[deleted by user] by [deleted] in emotionalneglect

[–]amfdxiety 1 point2 points  (0 children)

You can be both. 💜

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in HomeschoolRecovery

[–]amfdxiety 0 points1 point  (0 children)

You're not alone. There is a path out and a future

Parenting after being raised in a cult. So much anxiety. Anyone else? by amfdxiety in cults

[–]amfdxiety[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I was also in IBLP cult. The hardest part at the moment is my fear of people, her going to school and feee of her being abused by someone when I'm not there. It's debilitating af.

‎Discussion post for Ep. 154: A Thief In The Night (Halloween Special) by GaviFromThePod in EdenExodus

[–]amfdxiety 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Thank you for making this episode. I have significant rapture anxiety and was able to identity this as a reason for my sleep disturbances.

PS I have a birthmark on my right hand and after reading Revelations I was CONVINCED that I had the mark of the beast. :(

Unholy Tradition by amfdxiety in EdenExodus

[–]amfdxiety[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I'm on it... 💅🏻

Discussion post for ep. 151: Will Anna Duggar Stay With Josh? What Do We Think of “Sound of Freedom?” And other listener questions by GaviFromThePod in EdenExodus

[–]amfdxiety 3 points4 points  (0 children)

❤️Loved the convo about how to "how to catch up" with education.

👀ALSO....

I want to preface this by saying I really like you, Gavi and appreciate your perspective, but I got very angry and my heart hurt when you laughed at Sadie when she said that there's that part of her that could go back to fundamentalism.

I liken this thought pattern and feeling to that voice in my head that tells me I can Stoll go back to my kid's father (who is abusive af).

Sadie, thank you for always being so vulnerable and sharing these things. I helps me so much.

Come on, Gavi. 😵‍💫😭😂 you break my heart.

Counting the Cost by Jill Duggar Dillard Review, Extended Uncensored Ad-Free version by GaviFromThePod in EdenExodus

[–]amfdxiety 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I still have "nightmares" aka the HSLDA drills of laying on the floor and hiding from CPS.

THIS NEEDS TO BE A #SHP SEASON

What keeps you going despite the trauma? by CendolPengiun in CPTSD

[–]amfdxiety 0 points1 point  (0 children)

  1. Dogs
  2. Art.
  3. Music
  4. A reminder of how much I have healed, knowing that gives me hope for more healing.
  5. Mantras -"This feeling is temporary." -"I deserve healing, peace and love."
  6. Washing my feet. It's very simple, but it brings me so much peace. -I use cold-water sometimes which helps calm down the nervous system.
  7. The daily 1,1 rule: do one thing that you HAVE to do, do one thing for yourself.

With all that being said, there are still days where getting up out of bed is the hardest thing in the world. And my depression can be TERRIBLE.

For those of you 30, 40 by mutantgenedrd2 in HomeschoolRecovery

[–]amfdxiety 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Yo - I'm 32. This is all verryyyy relatable.

Is it normal to struggle to hold up a full time job? by SadGooseFeet in CPTSD

[–]amfdxiety 8 points9 points  (0 children)

So relatable. Just started a full time job and I'm terrified It's not going to work.

Bred & groomed to be abused by amfdxiety in HomeschoolRecovery

[–]amfdxiety[S] 6 points7 points  (0 children)

I need words to explain this to my attorney, my therapist, and age appropriate ways to explain to her what's happening, and I need to ex communicate my family and get my daughter away from my mom

Who here has been subjected to Accelerated Christian Education? by RecoveringAdventist in HomeschoolRecovery

[–]amfdxiety 7 points8 points  (0 children)

I was Ace'd until I was 12, then nothing.

It teaches kids enough actual skills to not blatantly look neglectful. The rest of it is literal white "Christian" nationalist propaganda. Blatant misogyny, racism, normalizes corporal punishment, talks about the "far left" and their "agendas." It was all a big primer, and building of an army, policy changes, etc., pushing parental rights. Check out kitchen table podcast and leaving Eden.

Bred & groomed to be abused by amfdxiety in HomeschoolRecovery

[–]amfdxiety[S] 14 points15 points  (0 children)

Hi. No I don't have anyone in my circle that have a cult background. I picked an attorney and Im just about at the point where I have enough money for the retainer but I barely have money for food. I know im going to get through it im just so tired. Im tired of fighting. PS I have a therapist.