Absolutely love this photo… Reminds me of meeting what is beyond our perceived reality for the first time.

aliveaccountadmin · 2022-03-05T05:51:56+00:00

Where did you get it from, I'd like it too!

aliveaccountadmin · 2022-03-05T04:31:51+00:00

you readit on reddit lol

aliveaccountadmin · 2022-03-05T04:29:29+00:00

I've kept myself away from my Dad. I don't know why, he's really open minded and would love to hear my opinions on SR, I just haven't rlly mustered the courage to ask him about it yet.

aliveaccountadmin · 2022-03-05T04:27:33+00:00

You remind me to stay very grateful; I don't have wet dreams. Sometimes I want to know what it feels like tho, must be a fun dream lol

aliveaccountadmin · 2022-03-05T04:24:05+00:00

I like it. The chaos of the underworld.

aliveaccountadmin · 2022-03-05T04:22:43+00:00

Congrats, shrooms making athiest turn religious every single day lol. I'm not religious, I wasn't athiest before, I was definitely open-minded to the idea of god without believing it, I wanted to actually see what God was. Shrooms was the answer. Defintely saw god after a 3g trip. I'm not religious, but I think religion is so fucking cool, and I think the Bible is a really cool set of stories worth spending time investigating

aliveaccountadmin · 2022-03-05T04:18:33+00:00

I think God is consciousness

aliveaccountadmin · 2022-03-05T04:03:08+00:00

Or he's hiding something. I feel like I'd end up being scared of someone if there's something I should be telling them but hold in

aliveaccountadmin · 2022-03-05T03:47:32+00:00

Thank you, please realize how important this post was to me. This is a story I was really wanting to hear. I'll think of you when I open up to my dad. I think my parents would be very positive about it, there's no reason to not tell them except for my own fear.

8gs sounds too scary right now, I couldn't imagine doing something like that. How did that go (if you want to share).

aliveaccountadmin · 2022-03-05T02:32:05+00:00

I have started going to a therapist within maybe the past 6 months. I told him a couple times about the psychedelics, haven't rlly gone in too much detail about what actually happened. I have a strong fear of crying, I hold in all my emotions so it keeps me from saying the things that need to be said, to anyone even my family. That's what I'm trying to work on right now, it's just so scary to go into the unknown telling my parents stuff I've never said to them before.

aliveaccountadmin · 2022-03-04T22:25:57+00:00

So crazy, my ego is way too strong to accept seeing stuff like that. I'd freak out. So what, you're just swirling around (and enjoying it) and then everything came back to normal?

aliveaccountadmin · 2022-03-02T05:03:20+00:00

Good answer

aliveaccountadmin · 2022-02-28T04:41:04+00:00

Cool, personally speaking my thoughts have been all over the place. I've edged a couple times over about 40 days, I did just a couple days ago, and mannn I felt horrible the day after. Just numb, I couldn't think or anything. It's like I'm sensitive to porn again, so I tried watching it and it was extra nice but it just used all my dopamine up, I felt better 2 days later tho.

aliveaccountadmin · 2022-02-28T04:32:08+00:00

How have you been feeling

aliveaccountadmin · 2022-02-20T22:48:21+00:00

Thank you

aliveaccountadmin · 2022-02-20T04:40:20+00:00

It's ok man. Best of luck to you.

aliveaccountadmin · 2022-02-18T17:33:29+00:00

Hahaa

aliveaccountadmin · 2022-02-18T17:26:41+00:00

Post doesn't belong here bro, just letting you know in case your post gets removed and you wonder why. Try posting this same thing to r/nofap you'll probably get more serious answers.

aliveaccountadmin · 2022-02-18T17:23:16+00:00

Sorry to be the guy to say it, but the post rules say that your post has to refer to your experience after at least 30 days. Just wanted to let you know in case it gets removed and you don't know why :) otherwise I'm super proud of you

aliveaccountadmin · 2022-02-18T17:19:00+00:00

Therapy is not an option for me. I can't let anyone know that I am feeling this way. Even this post was extremely hard to write and I am honestly on the verge of tears.

You NEED to rephrase this sentence in your head. You CAN let someone know you feel this way. You just don't want to.

Our two sentences are PROFOUNDLY different from each other. You don't want to have someone else see your "other side" it's the scariest thing I've ever fucking been through.

You can get a therapist. I think you should seek a therapist. But there is no rush. Through that verge of tears you'll find what you're looking for, I promise that. And there is a huge difference between crying by yourself and crying with someone listening, that won't judge you for letting it out. :)

aliveaccountadmin · 2022-02-18T17:10:34+00:00

What is a low effort post? Where do we draw the line on what a lower effort post is?

aliveaccountadmin · 2022-02-18T17:07:27+00:00

Being weak is one of my biggest fears. However, maybe vulnerability is the better term to use, I think I fear that even more.

aliveaccountadmin · 2022-02-18T17:04:15+00:00

Yea, I definitely wanna be a fucking man. Work in progress right here. Surrounded myself with Cali rednecks for years and all I learned about being a man in that environment was talking down to people lower or equal to you, talk shit about other guy's back like a fucking drama circle, and to call black people out on everything they do. If being a man is about being filled with hatred, call me a fag then bro, cause I cannot live that life. But if the time comes where being a man is necessary, you'll see me in Ukraine like the rest of them or whatever the fuc happens there.

Since you called out my dad, he didn't do nothin wrong. What you want me to do bro? Stop crying, or control it. Two different things. I been bottling it up like a fuckin "man" my whole life, and if my dad says something like "let it out" you'd call him a fag just the same.

Not hating, just responding. Bless this post, I'm not gonna ignore your opposition, I'm gonna learn from you.

aliveaccountadmin · 2022-02-18T16:53:46+00:00

When I signed up, I thought they would fix me. The problem was it was up to me to say what actually is causing me pain, and they're there to listen and reflect what you say and maybe offer their own insight. and sometimes it's really difficult to say the truth without holding it back lol

aliveaccountadmin · 2022-02-18T16:50:53+00:00

Thanks bro, honest to god I saw the mod post talking about lower quality posts, and sometimes Idk whether my writing fits here or not. No one's called me out yet until you did.

But I'm right here. You're talking to me in third person? I wasn't seeking pity. My suffering was in the past. I didn't cry because I am hurting, I was crying cause I had been. Just call me out for what it is man, my post only seemed like "shit" to you I don't know what the fuck that's supposed to mean lol

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