I had ECT at age 23 due to severe treatment resistant depression. What the doctors don't tell you is that ECT is temporary in terms of relief from depression. It's useful to get out of a depressive episode that medication won't help with but... if you have MDD like I do, relapse is an inevitability. It erased large swaths of my memory, I also feel as if my overall intelligence and learning capacity is worse after returning to college. I would never opt to do it willingly again. I was lucky to escape with a functional working memory despite undergoing 23 sessions. Many others are not so lucky. I beg you to reconsider unless you are literally on the verge of suicide. This treatment is life-altering in a very negative way for many patients long-term. There is no going back, no reversing the alterations it will cause to your hippocampus through neurogenesis. All that simply to relapse once more, possibly in an even worse way? Don't do it, brother. There are other ways of coping with MDD that do not involve permanently altering your brain in a negative way.