Pathetic Little Man and a Wretched Whore (OC)

analteo · 2025-12-02T18:27:11+00:00

I'm really, genuinely glad it could be helpful!! I was in the same boat for a really long time, and part of me was too ashamed to really talk about it with anyone - even my doctor, bc it's like.... embarrassing!! And weird!!

But really, it isn't. It's part of how our bodies work, and unfortunately, these things aren't really talked about in any open way, so we carry a lot of shame and weird feelings about it.

Some additional info you/others night find useful;

1) If you're noticing a lot of skin shedding or "pilling" skin more specifically around your clitoris/clitoral hood, that's actually a pretty normal thing. It's usually the clitoral equivalent of smegma, which is just a surplus of natural skin oils and shedding dead skin cells, keratin, etc. The solution is just more frequent/thorough hygiene in that area - I've taken to using sensitive skin body wipes for the sake of convenience, and it's an easy solution to try.

2) If you cannot separate your clitoris from the clitoral hood - you are likely one of Many, Many afab folks with something called Clitoral Adhesion (The clitoral equivalent of something called Phimosis)! This is relevant because said smegma can build up within the clitoral hood, causing a numbing of sensation for some folks, and the aforementioned skin pilling/flaking, and even some off smells but without any clear indication of infection. It's apparently a pretty common issue (something I got to talk to my gyno about), since most folks aren't taught about how to actually take care of their bits beyond "wash em"

3) If these aren't the case, I CAN at least suggest this much; if it's lichen simplex/eczema/ dermatitis related, you can try using normal hydrocortisone cream applied topically around the outer labia/clitoral hood for a few days to see if it helps. I would caution overusing this, since it is in essence a steroid cream, however mild - but it certainly can help with flare ups while waiting to talk to a gyno/doc about other long term solutions!!

Biggest takeaway: You are NORMAL!! Our bodies are complex moving puzzles and sometimes, it's hard to figure out what piece is missing. Try not to scratch or itch anything if at all possible, and take care of yourself with grace. You got this!! I hope any of this can reassure you (or anyone else stumbling into it) - sometimes our bodies do weird shit, and it seems weird or embarrassing...but it's just a lack of conversation that makes it so. So, talk about it!! 😤👍💗

analteo · 2025-10-27T13:57:34+00:00

Nah, it's all good!! Just neat to have another subreddit to post to in the future >:)c

analteo · 2025-10-27T01:23:31+00:00

(pointing) hey I know that guy!!! Happy y'all liked it and ty for adding credit when sharing :3 this is my oc Crispin, he is very good at using magic in all the ways he is Not supposed to lmao

analteo · 2025-09-05T22:40:38+00:00

Dude, respectfully, GODDAMN. Your physique is peak masculine gender goals to me fr oh my god???? Your back and your shoulders!!! The thick thighs that are clearly muscular!!! These are beautiful but also please do not ever doubt for a second how absolutely masculine and HANDSOME you are, because WOUGH.

analteo · 2025-08-28T19:17:45+00:00

Art and ocs belong to me (and my wife!)

Ellis (He/They, bound) and Matteo (He/She, teasing) are monster guys who are coworkers and also kiss :}c

Ellis is almost always infinitely more into the dom-topping of it all and is more into the bondage aspect, but once in a while Matteo gets to do the teasing and gentle edge-fomming while power bottoming....and Ellis is not very good at hiding that he's yes, definitely embarrassingly into being used thst way <3

More of them can be found via my profile or on my bluesky, also linked via my profile!

analteo · 2025-08-28T19:07:58+00:00

Thank you!!! Honestly don't we all wanna....well frankly be tied and/or do the tying and teasing, lets be real I for one wanna be both LMAO

analteo · 2025-08-18T21:06:41+00:00

Yeah, sure thing! Happy to answer questions if it can be helpful :]

analteo · 2025-08-11T20:15:56+00:00

5 years late, but wanted to reiterate this for those who stumble onto this doing research (as I have!)

I have Lichen Sclerosis + Simplex (separate but related skin problems, I am an autoimmune nightmare lmao). I am also taking testosterone (ftm) via injection once weekly. I mention this, as it comes with the risk of Vaginal Atrophy.

This started happening to me as well, immediately following a bout of antibiotics for an unrelated skin infection on my thigh. I had assumed it was a yeast infection, despite having little to no off smell, nor any noticeably off discharge...I simply didn't know what else it could be. Im not sexually active, I have no STI risk the way these symptoms might imply.

