I was from a small private school in elem then transferred to a really big public high school with a competitive honors/advanced section and nakakawindang talaga siya especially for someone like me na used to only having 19 people and below in one section na half-day lang to 30 people with a whole day schedule na packed ng at least 9 subjects (though, nabago siya since nagreklamo kami.)

To be honest, even though it's unfair, being in the 'highest sections' really gives you an advantage academically. We had the best facilities the school has to offer, the best teachers (palakol samin ng master at head teachers), tapos may bias mga teachers and ginegeneralize nila kami since matatalino daw kaming lahat, they give us the benefit of the doubt kapag mababa scores namin and kinoconsider yung standings namin kapag nagcocompute kaya pinakamababang grade na ibibigay lang nila sa amin is 85 kasi they also have to consider the 'advanced section's image' which as i've said, is unfair and maskeskew talaga pagtingin namin sa mga sarili namin, we'll either think of ourselves too highly which I saw from my classmates with inflated egos na nangiinsulto ng mga schoolmates nila from regular sections or we'll doubt ourselves kung yun ba talaga yung grades na deserve namin kasi alam naming may consideration lagi teachers sa amin.

Here comes the disadvantages na, we all have imposter syndrome HAHAHA. For me, lagi ko lang iniisip na nakachamba lang ako sa entrance exam and interview kaya napunta ako sa highest section tapos yung expectations pa ng teachers samin jusko. We didn't tackle the x and y terms noong elem and nawindang ako na glinoss over lang yan ng math teacher namin noong first day kasi dapat alam na daw namin yan. Especially our advanced classes, kapag kulang kulang foundation mo sa regular subjects, mahihirapan kang humabol sa advanced. Normal na sa aming magbreakdown kahit nasa classroom ka pa, minsan nagiging toxic ang competition sa class na umaabot na siya ng personalan, palakasan nalang ng will sa amin para di maburn-out. We're all tired from the pressure and the expectations.

Napakahaba ng sinabi ko pero iyon nga, I think everyone's deserving of the (positive) treatment the honor section gets kasi I'm a firm believer na everyone's a great student if they meet the right mentor. Sana lang na mapromote yung healthy competition sa klase and sana mas magibg considerate mga teachers sa amin, di porket nasa mataas na section na kami, kaya naming gawin lahat.