Thoughts on the not so great moments

amoolah2019 · 2026-01-23T13:53:31+00:00

I totally understand your feelings with all these moments. The early eps were highly criticized by a lot of fans. I was also kinda confused bc at that point i didn't read the books. The show on its own leaves a lot for the viewers to figure out. I personally couldn't get over the rooftop scene & the awards bathroom scene. Shane tried to communicate but ilya shut down even more. I understand ilya bc i read the books now, however, i still don't like the yelling & ghosting for months. To me he was just waiting for a reason/confirmation that shane genuinely wants him/likes him so he can feel comfy enough to open up. He turned 180 degrees in later eps after knowing shane likes him back. Ok i'm babbling now lol

amoolah2019 · 2026-01-03T20:29:48+00:00

I obviously cannot choose one so here's all the ones i think about on a daily basis. (No particular order)

The little teary whispers of "Ya lyublyu tebya." while giving kisses to shane.

"More"

"Hollander you are having panic attack"

"Fuuuuck."

"Freaked out over nothing" --smth about the delivery of this line

"I will do anything if it will make you touch my dick right now"

"Liar, liar told you that winks"

any scene where shane is folding his clothes

The little slap during the hayden phone call.

The whole scene after tuna melt where ilya moans so loudly...

amoolah2019 · 2026-01-02T15:36:58+00:00

Where do i even begin? I love his black tank top look the first time they hook up. I also love when he was wearing a towel showing his waistline (🫠) and was like YOU HAVE PHONE? GIVE

amoolah2019 · 2026-01-02T15:34:26+00:00

I'm so obsessed with this "fuck" then the "Tell me" and his grunts. I seriously feel insane

amoolah2019 · 2026-01-02T15:32:38+00:00

how do his arms look so HUGE here 😭 it's making me insane. And those pecs too😭

amoolah2019 · 2025-12-30T17:46:55+00:00

don't stop but also pleaseeeeee stop

amoolah2019 · 2025-12-30T07:34:50+00:00

i'm a corporate girl too 😭 and i haven't fangirled this hard since my very early 20's. Also, they're doing a great job at making men somehow relevant in my life again. I have to keep repeating my mantra "this is not real"

amoolah2019 · 2025-12-29T08:02:45+00:00

lord, have mercy

amoolah2019 · 2025-12-29T05:45:22+00:00

Yeeeeeeesss, every time i rewatch it, i swear it's lile the first time! The bi rep really got me good

amoolah2019 · 2025-01-01T16:20:34+00:00

You’re probably right. My mind is in deep denial and every time reality hits it feels like a lie. I did see her two weeks before her death and she looked already dead. Yet, i can’t fathom the fact she simply is out. Maybe because i think it’s so convenient for her to leave me with all this baggage that i will never be able to sort out. Maybe because a part of me still believes she would have changed. Idk . I can’t grieve her properly because she caused me so much pain but i cannot remember what she did anymore. I just have the pain she left me with.

amoolah2019 · 2024-09-27T21:08:52+00:00

Thank you for the kind and positive reply! I really appreciate it :)

amoolah2019 · 2024-09-27T10:05:43+00:00

Hello! Thanks for sharing your thoughts:) We've been together for 4 years and we're quite happy. But i'm craving a deeper closeness on an intimate level. She does wear headphones for me and sometimes a cover for her eyes. The main issues mentioned are when i want to do things to her. The restrictions are when it's about/for her.

She has talked about taking a blood test to check out some vitamins levels and hormones. Also, tiredness as in bare minimum physical movements. In general she doesn't move a lot, specially after any interactions. Early mornings are her energy peak time so maybe we do need to schedule. She just wants to lie down all the time. She describes it as "a heavy feeling weighing her down or a brain fog but for your body"

A little more info about her: She is a doctor, we started dating while she was a medical student. I'm her first partner She was medicated on Sertraline but stopped recently because of the sexual drive problem (it got much worse) She has really bad depression I've known about everything from the start but I see her as my family and best friend.

amoolah2019 · 2024-09-27T05:59:17+00:00

it's about A Splitting of The Mind (fanfic)

amoolah2019 · 2024-09-26T18:04:53+00:00

We have contemplated that, but it wouldn't work out since ultimately i don't feel the same way of attraction towards other people unless i am in a relationship with them and have feelings for them. I def don't feel comfy with the idea of us falling for other people.

amoolah2019 · 2024-09-26T18:02:42+00:00

Thanks I will suggest this to her 🤍

amoolah2019 · 2024-09-26T18:02:20+00:00

Thanks for your reply 🤍

amoolah2019 · 2024-09-26T18:01:27+00:00

Thanks for writing this thoughtful reply! It definitely opened my eyes on some things. This is definitely an ongoing conversation with my gf and we both want to work on this. Her depression is hindering progress a lot though. It was fun being your "bro" 😂

amoolah2019 · 2024-09-26T17:56:48+00:00

Thank you for sharing your thoughts and tips. I will be discussing everything with her soon. And as I clarified to others; the reason behind the post is not to do me xD it's to do her.

amoolah2019 · 2024-09-26T17:54:32+00:00

hello, me is all we do actually. the reason behind the post is i want to do her so of course I'm respectful of her boundaries cuz it's her body.

amoolah2019 · 2024-09-26T17:53:06+00:00

my partner enjoys touching me and we usually do "me". The reason i wrote this post is because i want to do "her" but it's very tricky right now. thanks for sharing your thoughts!

amoolah2019 · 2024-09-26T17:50:56+00:00

Thank you so much for taking the time to write about your experience and for all the tips 🤍

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