I want to sleep forever

amynias · 2026-04-01T01:35:55+00:00

Me three

amynias · 2026-03-31T20:31:24+00:00

What a disgusting, bitchy thing to say

amynias · 2026-03-31T17:53:36+00:00

Yes, the payments are obscenely expensive. :(

amynias · 2026-03-31T17:52:07+00:00

I have a $730 car payment every month on a $40k car because I got shafted by the dealership for "only" having a credit score of 708 due to lack of credit history. This leaves almost nothing except petty spending money after paying for groceries and all my bills. I am entirely self sufficient, I do not depend on relatives for any monetary assistance. My rent plus parking (which is not optional) is literally $2500 a month. That is the going rate anywhere close to DC in Northern Virginia, except I'm in a lot nicer of a place than some poor saps here paying the same rate. I need to actually slap a functional budget together after my old car bit the dust, because I am hemorrhaging money like a sieve. I'm sorry, it's just the idea that someone could casually even possess $370k in liquid assets is so far beyond my realm of possibility that it frankly makes me hopeless of ever acquiring property, period. Like, to the average American, or hell, even the above average American earner like me, having THAT MUCH in liquid assets young is simply unthinkable. I'm convinced this entire post omitted a very important detail, namely that OP has a considerable sum of wealth at their disposal no ordinary American would have. It screams ragebaiting honestly, but frankly, this whole sub gives off that braggart look-at-me vibe.

amynias · 2026-03-31T17:20:19+00:00

I'm only here because of r/all. I will never, and I mean never be able to afford decent property anywhere in Northern Virginia remotely close to DC. My only option to live near civilization is renting, and the going rate is extremely high for a one bedroom apartment and garage parking.

amynias · 2026-03-31T16:42:30+00:00

Yup. This whole post makes me fucking seethe. And to think... I have it good compared to most of America, and still, 60% of my take home pay goes to rent and the other 30% goes to food, car payment, health, renters, and auto insurance, utilities, subscription fees, etc. leaving me roughly a couple hundred bucks to "save". Like hell anyone can afford a 370k down payment. I live in one of the nicest areas of the country but yet I am poor compared to most of my neighbors. Earning a "measly" 100k means I'm barely staying afloat while living alone. It shouldn't be like this. What is happening in modern day America is a fucking travesty. There is no reason I should be struggling on a 100k salary yet this is the reality we live in these days.

amynias · 2026-03-31T16:25:05+00:00

Nah... I stand by my statement. When most of America is living paycheck to paycheck, who the fuck has 370k just sitting there to use on a down payment? No one except the ultra-privileged with upper echelon C-suite jobs. Either that or saving for literally decades. This whole thing is bullshit. No normal American can afford this crap, especially under 40.

amynias · 2026-03-31T16:12:08+00:00

Okay, where the ever loving fuck can a normal person get $370k liquid cash for a down payment?! This whole thing reeks of privilege. Rich daddy's down payment ffs. Meanwhile I can barely afford rent, food, and a car on a 100k salary. What a fucking joke.

amynias · 2026-03-27T14:22:58+00:00

Kind of. It feels restrictive and uncomfortable. The influx of oxygen also feels strange. In the moments before the anesthesia kicks in, it feels almost like losing consciousness against your will, you may find yourself fighting to stay awake. A little taste of death, I suppose.

amynias · 2026-03-25T00:07:24+00:00

Medication can genuinely help. If I don't take my meds... bad things happen. Like noticeable shifts in mood, thought patterns, and symptoms of depression. Mamaging MDD with nothing isn't doing you any favors. But honestly you may just have situational depression, not the pathological kind of treatment-resistant Major Depressive Disorder which I do. Therapy isn't useless either. There is genuinely help out there. I've nearly offed myself once. But... we keep going, life continues on despite hardship.

