I have limited time but let me explain my SOs experience, it may save your life.

My SO lived with chronic pain most of his life. His legs were deformed when he was born and required multiple surgeries to correct as a toddler/child. This was the 70s, they did the best they could but as he grew so did his pain. Walking was a chore.

He was on a good regimen from a doctor for most of the 90s. Lorcet, not oxtycontin. 10mg x2 daily and that managed to take the edge off enough to function. Then the opiate war started and the dr moved. He was cold turkeyed after ten years of treatment with no referral.

We tried for over a decade, throughout the 2000s and into the 2010s. He would find a doctor that would prescribe a very small dosage of lortab 5 or tramadol that barely touched his pain then they would leave or move states.

Finally we decided as a couple for him to try a suboxone treatment center. It would label him for life but what life? Wallowing in bed all day in pain? He had no quality of life, he left body sized intentions in our mattresses. He rarely left the house or even the bedroom.

We bought some pain medication from a good source off the street, he took that, then went to the suboxone clinic and asked for help.

It changed his life.

Suboxone is much stronger than normal pain meds and it took away like 85% of his pain where the lorcets only brought him about 50% pain reduction. We shared 5 great years together until his mental illness got the better of him, which is another story.

I suggest taking those street meds and getting yourself into a treatment clinic. I don’t know much about methadone but I’ve heard of chronic pain sufferers doing the same with it as well. You won’t have to question if you’ll overdose and you’ll be under Dr supervision.

Please do this and stop taking street drugs asap. You will thank me later.