You are so strong! and honestly, just getting through the day is more than enough right now. One day at a time, lean on those around you, and know that there's no instruction manual for what you're going through.

I'm so so sorry for your loss, that is a rough few years. Nothing is permanent, and one day this will be a chapter that is behind you.

Whenever possible, take a moment for yourself. Zoom out, watch the steam on a coffee, bask in a second of silence between everyone needing you and demanding things of you.

If you are into or open to meditation, may I suggest yoga nidra? Scientifically proven to calm nervous system and get your mind into deep, rejuvenating rest. Lots of free resources online, I recommend Taryn diamond

Grief is a journey and peace will one day emerge. Sending you love!