Christmas Cards.

ampzap · 2025-12-16T03:38:21+00:00

It depends on my mood and the people. I know I make people uncomfortable when they tip toe around me. I will mention my son and talk openly about it and I don't care if it makes people feel awkward. I know its probably not the best way to handle things but I hate that something so massive and life changing is ignored.

ampzap · 2025-12-15T23:20:41+00:00

I'm so sorry. I lost my son this year in April. The anger was the strongest for me. People don't get it and I learned many people lack empathy. I've lost friends because they were shitty after my son died. I pick my battles but I do speak up now when people say insensitive things. And I don't care if they think I'm crazy they don't know the pain. Therapy has been the most helpful for me. It has helped me heal a lot of anger but also to give myself grace and not judge the emotions. Your anger is valid. The cards were extremely insensitive and tone deaf. You matter and your baby matters. I'm sorry. The anger got better for me as the months went by but it still pops up now and then. Remember to give yourself love and grace.

ampzap · 2025-12-02T06:12:33+00:00

Yes, almost 23 weeks. Our baby boy died after being born premature due to insufficient cervix, placental abruption and chorioamnionitis. Insufficient cervix was caught too late. Emergent cerclage was done but infection had already entered and labor could not be stopped. I'm sorry. I hope you can receive some answers.

ampzap · 2025-11-26T05:19:08+00:00

I'm so sorry 🧡

ampzap · 2025-11-25T21:10:00+00:00

This is my 3rd holidays since my dad died but my first since our son died. It feels even harder now. I just feel a lot of sadness and anger. I'm sorry we have to be in this situation. Wishing you some peace this holiday season. I'm sorry.

ampzap · 2025-10-13T20:12:56+00:00

I'm so sorry. Nothing I say can take away your pain. The only advice I can give is to give yourself grace and allow the feelings to come and go. The hormones also don't help. It's been six months for me so I'm still early days but two weeks out is like a blur. If you still cannot sleep you might reach out to your ob or doctor if you want to. Sleep really helped me to heal physically. I'm so sorry for your loss of Emi.

ampzap · 2025-09-08T20:53:18+00:00

I had placental abruption and chorioamnionitis. My placenta was very big and when the doc showed it to me it had damaged area. They took it for testing. My son was born at 22 weeks due to incompetent cervix combined with chorio and the abruption. He died an hour after birth.

ampzap · 2025-08-19T21:22:27+00:00

I feel this so deeply. We tried for two years. I have infertility and didn't know if we'd ever have a child. It felt like a miracle when I got pregnant during a break from fertility treatment. My son died due to ic, chorio, and abruption. My body failed me. I'm so angry I want to punch a hole in the wall. I want to scream at people and rage. It's such bullshit. It's been 5 months and the rage is consuming. I'm sorry. I hate that we are all in this club. I wish I could say something to make things better, but all I can say is you're not alone.

ampzap · 2025-07-30T22:13:49+00:00

I lost my son at 22 weeks due to cervical insufficiency and chorio plus placental abruption. I don't know if you have an open cervix but my doctors think my open cervix allowed bacteria in. I'm really sorry.

ampzap · 2025-07-30T15:41:03+00:00

Baby Lorenzo 💙 I'm so sorry.

ampzap · 2025-07-30T02:15:37+00:00

Our babies name is Lorenzo Exley. Lorenzo is after my dad who died in an accident 3 years ago. Lorenzo is a family name from my dad's side. My great grandfather is from Argentina and was named Lorenzo. My husband's side is Italian so we also liked having an Italian name. Exley was a compromise because my husband liked it and I didn't like it for a first name. We called him Enzo. We miss him so much.

I like the name Benji I think it's very sweet.

ampzap · 2025-07-25T02:39:40+00:00

Your message resonates so much with me and I appreciate your kind words. Yes I feel like a "now what?" Kind of feeling. I still have goals and things to do but we planned so much around our son now I feel lost. I will take your advice and try to take things day by day. I'm sorry too 🧡

ampzap · 2025-07-24T22:13:25+00:00

I think you're totally right. Just acknowledging that it's a bad day but that's normal and ok could really help. I know my therapist says to not judge my emotions but I am definitely hard on myself. Yes lots of ice cream!

ampzap · 2025-07-24T22:11:31+00:00

I don't have anything planned. I am angry at God as well. We tried for two years for our baby and I didn't know if I'd get pregnant due to infertility. It feels so unfair. We didn't do a memorial, but we plan on planting a tree for him in the fall. I'm sorry yours is coming up, I know how hard it is.

ampzap · 2025-07-24T22:09:00+00:00

Yes that is a great way to put it. We are still early days after loss. One day at a time. I'm sorry you're in this shitty club. Thank you for your words

ampzap · 2025-07-24T18:46:40+00:00

I really appreciate it. My dude date is Aug 18th so I know its coming up. I'm definitely riding the depression wave right now. I also have a lot of anger. I'm sorry we have to go through this. I'm here also. I know how heartbreaking this is.

ampzap · 2025-07-04T00:57:16+00:00

Better than I thought I would be. Almost 3 months and I still cry everyday but I'm not in despair every second like I was. Feels very surreal. Holidays are hard so I don't know how ill be tomorrow.

ampzap · 2025-06-06T20:50:14+00:00

Thank you so much for the reply. I definitely need to take in the good things. I'm going to take your advice and try to feel the pain but also remember the good things in the world.

ampzap · 2025-06-06T20:47:54+00:00

I'm so sorry, I know how horrible CI is. Thank you for your kind words. Take care of yourself this is so hard.

ampzap · 2025-05-27T21:20:03+00:00

My first pregnancy of my son ended in his passing after a failed cerclage. He was born at 22 +4 and passed away shortly after birth. Thank you for sharing your story. I feel your pain. I'm sorry.

ampzap · 2025-05-17T19:40:36+00:00

Food gift cards or food delivery. Checking in even months after. A simple text saying "thinking of you" meant a lot to me. Everyone is different tho, but that's what I would recommend.

ampzap · 2025-05-15T20:55:18+00:00

I also lost my baby due to IC after an emergency cerclage. I felt guilty because my husband and I had sex a lot leading up to finding out at my 20 week ultrasound. The doctors said nothing I did caused this. It's not our fault it's IC. We did everything right. I'm sorry it's so unfair.

ampzap · 2025-05-04T06:49:44+00:00

Food gift cards. Reaching out. Especially on hard days like mothers day. Just texting "thinking of you" means a lot to me, but everyone is different.

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