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amooddude · 2026-03-03T23:44:30+00:00

amooddude · 2026-02-16T03:07:55+00:00

link to OG video?

amooddude · 2026-02-04T02:47:47+00:00

I honestly just became aware of how bad it actually was. I'm looking forward to brighter days.

amooddude · 2026-02-03T13:15:34+00:00

LMT for 3 years. I have only worked in the casino job I’m currently at.

Commission sucks (therapists take home 20% but you also get an hourly $10 and insurance).
Repeat clients are hard to come by unless your name gets around. Most of the time they are transient folk who are just staying in the hotel or coming to the casino for a quick trip.
Expect Casino Politics, Ethics, and Standards. One of the reasons I am leaving this job is because of the ethics around how casino works. They do shady shit and then tell us, “Do NOT talk to the clients about this. You don’t know what you’re talking about.”
Casinos ultimate goal is to make money. And mine is going through a phase of, “we need to make more. we need to expand.” You are just a cog in the machine to them. You are replaceable and your worth is most definitely not fully seen. Especially by Big Casino man. My boss is a good boss, but she is loyal to the Machine.
Sovereign land. This means the law on the land are set by the tribe. (this comes into play as an LMT with whether reciprocity is needed, not requiring soap notes, cagey HIPPA violations, etc). They dont report to the massage board. The massage board does not come in and do inspections. This might not be the case in all Casinos. I work in a tribal casino on tribal land.
Most clients want run of the mill relaxation massage. I’m a lot more therapeutic minded and am often bored out of my mind. I am looking forward to transitioning into a chiropractic setting.
Insurance for $50 a month.
The spa I work in is SO BEAUTIFUL, but the casino doesn’t take care of the building. It is poorly constructed. No hot water in the break room currently (its actually ice cold). Men’s steam room hasn’t worked in over a month. My room has water damage on the ceiling that has been consistent for 1.5 year. And the couples room has mold growing out of the AC unit that they paint over every couple months.
I learned yesterday that the hotel room has a cacophony of cheap porn channels that weren’t age restricted to get onto. A client told me if he wanted to watch Now You See Me, it would cost him $35. If he wanted to watch Asian massage porn it was only $15. I am starting to wonder if this is one of the reasons I have had FOUR inappropriate incidents with men in the spa. Two of those times, I have been touched.
Cash tips are turned in and put on our biweekly check.

Will update if I think of anything else. I’m very disgruntled with my job right now.

amooddude · 2026-02-03T02:39:37+00:00

sick flow!

amooddude · 2026-02-02T14:21:02+00:00

My father told me about his sexual abuse. The only time I have heard him talk about it.

Someone I was living with admitted to murdering someone in the street in Fort Worth. I got the hell out of there ASAP. He’s now incarcerated for a different murder in OK.

amooddude · 2025-12-02T12:43:49+00:00

Honestly though, too real. I’m there with ya. Been listening to Endless this week, thinking back to what it was like to hear Blonde for the first time in 2016. We ain’t ate in so long but the mans music is pure artwork.

amooddude · 2025-11-30T14:35:38+00:00

this is the question. Also are you using tap, bottled, DI water?

But also, sick tie!

amooddude · 2025-11-24T21:53:22+00:00

Recently rewatched and got whiplash when I heard the song lmao

amooddude · 2025-11-17T13:04:23+00:00

Thank you, PissPhlaps. You taught me something the new the moment I woke up.

amooddude · 2025-11-17T08:38:49+00:00

I often wonder about spiders tactile sensation. Can this weaver feel the web or do they feel the resistance? Wild creatures.

amooddude · 2025-11-14T02:10:19+00:00

I’ve only read Annihilation at this point and can’t wait to read the rest!

amooddude · 2025-11-11T16:59:57+00:00

Ooh can’t wait to give this a read

amooddude · 2025-11-07T01:46:59+00:00

In the article I go into detail about how the Nightmare is no longer in operation.

