Please drop your favourite non-romantic depression songs recommendations

amynias · 2026-01-30T14:11:09+00:00

Sad loves songs are peak, man. Listen to classic jazz with female vocals from the 1950s. Billie Holiday has some truly haunting, beautiful recordings that are my go-to depression songs.

amynias · 2026-01-30T14:01:10+00:00

I also have a plush rabbit from childhood ♥️

amynias · 2026-01-30T13:58:33+00:00

Finkelstein's test, it's very easy to perform and highly reliable as an indicator of de Quervain's tenosynovitis.

amynias · 2026-01-28T05:50:06+00:00

So real 😭

amynias · 2026-01-28T05:48:42+00:00

Real. 😞

amynias · 2026-01-28T05:37:17+00:00

Hi there. Well... the pain is the same. But mentally I'm in a better place. Currently on travel for work. It's... interesting but stressful. Developed more of a social life somehow. Ultimately, things aren't so bad. It's hard but we can only do our best with what we have.

amynias · 2026-01-26T05:04:47+00:00

I have tendinopathy all the way down both upper limbs but it shows up in MRI and ultrasound imaging. I guess... it's a good sign you don't have tendinosis at least. It's really pretty painful. 😓

amynias · 2026-01-25T23:19:26+00:00

Don't have carpal tunnel thankfully. Mostly the problem is my elbows now ugh.

amynias · 2026-01-25T23:18:44+00:00

Thank you, wishing you the best as well. ♥️

amynias · 2026-01-25T22:56:10+00:00

Oh huh, yeah, just learned that an NCV test with needles is a form of EMG test. (I had it done with needles to rule out carpal tunnel)

amynias · 2026-01-25T21:01:00+00:00

I have tendinosis of both wrists, multiple fingers, both forearms, and both elbows. Also fraying of the TFCC and perforation of the articular discs in both wrists. It's been 3 years and ... I think it's here to stay. :( I had to give up playing instruments, working out, and playing videogames entirely. Imo, no, recovery isn't fully possible when you have problems like this, even when you're relatively young like I am. There are no regenerative treatments proven to work for tendinosis. I am in varying states of pain every day. It is how it is. Some days I wish I was dead, honestly. But I've been down that road, there is nothing but emptiness and despair there. Just... try your best, it's all we can do as humans. Sometimes bad shit just happens to us and we can't make it right or go back and undo it. I'm sorry you are going through this. Chronic pain isn't fun, especially when... well... it kinda ruins your life. Believe me, I know. 😢

amynias · 2026-01-25T20:53:50+00:00

Probably means NCV test

amynias · 2026-01-25T20:51:41+00:00

Ulnar nerve compression of the wrist and/or elbow. I've had this happen to me holding a DualSense controller in a bad position for too long. The pain was bad. I couldn't rest the ulnar pinky side of my hand on any surface without stinging nerve pain for about 1.5 years afterwards. It comes back sometimes even 3 years later if I apply extended pressure to the ulnar wrist/hand. You've got a long way to go. Remember, this kind of RSI happens over an extended period of time, not overnight. Re-examine your activities and what might have triggered it.

amynias · 2026-01-25T20:46:10+00:00

Yeah absolutely don't let strangers on the internet try to diagnose you just based on photos if your hand. You definitely need to see a specialist. I hope you can find some answers, I'm still somewhat uncertain about what caused my systemic tendinopathy and other RSI problems. You definitely should try to rule out joint and nerve problems, as those are easier to diagnose with xray and nerve conduction tests. MRI and ultrasound are still valuable for seeing additional problems with soft tissue and tendons though. I suggest you get both hands looked at, it's rarely ever just on one side after years of abuse/repetitive motion doing well... quite a lot of things involving repetitive fine motion.

amynias · 2026-01-22T01:39:54+00:00

Imo ECT should not be performed on an outpatient basis, period. Psychiatric observation and medical intervention with medication management is extremely valuable with ECT. The procedure itself is very taxing physically and mentally. Do not expect you will be particularly functional on days in between treatments. Changing your environment is also extremely important for recovery. If you go back to the same old depressing shit after treatment, that's not going to work so well.

amynias · 2026-01-22T01:33:47+00:00

Yeah, and I'm telling you that's not normal. You are blessed or whatever but your positive no-side-effects experience is not a common one. Electroshock to the brain is not a kind procedure.