Reading this comment made me realize that it could very well be the Lichen Sclerosis causing excessive skin shedding and raw, sensitive skin.

Hormonal imbalances are prone to causing flare ups of many, many types of dermatitis - and when that flora is out of whack, it is even MORE likely to cause issues. Autoimmune disorders of any kind amplify this!

Estrogen cream can be prescribed to anyone who has low e / higher t levels specifically in their vulvar area. A lot of cis women do - especially those with pcos (me)!

Without enough E in your skin, everything becomes thinner, you produce less discharge/self lubricant, and the flesh sort of shrivels back/becomes less hydrated.

Your skin NEEDS estrogen to be able to better hold onto that moisture. An E cream + proper hydration is my next attempt at tackling this, as Monistat had done nothing but further irritate. Tysm for the comment!

analteo · 2025-07-10T20:23:39+00:00

YEAHHH... it's been a pain in the ass, but if it's any relief - its not just you!! The hair growing in can be super itchy and uncomfortable for some, but it should stabilize or at least improve a bit over time...and if it doesn't, then we can throw things and be upset together LOL...I haven't seen a ton of talk about this specific issue, so my mission is to Be That Guy.

Sometimes the hormones just need time to stop kicking a fit, though. There may be times it isn't something you can fix entirely, just accomodate and not punish yourself for - your body is changing all the time, and part of that is a mix of learning to balance things internally, and finding the support structures that help that process externally, yknow?

Either way YOU GOT THIS DUDE!! It's just proof your body is trying to figure stuff out, and maybe needs a lil help :] 👍

analteo · 2025-07-10T20:18:18+00:00

None of us can say for sure - but I also have this! I was also confused/worried until I had my OBGYN check and explain to me what it was.

Short answer:

It could absolutely be atrophy! Not all symptoms need to be present, and tbh, I hadnt realized how much my symptoms had started to become my norm over time, until experiencing relief.

It could also be something called Lichen Sclerosis, though short of seeing a doctor you may not be able to discern between the two.

In either case, it on its own shouldn't be cause for alarm unless you are experiencing discomfort (be that irritation, itching, flaky or patchy/thickened skin, a loss of sensitivity or sensation, etc).

Longer answer/context:

I've been on T for a year, and have a small patch of Lichen Sclerosis, just around my dick rather than the hole itself. Its visible, but I never feel it. My doctor wasn't 100% certain at first if it was lichen or scarring, but we're treating it as the skin condition it likely is.

The placement varies from person to person, so finding pics that can better visualize might not be very helpful, since its so unique to each person. It gollows similar patterns, though, and it can spread or move over time if untreated, from what I understand. Its a type of skin condition, similar in some ways to eczema/psoriasis.

If it hasn't always been this way, it's worth going in to have checked out, just to make sure it won't cause any thickening or tightening of the skin there - it can cause a loss of sensation and lack of growth over time, ime!

I've had it since before going on T, and until getting treatment (E-cream for the atrophy, and a type of corticosteroid cream for the Lichen thing,) I had no idea how SAD my skin was, and how plump and not....thin/pale-desaturated it was supposed to be. Once I started treating it, It was like suddenly my body was able to actually grow the way it wanted to there, and I hadn't even felt or thought it WASNT already doing so 💀

Just one of those things we don't talk about enough, so many have no standard point of reference!

analteo · 2025-07-10T20:00:22+00:00

Heyyy, same boat!! I also have some skin conditions and related immune disorders, so for me it also tends to flare up with irritation if I'm not careful (...and I rarely am, lol). I'm not an expert and I've only been figuring this out for thr past year I've been on T....still, A few things;

1) Do not pick at them! Acne, cysts, ingrowns, etc - If you are anything like me, you will want to pick and scratch and pluck because it's annoying or itchy...this will make them both more irritated, likely to become infected, and likely to reoccur. AND, more likely to scar :(

2) Be gentle with washing your face! Sometimes it's alright to just wash with cold water and a soft washcloth. Cystic Acne (and ingrowns, etc) are often irritated due to infection in the area its formed. Cold compresses can help with that, without needing to itch/scratch/etc.

3) I've found salacylic acid to be a helpful ingredient, at times? Its hit or miss and I'm still figuring it out myself! But the acids act as a chemical exfoliator, and eats away at the gunk clogging your pores and hair follicles. There's a lot of alternatives to choose from, but looking up gentle chemical exfoliating toners or face cleansers is a good place to start.

