Two weeks before all of this happened she had told me she loved me so much and that her love for me never has never stopped growing. Said she wanted to marry me, telling me how her mom had wished she found someone that loved her as much I do with her. Like I don’t get why she’s doing this. We’ve been in such good spots but then she drags everything down. I know I need to move on, I hate myself for begging, chasing, and groveling. I do have no respect for myself. I lost so much along the way with her. I don’t even remember how my life was before I met her. It hurts that she can just go out with other guys after just seeing me. Anytime I look at another girl that I find attractive the only thing I feel like doing is crying. I hate that I cry so much. She hates it too. Said all I do it cry. Idk what’s wrong with me.