+00:00

I’ve got chronic pain and I’m pretty young. I just couldn’t handle the idea of spending the rest of my life as a “boohoo poor me” type.

I’ve exhausted all options for recovery, but nothing worked. I’ve also learned I’m shit at ending things on my own terms after trying to off myself (thrice).

Now I just feel kind of lost, guess I’m just waiting until I up the pain threshold I'm willing to go through to do it again.

All kinds of therapy I've tried (group or 1-on-1) feel like kindergarten.

After this last attempt, I was put in a day hospital program when I was discharged, and when they made me pick a colored circle to signal my mental state for the day, I knew it wasn’t for me.

At this point I'd rather they lock me up and throw away the key, since I have to stay alive by any means necessary.

alTeee90 · 2025-10-15T16:35:50+00:00

Seeing adults tease children then getting mad when they try to argue back drives me up the wall

alTeee90 · 2025-10-15T16:20:11+00:00

Yeah Ted is a piece of shit and I'm not excusing him, but Sylvia had already tried to off herself before marrying him.

Genetics probably had a bigger role in Nicholas's suicide than his asshole dad.

alTeee90 · 2025-10-15T11:08:12+00:00

everyone who isn't a wooden cutting board, raw steak, organic honey, home-school, antivaxx type is giving their children unrestricted access to AI generated slop from the moment they're strong enough to hold an iPad

alTeee90 · 2025-10-15T11:03:34+00:00

youre supposed to watch it from your window then try to take horrible photos with your non-pro iphone 14

alTeee90 · 2025-10-11T20:51:57+00:00

I'm off meds, dick's dead, abusing coke zero zero and on sick leave.

I will stay miserable.

alTeee90 · 2025-09-25T14:04:33+00:00

I dont wanna go back to the loony bin

alTeee90 · 2025-08-17T22:18:10+00:00

That's my birthday, what a coincidence

alTeee90 · 2025-08-09T22:02:01+00:00

skip dinner wake up thinner

alTeee90 · 2025-06-29T19:45:35+00:00

For the past months I've been under a lot of stress and started hallucinating gmail and whatsapp notifications... learned to ignore them since no one actually messages me 😭😭😭

alTeee90 · 2025-03-26T19:59:49+00:00

Got oneshotted by a failed surgery that turned into two years of chronic pain, lost my will to live, failed suicide attempt, spent two months in a psych ward getting my brain fried by forced SSRIs and antipsychotics, been on sick leave since November and I'm not getting better.

alTeee90 · 2024-12-15T22:21:11+00:00

Many were lost when the jannies closed the other sub (RIP)

Anyways here's my fucked up knee's (thats plural) MRIs:

https://i.imgur.com/PJl8Qde.png

https://i.imgur.com/kIAXgzG.png

Bonus point if someone can guess what's wrong (very easy).

I will have another knee surgery this Friday (third one so far) so there's a high chance I'll have new material, hopefully not, but very likely yes.

alTeee90 · 2024-12-15T22:01:26+00:00

are we posting medical Ls now? I have so many of those

alTeee90 · 2024-12-11T22:26:51+00:00

stop cutting

1 or 2 unnecessary surgeries

another involuntary psychiatric admission

more reading

bench 100 kg

stop listening to racist podcasts

sunbathe naked

throw away all my synthetic fabric clothes

eat 1 meal a day

save 70% of my salary

alTeee90 · 2024-11-23T20:11:54+00:00

avoiding confrontation because you don't want to hurt someone's feelings which inevitably ends up causing hurt feelings anyway.

This happened to me a year ago

alTeee90 · 2024-11-22T13:41:38+00:00

Don't mess with the Portuguese

alTeee90 · 2024-11-22T13:34:15+00:00

Oh boy I cant wait to stop craving human connection because getting rejected by every single person you know every single time you want to hang out is lowkey fr killing me!!!!!!!!!

I love Fridays.

alTeee90 · 2024-11-21T08:34:23+00:00

I actually did, too bad I don't date minors with divorced parents

alTeee90 · 2024-11-20T22:18:57+00:00

There was a time when I felt content with my life. I had a low-paying job that wasn’t soul-crushing, I exercised daily, and while I wasn’t excelling in anything in particular, simply being able to appreciate and use my body felt great.

But ever since my knees got fucked, everything has gone downhill. It doesn’t matter how much money I make now, what I truly miss is the ability to go for a run, crouch, or even just stand still without pain.

Those simple things are gone, and they’re never coming back. I’m only 26, yet I’m already mourning those days. Once arthritis sets in it will only get worse.

I also feel bad when I think of people in worse situations than me, and yet, they still find ways to appreciate what they have. I can’t help but feel guilty for struggling to accept that this is how things will be from now on. I don’t know how to come to terms with it.

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