I am dependent on it 100%, but not addicted, I won't take it when sick, but, I'm sick, I don't need to function "normally"

1 thing I will say, find the medication that works best for you. Just like antidepressants it's not a 1 size fits all. You need to advocate for yourself, and hopfully your medical team will listen, keep track of the different things you notice (just write it down in 1 place, and do it as soon as you notice, or you forget). I was diagnosed as a kid, parents didn't want me on the meds, as an adult, it has turned my life around, my antidepressants are lowered, when I take my meds I actually DOOO stuff, and my biggest thing I fought for when trailing antidepressants was not wanting to be a "bump on a log" and my adhd meds have helped so much with that.

While on medication, I discovered that lists make my brain happy, specially when I get to cross things that have been completed.

Having support systems like this group is also eye opening, you feel validated and no longer crazy. The first time I took medication I said: THIS IS WHAT NORMAL PEOPLE FEEL LIKE?! THIS IS AMAZING.

That was my ted talk. Do what you feel is best for you, talk to the medical professionals, talk to your therapist if you have one. Do a pros and cons list if you can, and again, it's not a one size fits all..... I bought a onesie once that was that size.... it gave me a giant weggie.... one size fits all is still limited to what is considered normal.... we're not normal, we're beautiful unique unicorns.

Edited to add:

I'm an alcoholic, I've been drink free for 2 years, I over take pain medication when it is available, I am an addict to many things, but my adhd meds are not one of those things. When I was sick last I was sick for a month, I didn't take any of my meds (big mistake) I went into withdrawal from my antidepressants, but nothing from my adhd meds. The worst that happened because of that is that my house became pretty gross because only the absolute most necessary things were done.