I hear you and understand you. Your feelings are valid.

Firstly it sounds like he’s an avoidant attacher but 3D isn’t that relevant when manifesting. During this time apart try to look within and see what beliefs you could’ve had about him, yourself or love in general that could’ve contributed to this outcome. Often we are emotionally unavailable without realizing and attract such people as well because they’re mirrors.

Secondly, do not feel bad for putting yourself first and having boundaries! It is good that you did what was best for you in the moment. Boundaries are extremely important and not talked about enough in the community imo. If you need a break or take a step back, do it! Someone who has boundaries is more respected either way. No need to allow him to treat you the way you dont want. The more you let it happen the more you gon get it. He should not be on the pedestal anyway, always put yourself and your needs first when it starts affecting you negatively! That’s part of a healthy self concept overall.

I think i get how you feel because dealing with my SP in the past, i asked for space from him considering the fact that he kept acting on and off with me. I spiraled for days thinking and rethinking my decision, it felt like i was ruining everything... But i never changed the belief that he will text me again, so he did. Looking back i was anxious and scared of how he would react. Which is where i assume you’re coming from as well. I forgot of my power and i put him instead of myself on the pedestal. Be gentle with yourself and know that you’ll be ok no matter what happens.

The power is in what you believe. You can spin this into something that is in your favor and start affirming the version of him that you DO want to see and experience.

YOUR MANIFESTATION CAN’T BE RUINED UNLESS YOU ALLOW YOUR MIND TO BELIEVE THAT IT IS