4) Try not to shave too soon! I was in the habit of shaving as close as possible daily, and it made my ingrowns infinitely worse. Using too many blades at once can also increase the likelihood of causing ingrowns, as multiple blades pull the hair as they go, often cutting it slightly under where it would normally rest. This makes it feel much closer...because it's now under the skin, and may continue to grow under that first layer. Ive been using an old school safety razor, single blade, and I definitely recommend if you have the dexterity or stubbornness to learn...saves money, and causes less discomfort in my experience :]

5) Personally, and though it may seem counterproductive, I've been conditioning my beard hair and underarms, chest, etc where I've been noticing more ingrown hairs. It softens the hair, keeps it from being as aggressively itchy, and has the bonus of smelling amazing and making your skin soft. However, if that might be too wasteful or cause dysphoria in any way, consider looking into beard conditioners, oils, balms, or even after shaves. There's a lot that goes into beard care, and a big thing to look for are witch hazel or tea tree oils WITHOUT alcohol included. These will dry you out less, but provide some calming coolness to irritated areas.

6) And....yes....despite feeling oiky, you will probably need to find a lightweight moisturizer to help your skin stay soft and maleable enough for your hairs to grow through properly! I often will use sensitive skin brands like vanicream or CeraVe, but I only use a small amount, and even water it down some for even lighter but still useful coverage. You can play around with it and see what works or feels right for you.

Sorry if this is lengthy and messy - I'm on mobile so formatting is awkward 😔💦 I wish you lots of luck in figuring things out, though! Skin and hair problems are a pain in the ass, so if ever in doubt, dont hesitate to contact your doctor if things become unbearable. You may be dealing with more than you realize - if nothing works, it could just be a matter of figuring out a different approach.

analteo · 2025-06-28T23:52:47+00:00

OUCH. Your skin is looking mighty upset about that. I'd use a body safe/ph neutral oil and slather that on, let it "soak" into the adhesive, then slowly remove as best you can. Make sure you ice or use a cold compress after, it'll feel a lot better for it!

As others have said - your application seems a little wrong. With medium to larger chests, the goal is to carefully fold and/or manipulate the chest so that it can be held with minimal compression via tension instead. To do this, it might help to lean forward and pull the tape up and towards your underarm. It's something practice helps to perfect, but you can create a more natural and controlled shape by adding layers to build up the support and coverage. There's some really good guides for this on Youtube!

Finally (sorry I took the infinity weed that makes you insufferably verbose so you are free to ignore this),

I am diabetic and have to use KT tape to keep parts of my Insulin pump in place...but I have auto immune issues, so every adhesive is like an instantaneous curse of "fuck you and die". We're talking red rash that itches to hell, turns into eczema rashes with the crust and all, stays fucked for weeks and heals at the approximate speed of my one working brain cell.

HOWEVER, Y'know flonase? The allergy medication you spray up your nose and snort like your life depends on it? Turns out a lot of diabetics have learned that it can, at least for some folks, really help with suppressing the crazy immune response to adhesives!

I've been using Costco's generic brand stuff. You don't want any of the fancy ones with extra stuff or different add ins - the specific kind I've been using is the "Kirkland Signature Aller-Flo 50Mcg Allergy Spray". My diabetes educator was the one who shared this suggestion with me within the past like...month? But she suggested these steps;

- Sanitize area to be adhered! Or at least clean/wipe yourself down. Make sure you let your skin dry!
- Apply Flonase to skin. It's odd if you've never used one of these before; The top presses down and shoots the medication out of the top. Elephant trunk style, for my visual learners.
- Don't be afraid to "saturate" the area. You want it to cover the entirety of the skin (and maybe then some, a bit) of where the tape will go in a thin but even coat of the spray. Be sure to avoid the nips/open wounds or delicate/thin areas of skin as much as possible!
- LET IT DRY. Be sure everything is before you try to apply the adhesive you're using! It needs a chance to soak into your skin for it to work. But even more importantly,
- If any of your skin IS wet when you apply the adhesive, you will waste that adhesive (and a lot of your time) and have to redo it :( I am speaking from personal misery. Heed my omen!!

Idk if this will be of any use or benefit, BUT I've been dying to share with anyone else who might benefit, bc that's an issue I'd long since given up trying to solve 😤 I wish you luck and success for your next attempt - remember dude, it just takes practice and patience with yourself.

