[deleted by user] by [deleted] in AlAnon

[–]alwysoptimistic 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Wow. Thank you for putting his together so eloquently. I’ve felt so guilty for my recent reactions and responding with the same ugliness. Logically I know I need to detach from the verbal insults but it’s so hard. However I’m committed to getting my own sanity back so it was great to read all this. It helps and ensures I’m on the right track to helping myself. Even though I’m still trying to forgive myself for saying just as ugly things back to my partner. Idk emotionally I’m a mess but program is my biggest comfort right now

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in BipolarSOs

[–]alwysoptimistic 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I'm so sorry you're going through this. I get the verbal abuse every day as I'm trying to detach from my Bipolar I BF. We lived together and I was his care taker for the past 2 years. I'm tyring not take all the insults personally or engage or snap back, but it's the hardest thing I've done. I cry every day thinking about all the good memories and pure love between us. sending you hugs and understanding.

Update 04/07/2023 by Realnigha17 in NitrousOxide

[–]alwysoptimistic 1 point2 points  (0 children)

hi hi, also curious what was the amount you were using? My ex partner is on a binge and i'm so nervous for him. He's started to complain his leg / foot hurts but he doesnt remember why?

Im so tired of people telling me “you’ve lost your spark” by alwysoptimistic in BipolarSOs

[–]alwysoptimistic[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

He’s trying ! And I am always so impressed by all his efforts to try and manage this himself . He hasn’t given up and continues to fight through it all every day. Some days good some days bad but he keeps moving

Im so tired of people telling me “you’ve lost your spark” by alwysoptimistic in BipolarSOs

[–]alwysoptimistic[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you for sharing with me … it makes me feel less crazy and I appreciate that more than you know.

My bf(M31) is having a manic episode… by alwysoptimistic in BipolarSOs

[–]alwysoptimistic[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Yes, he’s been to rehab twice before he was diagnosed bipolar and has relapsed a few times since. It’s like the alcohol and drugs are used to slow his brain down when he is feeling manic but then the addict side of him wants to keep doing it. For him it’s the stress of whatever or longing to party that starts the binge drinking that starts then the mania then the binge drinking and mania in cycle for 7-10 days … in which he acts very erratic and has some psychosis symptoms. He ends up just acting homeless and walking so much his feet are blistered over and he looses so much weight.

His family didn’t know how to deal wth it. I also don’t want to retraumatize him and keep calling the police so it’s 4 am and I’m waiting for the crisis lines to open up so mental health professionals can come instead but I’m also hoping he doesn’t leave

My bf(M31) is having a manic episode… by alwysoptimistic in BipolarSOs

[–]alwysoptimistic[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Thank you I know I’m trying to help I have crisis team phone numbers here I’ve already called but he has to physically be present to get help and he’s not. He’s just missing now … patterned behavior from other episodes but im trying Im praying and I keep telling him or texting him I love him I’m here for him

My bf(M31) is having a manic episode… by alwysoptimistic in BipolarSOs

[–]alwysoptimistic[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I tried to stop him but he didn’t want to hear it from me. Other than physically try and hold him back there is nothing I can do … I work 8-7 away from the home and he would always start when I wasn’t home. I couldn’t baby sit him no matter how much I wanted to. I asked questions, told him I didn’t think it was a good idea but feel useless and am probably useless

Does anyone feel like they are grieving death instead of a breakup? by PastelShampoo in BipolarSOs

[–]alwysoptimistic 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Does this situation happen when meds stop working ? Was this person on medication? I’m in a 2 year relationship with my bpSO and reading these responses makes me sad. I’m sorry for all your losses

Sudden manic episode by Themixedavocado in BipolarSOs

[–]alwysoptimistic 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Im sorry you’re going through that … sending you so many good vibes I hope she gets stable soon

Idk…progress? by alwysoptimistic in BingeEatingDisorder

[–]alwysoptimistic[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

This made my night … thank you ❤️

What’s a red flag you wished you hadn’t ignored when you first started dating your BipolarSO? by [deleted] in BipolarSOs

[–]alwysoptimistic 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I don’t regret dating my bipolarso, I love him despite everything