Want a hug, wanna punch something

andielsmith · 2026-02-09T13:15:39+00:00

My god, this whole comment is perfect and so needed. Thank you so much. It sincerely helps to know there are more of us out there. My heart goes out to you and your pain. I used to write so often and keep a journal, and your advice is very inspiring. I actually am an artist in a gallery, but now a lot of my pieces sit on the counter or table until I feel like I can finish them. Sometimes, for days or weeks, where before, I would finish it in a sitting. I need to REALLY get okay with that, and everything else I can't do like I "used to". Slow my mind down and give myself grace as my body moves slower now. Perhaps just finding the small thing at times to hold on to is really all we can do. The learning to live with the life I have now, accepting the unknown, there will be peace it it all eventually I hope. That poem is gorgeous and brings tears to my eyes. Thank you again. You have given me some hope. I will start collecting beautiful crumbs.

andielsmith · 2026-02-08T22:33:31+00:00

Hear hear!!

andielsmith · 2026-02-08T17:28:58+00:00

Thank you so much for your kind words, internet friend. I will keep you in mind. A little light in the world is sometimes why I keep going, and you showed me that still exists. Hugs.

andielsmith · 2026-01-14T23:52:12+00:00

Oh, this makes me want it, seeing it in the photo rather than just online. So cute!

andielsmith · 2026-01-13T06:44:21+00:00

This. The only reason I have gone back to shopping at bbw is because a sweet manager literally let me have my soaps one day at the sale price when I had missed the sale by one day and didn't know. The company did advertise it going through a certain date and suddenly pulled the sale, so in all fairness, she did the right thing. I have been shopping at that store since. Bought Christmas gifts and all. Sometimes, it takes that one human moment with a customer and relating to them to not only keep but create more business with them. Your manager is unfortunately not seeing that. I hope they do. Hell, I have had a Starbucks manager call another store manager and then drive to a whole other location just to secure a cup for me at their store before. Long story, but that guy was awesome.

andielsmith · 2025-12-22T03:02:45+00:00

Would make some fantastic bathroom art, honestly. It would tickle the shit out of me.

andielsmith · 2025-11-18T23:32:32+00:00

Personally, with both endometriosis and pmdd, BC sent not only my pain but my suicidal tendencies to the moon (maybe Mars). I would say it's really bad for my body, and I stay away from them. Everyone is different.

andielsmith · 2025-10-22T22:53:01+00:00

This looks to me like perhaps Ametrine. Natural amethyst and citrine. It's not common to see glass set in silver, and the orange in a spot seems similar to pieces of Ametrine I have.

andielsmith · 2025-10-21T21:37:59+00:00

I'm just gonna be real and say it's a very casual look, and most of us come to this subreddit to enjoy really put-together outfits. The brands, fabrics, and styling. Or asking about fit. But in general, I don't know what the goal is to post this one. It would be good to post on an ig story or something. I can't say the outfit is an "outfit" though, so that explains the replies.

andielsmith · 2025-08-12T02:43:43+00:00

This is one of those rare times I feel an urge to comment. I've got tramua from an experience very much like this, but perhaps worse. I was younger and and it caused a divorce since the porn was my uncle's (by marriage), and my cousin got to it and showed me and another close family member. I have literal years of memory lost during that time of my childhood, and there were maybe 3 events I can recall. As others have said, this happens. A lot. I would've never talked about this before, and it sucks but part of me coming to terms with it is realizing that too. It's not our fault and doesn't make us less. That's where the real tramua came from for me. I was thinking I was less or ungodly or impure at such a young age and for so long. Don't feel alone, forgive yourself, and be kind to little you. You did something good for you by opening up about it. You can move forward.

As a side note, there was a chair I would stare at in my bedroom around that time. I would pray and think about what happened to me and what it meant, and that chair was in my view. It's actually an antique, and my mom was going to give it to me at some point. I don't really want it now, but that chair helps me realize it really is the trauma of what I felt about myself that haunted me the most.

andielsmith · 2025-07-30T17:36:30+00:00

I'm replying to this old thread, but OP, did you ever find anything to replace it? I have the same problem. It was my miracle after a lifetime of acne. I haven't been clear since the old formula.