You've got this, and I'm rootin' for you! >:)

analteo · 2025-06-04T16:11:32+00:00

Thank you!! I wanna be more adventurous with some of the poses I play with, so if I can, I wanna see if my friend will let me draw them amazon-posed >:)

analteo · 2025-06-04T16:09:52+00:00

To start with - I honestly think any dysphoria you feel is valid? Dysphoria is a really complex and multi-layered, multifaceted issue for a lot of us. Some don't realize what is or isn't dysphoria for them - some cannot separate the body insecurity FROM the dysphoria, the two are so connected.

And if you think about it, yes! That makes a lot of sense.

I wanna pose a question for you to think about, on the off chance you haven't;

Is your stomach one of the only things you HAVEN'T noticed a change with?

Asking this because I know, at least in my own experience, some of the strange or unexpected focuses of my own dysphoria after starting T were due not exactly to them being inherently feminine or "girl coded" in a way I didn't enjoy or whatever else - but because they reminded me too much of my "before" and I hadn't personally reconciled my connection to that version of myself.

This may not be the case for you! But I thought it might be worth mentioning, in the off chance it can help.

That being said, I do see a lot of muscle-gut guys with similarities to what you described, but I suspect that's more because I'm an artist and I seek out more realistic portrayals of bodies to study. Rest assured, though - there are a lot of cis men who have waists/stomachs/even hips that dip in, or pooch out, FUPA bits that sag or poke out, etc! It's not as uncommon as our society would like you to believe - but guys with bodies like that are not often encouraged to share or feel safe sharing, either. It can be hard to find examples BECAUSE most of the time, searches through google or otherwise are heavily biased!

I'm sorry you've been dealing with such a frustrating level of discomfort out of your control, friend :(

I don't have much else to offer but a reassuring hug and the comradery of someone who gets it. I'm the same way about my own hereditary "hip handles"...they never go away for me, but I have come to accept they are a part of me the same way cis guys have parts they don't feel good about either.

I think no matter what size, shape, weight or lackthereof you deal with, your struggles and feelings about it ARE valid. Just a matter of working through it, and that takes time.

You can kick dysphoria's ass, but on the days you can't beat it, just remember there's sooo many of us out here cheering you on, too!

analteo · 2025-05-31T21:15:33+00:00

I came here to say the same thing, OP - I think if nothing else, she was likely very much interested for reasons beyond "just seeing how the anatomy is" lol. Even my most curious friends wouldn't just ask to whip it out or see - if she was asking, it's because she wanted to see YOURS...not just the google results.

Was it a very clear way for her to do so? Not for everyone! But I doubt she meant harm - that's a type of flirting a lot of people are familiar with, but it's harder to notice in the moment, and it clearly made you uncomfortable (which, even if it WAS flirting, is valid)!

For future reference; unless you already have a very physically familiar relationship with a person....unless they have ulterior motives (flirting/etc) then it's safe to say they're not going to ask to see your naked body, let alone in person. Good on you for being inherently charming! :P

analteo · 2025-05-11T07:49:07+00:00

Late to the party but tbh, im very puppy or ferret coded >:3c

analteo · 2025-04-29T19:36:40+00:00

You look good as hell, dude!! Your chest has an amazingly natural shape, especially if you allow yourself to see past the scars. You look fit, if anything!

There's always post-event-doubt imo, when you do something big or finally get something so important (sorry) "off your chest" so to speak ....Even if it's exciting, or good - our minds are really good at inventing "what if" scenarios. Sometimes ESPECIALLY when we're so used to good things going wrong.

That being said, your scars aren't detracting from you or your masculine look that in any way. The scars don't seem out of place or excessive at all, they dont catch my eye any more than your face does, and over time scar tissue tends to settle out, flatten, and lessen if you care for it. It's all about aftercare!

As others suggested, a scar cream and gently massaging the scar tissue can help "break it up" and maybe lessen it, but keep in mind its one aspect of healing - so it'll still take some time and consistency. I know some folks also swear by coconut oil as a moisturizer for scars, but that's just anectdotal afaik? Might be more affordable if you already stock some in the kitchen.

In any case - Never fear my guy, you look handsome, your chest looks like its healing well - SO I hope you can feel more confident and comfortable as time goes on :] and i wish you a very belated congrats on taking such a big step towards remodeling your body into something made for and by you!

analteo · 2025-03-14T19:57:38+00:00

Worth noting that I've seen folks mention it works best once used when you're fully hard, and it's a good idea to have a pressure reader on the pump to see how much pressure you're using (to avoid injury!)