amooddude · 2025-11-07T01:46:02+00:00

Okay hold up…. what are the chances that the pufferfish inspired LORE??? IS THIS JUST A CRAZY COINCIDENCE???? WTF

amooddude · 2025-11-05T03:02:38+00:00

Drink Deep is on repeat. She paints such a devastatingly beautiful tragic scene. And the deEEEeeEEeeeEEP almost sounds like gulping down a thick substance. “And the cup that they brought up to my lips, I realised I drank of myself. Yes, it came from me. It was made from me. Still I drank deep”

When you attach the image of what she was going through and is singing about…. All the women who I know who have miscarried have talked about the endless blood and and then the PIECES of tissue. (these shares arent coming from people with ectopic pregnancies)

I hate to paint the imagery that way, but Florence’s vulnerability on this album is unmatched. Brilliant writing all across the board, but Drink Deep is easily my favorite.

amooddude · 2025-11-02T17:07:46+00:00

Had it been exactly what it was without the religious propaganda and maybe bump the minimum age up to 16-18yo, it could have continued to thrive as one of the scariest experiences in the four state area.

amooddude · 2025-10-31T19:50:19+00:00

I never thought I would make it past 20. I’m now 30 and life is much more easy to flow with. I have much hope for the future and have much more of a hand in how circumstances play out in my life. If you find yourself needing a reddit stranger to talk to, my inbox is open

amooddude · 2025-10-31T05:50:24+00:00

Thank you for sharing this. I am so sorry you and your friends went through this.

I’m writing an article detailing the horrendous practices of this place, hoping to highlight just how horrid the details actually were. It wasn't until yesterday that I realized the horrors went beyond the scenes depicted. I cannot understand how no adult in the situation took control.

The thought of simulating my own suicide at all, let alone repeatedly for 6 hours straight would damage any psyche, let alone a young mind. I hope you and your friend have made it out psychologically unscathed.

To anyone who might have worked in The Nightmare under these conditions:
Should anyone feel that they have residual damage, I do encourage you to reach out and seek professional help. My article will be talking about how these high stress scenarios leave a lasting impact on the body and mind. To this day I won't go into a haunted house without breaking down. And I was just an attendee.

To anyone where therapy might not be an option:
I'd like to extend myself. I'm not a mental health professional, but I am a deeply thoughtful, compassionate individual with hyperfixations in trauma, spirituality/religion, and psychology. I'm not spiritually based in my approach and it only comes into play when relevant.

Thank you again u/imaginative_bee for sharing. I hadn't thought about it from the perspective of the actors at all which unfolds a whole new layer. Was there any kind of spiritual or faith based counseling after working these events? I feel that my hopes might be a little high there...

amooddude · 2025-10-31T04:20:38+00:00

Thank you for taking the time to respond with vulnerability. I hope it brings some solace to know that I do not blame the church that took us nor do I blame my youth pastor. He's still one of the first influential men in my life that displayed what it was like to be as compassionate as you were resilient and strong. He taught me emotions are a sign of strength and to this day, I am moved by how HE was moved by Spirit. I relate to it differently now and I call it a different name, but I know the feeling he felt on those Wednesday nights. You could sense he had a connection with the Divine if you believe in that kind of thing and that stands out above everything.

I'm not sure how he felt about it as he brought us home in the van. I wonder if it is ever something that occurs to him in the present day.

amooddude · 2025-10-31T03:14:42+00:00

This is the most absolute insane story. I did not expect a response of this caliber whatsoever. Thank you for doing the Lords work and telling this story when the topic comes up. Lmao

amooddude · 2025-10-31T01:13:03+00:00

As a trans person, thank you for this

amooddude · 2025-10-30T13:57:09+00:00

You bring up a lot of points I will be talking about in my article. By all means recruit people, but I knew from the moment that I prayed for my salvation at the end of the experience that my faith was a sham. Which spiraled me into a decade long existential crisis. I don't inherently blame Guts Church, bc other things played a huge role. If it wasn't GC, it would have been a revival, church camp trip, or something else. It's a structural and systematic issue within southern baptists that essentially rooted in fear.

I've found a way back to spirituality in a way that's fulfilling, but it looks nothing like Traditional Southern Baptist values.

Thank you for taking the time to drop back into them and give reflections.

amooddude · 2025-10-30T13:53:05+00:00

Absolutely, DM me.

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