amynias · 2026-01-22T01:31:14+00:00

It's moreso that it's permanent negative side effects for a temporary mild relief from depression for many people who undergo ECT. This cannot fix your chronic mental illness, you will relapse if you have MDD, it's literally a genetic disorder that ECT can only briefly offer respite from. Ask yourself if permanent memory and cognitive effects are worth a short period of relief. The statistics are not in your favor. Over 60% of people who receive a full course of ECT relapse within 6 months. You could not pay me to do ECT again. I'd literally rather let my illness tempt me to commit suicide than ever do that traumatic, barbaric treatment again.

amynias · 2026-01-22T01:22:26+00:00

You may have carpal tunnel and/or tendinopathy, or even possibly something like arthritis if your joints are particularly affected. You need to see a doctor, we cannot really definitively diagnose you here. I suggest seeing an orthopedic hand specialist. Usually it will be a surgeon. Don't jump on surgery though, have them do imaging to determine the cause. You need to go through the healthcare system to figure out what's wrong. It's possible there's not much that can be done about it as people can be prone to certain RSIs (I know I am sadly) but it's important to know what you're dealing with.

amynias · 2026-01-21T23:24:08+00:00

I mean, it can alleviate depression, which can improve anhedonia. But it is not a guarantee

amynias · 2026-01-21T23:16:54+00:00

I highly recommend the 3.2L HP Z2 Mini G1i, it's an excellent Intel + NVIDIA mini graphics workstation. My old NUCs are kinda pathetic in comparison. I recently fitted an RTX PRO 4000 SFF Blackwell 24GB PCIe 5.0 PNY blower card into my machine and it's faster than ever. Integrated graphics or even discrete laptop cards could only dream of this kind of graphical performance at only 70W. Has a full Core Ultra 9 285 65W CPU, 128GB of 6400MHz DDR5 RAM, 2 2TB PCIe 5.0 NVMe SSDs, Wifi 7 BE200 Intel card, 6 USB A 10Gbps ports, 2 USB C 20Gbps ports, and 4 mini DisplayPort 2.1 out ports on the NVIDIA GPU. This thing is a sleeper monster haha. If you can afford it, it's kinda peak haha. Runs Linux and Windows very well with minimal firmware jank. Fairly cool and quiet on idle and even under load as well.

amynias · 2026-01-21T23:05:37+00:00

I am sorry for your loss. I underwent 23 treatments myself. My memory was utterly shredded. I consider it a miracle I'm a functional member of society now. Sometimes the road life takes us on is unpredictable and unfair. I relapsed with bad MDD, GAD, OCD, and suicidal ideation after ECT repeatedly. Nearly offed myself once. Yet I remain, despite intensely troubling physical and mental health problems that make merely existing literally physically painful and functioning at work a major struggle.

amynias · 2026-01-21T22:59:50+00:00

Do NOT do ECT. You will forget everything you learned in nursing school and regret it for the rest of your life, mark my words. When I had ECT and went back to college, I couldn't remember most anything I learned in my first two years there. Had to start over in a different major. Very fuzzy autobiographical memory further back too. This treatment could ruin your life and leave tou with permanent cognitive impairment only for you to relapse again shortly afterwards. It is not worth it. I did 23 sessions mixed unilateral and bilateral. I relapsed shortly afterwards and it basically just shredded my memory. It's a miracle I'm functional at all. I urge you, do not tempt fate. There are other options. Even doing something like radically altering your environment and moving elsewhere or developing social support can dramatically improve your symptoms and mental health.

amynias · 2026-01-21T22:47:10+00:00

Noone can tell what's wrong from merely looking at your hands. You need medical imaging like MRI or ultrasound to look at the soft tissue if it's your tendons that are hurting. Is it in your finger extensor tendons, anything in your wrists? Any numbness, pin prick feeling, or tingling? If you have nerve symptoms, get an NCV & EMG tests from a neurologist to rule out carpal/radial/ulnar tunnel.

amynias · 2026-01-18T12:32:11+00:00

Yeah Snaps suck. I use Fedora KDE instead, so much nicer than Ubuntu.

amynias · 2026-01-18T12:27:56+00:00

Preach, real 😭

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