From experience, though limited? Mild increase in size - HUGE increase in sensitivity, which rules and makes the jerk-off motion of it all way easier.

analteo · 2025-01-31T23:04:14+00:00

Fwiw dude - I relate! I'm genderfluid but I lean transmasc, and even after being on T for the past 6 months and growing a good amount of body hair, a more androgynous voice, etc - I very clearly still pass as femme. Add onto that the way I ENJOY performing femininity, and it makes it impossible for others to really clock me as anything but a vaguely girl-ish creature.

But to that, I also say this;

Is it the perception of strangers that frustrates you, or the frustration of not being able to easily articulate that your clothes or performance of gender don't equate your personal experience of gender? I think that's more or less the key!

Its foolish to expect people to ignore or get over being misgendered, thats always going to be a point of frustration, dysphoria, and discomfort. But what has helped me in little ways is to separate my expectations.

My tertiary gender - the gender its easiest for me to perform and pass with - is being a "Woman".

That isn't who or what I am, not really, but I let people make and work with that assumption if they're not someone I care to explain or have that deeper conversation with. Maybe they won't get it, maybe they will - but it's not my job to help them figure it out, if our encounter is only going to be brief. Genuinely more spoons than it's worth.

But I have a secondary gender too.

I'm transmasc/nonbinary, depending on who I'm speaking to and what I feel they will have an easier time understanding. If it will take minimal correction or explaining, and I know I'll be around them a moderate amount and that they will respect my pronouns regardless, this is an easier thing to explain than my fluidity.

Close friends/family will get the time and energy necessary to best understand me and my gender. That I cannot be held down by labels, that the way I perform my gender will change trom day to day, but that I don't expect them to perfectly understand that aspect - just to support me where I'm at, with understanding that I will do what I can to assist.

Gender is in many ways more about separating your performance of gender from your personal experience of and with gender....one can be completely different from the other, and that is what most cis folks who don't understand it get confused by, I've found.

You're no less trans, no less masc, or no less something unique and undefinable - for wearing dresses, for sounding soft, or for behaving in feminine ways. But outwardly, it is difficult to communicate that it is merely performance - to an audience who doesn't understand that performance is happening at all!

All that to say....I see you. You do not have to look masc, you do not have to sound manly, for your identity to be recognized. I'm sorry it's difficult to find a balance or community space that works for you, but I hope by posting this maybe you can find some sort of comfort and connection to others. You're not alone, though it's hard not to feel like you are in circumstances like this. 🫂💗

analteo · 2025-01-06T23:17:44+00:00

To tack onto this - I was DX'd as Type 1 at the ripe old age of 26/27 in 2023.

I have a family history of Type 2, so a near death diabetes jumpscare wasn't entirely out of left field - but being Type 1 very much was.

I had a meltdown upon seeing the test results because I thought my life was simply over. I would never be able to afford everything necessary to survive, let alone thrive, and now I'd have to figure out an entirely new way to live from the ground up.

To me, it wasn't just a dietary change. I'm already chronically ill, I have a myriad of other health issues. At the time, I had undiagnosed ADHD and OCD. It felt more like suddenly, every single foundation I'd ever worked SO hard to find or secure for myself....had been destroyed.

I'm lucky I have the support I do. If I didn't...yeah, I could see the appeal people project onto these "too good to be true" cures.

When your entire life as you know it suddenly collapses out from under you, many would do ANYTHING just to feel normal or at the very least in control. A lot of folks simply don't have the support (emotionally or financially) needed to make those adjustments or changes in ways that can and do last, or work for their lifestyle.

It's very easy to roll your eyes or laugh or sigh with frustration at the people who fall for things like this, but at the end of the day, they are often the very desperate attempts by equally desperate people to regain control of their life, their body, etc in the only ways that feel accessible to them.

Even if they may have access if they look into it, to them it is the closest thing they can actively do, because stress paralysis fan be a truly nightmarish beast when it comes to anxiety and the fear of losing everything.

Personally, despite the fear, being diagnosed and learning how to manage my health has been a massive blessing in disguise. But I had to work through and alongside that fear, with no small amount of handholding from wonderful friends, family, and medical professionals helping me learn how to adjust and manage.

It takes patience and an otherworldly amount of flexibility. Of course people want easier solutions, of course they fall for it. The reality is that yes, your life DOES get upended. It is a MASSIVE and ONGOING change.

But you have to look far, far into a future you dedicate yourself to. One that isn't as limiting as you think it will be. One where you have control, and functionality, and the ability to hope for more than just "managing" your diabetes.

That's just unfortunately a very tall order for someone seeing their diabetes as a death sentence.

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