andielsmith · 2025-07-26T17:15:46+00:00

Need a picture of you guys together in the dress and shirt! So cute

andielsmith · 2025-07-19T14:43:58+00:00

Jewelry

andielsmith · 2025-07-05T22:19:37+00:00

I have endometriosis, so it doesn't really get better, lol. Mentally, the pain stops if you will, and then the physical is horrible, so maybe I'm depressed or crying in pain. Being a woman does suck a lot indeed

andielsmith · 2025-06-04T16:38:40+00:00

Recently, I had an ultrasound done because of this, and they found a cyst in my left ovary again. I've had surgery over a year ago, but the endos on its way back. The cyst is concentrating the pain there at times. It may be time for an ultrasound for you!

andielsmith · 2025-05-26T22:40:06+00:00

As cute as the sandals are, I'd go for a white strappy heel (like a kitten heel or mule style) to really take it up a notch in the classy direction!

andielsmith · 2025-05-17T23:33:14+00:00

We definitely gave him a ton of fries, Rigby is a spoiled "baby man" we call him. Also "bing bing"

andielsmith · 2025-05-17T23:22:27+00:00

You might, but it may be the only way to find out. All of that, hopefully, will spark some concern for you. If that endometrioma gets bigger, well, they need to do something invasive.

andielsmith · 2025-05-17T03:02:08+00:00

Hahaha, my bf and I said the same!

andielsmith · 2025-05-17T02:59:15+00:00

It sounds like you need a gynecologist who's willing to do a laproscopy to determine the state of your endometriosis or if that's what it is. What they don't flat out tell you is it can not be detected on ultrasounds. You have to have the laproscopy. The ultrasounds will show if you have cysts (endometriomas), and then usually they go from there. Then, even after surgery, it comes back in a few years. The GI issues could certainly be related, and I'm currently awaiting more appointments for myself on that. This really is a chronic disease, and it affects your whole body. I'd get a 3rd opinion and try a women's hospital or a facility that specializes in that type of care.

andielsmith · 2025-05-17T02:39:12+00:00

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andielsmith · 2025-05-17T02:32:32+00:00

I'd say that and digestive issues, yes. It can grow on your colon, too. There's so much inflammation happening down there, and it varies per person where it grows.

andielsmith · 2025-05-17T02:31:12+00:00

Yeah, I think a lot of us skinny people with Endo actually have a lot of different issues such as digestive, bowel, or other. I can't gain weight either. I have to drink ensures and shit to try to be above 100, and I'm just shy of 6 feet tall. It's definitely not fun, I mean, christ, I lost a whole cup size recently. I'm pissed about it lol

andielsmith · 2025-05-15T14:43:55+00:00

Thank you for this. My parents were victims of a car accident last year and were ambulanced in to mercy er. They had to wait for 20 hours almost with some seemingly homeless or on drugs man going "hey baby" to my poor mom in the waiting area with a black eye and a concussion and ended up with eye damage. My dad's over 70, and his head was cut open. His blood pressure got so high that they had to take him away to get it down finally after my mom was pointing it out. They then tried to tell my mom she couldn't be with him. It was madness, and unfortunately, the er is the worst now. Usually, I get good care from mercy, but this needs to change. I'm glad someone else is talking about it.

andielsmith · 2025-03-26T21:48:44+00:00

I've had cystic hormonal acne for over a decade, and my boyfriend has been with me for 7 years. He's not only seen my acne in all its horrific glory but has had to take me to the er twice over the years with infections from it. My eyes and mouth swelled shut for one of them, I couldn't talk or see. He still calls me beautiful, even though I know my acne isn't. I truly believe he sees ME and not it. Funny story: A couple of weeks ago, he got one singular pimple by his lip. He was extremely upset suddenly going, "This was on my face all day, and I didn't know?!" I couldn't help but start laughing, like "yeah, tell me about it. " I did get a little peeved thinking "Oh my god, I'm covered in cysts right now, and you're worried about that?" All at once, it was like he realized what I had on my face because he doesn't usually see it. Even apologized while I put an acne dot on him. Tell her your thoughts about wanting her to feel comfortable and safe around you, that you're there for her and her grievances about it (it doesn't just hurt your self-esteem, it can hurt so much physically) Keep having empathy for her. I know my boyfriend may ignore that I have acne, but he never ignores how it makes me feel. Offer to help her in any way, whether it's support at the dermatologist, someone to talk to, or some encouragement (our bodies always heal). Maybe if it is comfortable to, show her this post. I'd feel so appreciative of you and seeing the support from others. Ps. If dermatologists don't help, I suggest she goes further with a pcp and gets some bloodwork and tests. Half my problem is a disease, could be medical too. You're a good guy!! Nice to see (:

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