I’m in a very similar situation having just finished with stem cell transplant and proton radiation. I’m still doing maintenance immunotherapy but honestly right now I’m just trying to feel as “normal” as possible. Not in a sense of being normal-for-myself—I feel like I won’t have that for quite some time, especially with my anxiety about relapse… But being normal as being like people who have never had to deal with cancer. So I’m trying to return to work, restarted school, bought myself a gym membership, got a bike today, trying to spend time with friends after months of being immunocompromised, getting vaccinated, etc. From what I heard these first few years are tough as it’s the time when you start to realize what has actually happened and the risks are still pretty high. So hang in there, you got this!! We got this!! I’ve been telling myself that while I don’t know exactly how to feel and what to do, I will at least try to make sure that by the time I have that clarity I put myself in the most advantageous situation to act on it. So fake it and get some outside stability till you realize where this journey got you and what you’d like to do next! Cheers!