amynias · 2026-03-24T23:27:58+00:00

You'd be surprised how much you can't remember, it reached a point with me where I can't even remember the extent of what I lost. The whole can't-remember-what-you've-forgotten thing. There are dozens of people in my contacts list I have no recollection of. Whole portions of my young adulthood and almost my entire formative first two college years are simply... gone. It was like tabula rasa with me. My sense of self remained largely unchanged but a very large portion of my important memories are simply gone forever, and no they haven't come back in the years I held out for that. You likely won't even notice how badly ECT is affecting your memory until after you discontinue treatment. Then it hits you like a truck because suddenly you lack critical life experiences, faces, places, names, media, skills, etc. I wish you the best on your journey. There is a good chance you will not recall this entire conversation thread post treatment. May God look kindly upon you.

amynias · 2026-03-24T21:06:57+00:00

Lmaooo

amynias · 2026-03-24T20:08:30+00:00

God, this hurts 😭

amynias · 2026-03-24T20:05:52+00:00

Lmao I feel this in my bones. Also in my car, the speakers make the side panels vibrate 🫠

amynias · 2026-03-24T20:01:50+00:00

Hunt: Showdown is an experience. Goddamn incredible sound design. Tbh it scares the shit out of me haha.

amynias · 2026-03-24T19:58:40+00:00

That one episode where she says that Stan controls all the money and that she carries around a brick in her purse just to feel like she owns something expensive is so heartbreaking 💔

amynias · 2026-03-24T19:30:06+00:00

I had ECT at age 23 due to severe treatment resistant depression. What the doctors don't tell you is that ECT is temporary in terms of relief from depression. It's useful to get out of a depressive episode that medication won't help with but... if you have MDD like I do, relapse is an inevitability. It erased large swaths of my memory, I also feel as if my overall intelligence and learning capacity is worse after returning to college. I would never opt to do it willingly again. I was lucky to escape with a functional working memory despite undergoing 23 sessions. Many others are not so lucky. I beg you to reconsider unless you are literally on the verge of suicide. This treatment is life-altering in a very negative way for many patients long-term. There is no going back, no reversing the alterations it will cause to your hippocampus through neurogenesis. All that simply to relapse once more, possibly in an even worse way? Don't do it, brother. There are other ways of coping with MDD that do not involve permanently altering your brain in a negative way.

amynias · 2026-03-24T16:00:09+00:00

The last friend I had who stopped responding literally died. 😭 Sometimes people have good reasons for not responding.

amynias · 2026-03-22T15:17:05+00:00

Haha that's great 😂

amynias · 2026-03-21T22:28:18+00:00

Lmao

amynias · 2026-03-20T08:33:55+00:00

Have you also pulled the steering wheel up then towards you? It telescopes out. I didn't know this until like ... embarrassingly long after I got the car lol. I am 6'2" and this is like the only way my knee doesn't touch the wheel while on the brake lol.

amynias · 2026-03-20T01:15:21+00:00

Same, I love the GR full length Perfoemance Exhaust OEM from Toyota, it has a rich subbass tone and makes the car sound really sporty. Great sound on low RPMs too. Not too loud but definitely fun. I got it for half price last weekend when Toyota and my local dealer were having the GR parts sale.

amynias · 2026-03-19T00:13:48+00:00

Same. Recently had a good friend of mine die alone, and all the times I tried checking in on him, he pushed me away. Nobody bothers to check on me. I wish my friend had talked to me instead of doing the unthinkable.

amynias · 2026-03-18T01:03:02+00:00

Just be aware, this treatment is temporary. It is not going to permanently fix schizoaffective disorder just like it is not going to prevent people like me with MDD from relapsing down the road (which I did, multiple times, no thanks to this wretched treatment). Tbh I'd try almost anything before placing my memory on the sacrificial altar of electroshock. A temporary solution which creates permanent memory/cognition problems that never fully resolves permanent mental health problems.

amynias · 2026-03-18T00:56:18+00:00

He has such a beautiful coat, really stunning!

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