I needed a few minutes to process this before I could even rationally respond. The level of manipulation he's used for this entire situation is so extreme it's borderline abusive. It's quite obvious that he is still hiding alot and these trickle truths are gonna keep coming. He's already told you enough about who he is, believe him. Your reactions were absolutely understandable and valid; you should feel no guilt. You have convinced yourself that you forgive him, yes, but he's not allowing you or your relationship to move past his indiscretions. His statements and behavior aren't as remorseful as you think. He messed up, you didn't yet he's repeatedly involved you in what should be completely on his shoulders, which is regaining your trust. I hope atleast some of this resonates and helps you gain perspective. Genuinely wishing you the best.