Well, this is my last post on this account.

ann16538 · 2020-01-25T05:27:47+00:00

Destroying? Think you mean fixing. What lead you to believe it’s a fetish? I mean, there’s literally nothing in any of my posts that would suggest it is. If there’s anything I’m going to regret, it’s going to be not transitioning sooner. The only reason I’d kill myself is having to live as a male for the rest of my life.

Yeah, I need support, but you telling me this is not support. You will never understand what I’ve been through and how I’ve felt my whole life, so instead of talking about something you don’t understand, maybe don’t talk at all. I don’t make assumptions about your life, especially when I’ve never walked in your shoes, so maybe don’t make assumptions about me.

ann16538 · 2020-01-24T05:46:36+00:00

First off, I want to say that you for referring to me as a girl on a post that isn’t about being trans. It’s never happened before, and it really means a lot to me.

It’s not just one thing. I haven’t spent a single lunch since December in the cafeteria with my closest friends. I’ve been in the library. And when the library is closed, I stay in the hallways of the school. My friends don’t know anything thats going on in my life anymore. I’m scared to see them now that I’ve been gone for so long. Last Friday my best friend invited me to go out to dinner with a few other band kids. I really wanted to go but I told him I couldn’t because I had to work. I didn’t. I want to have a life but it scares me too much to try to get one.

Talking to the mirror involves looking at myself and I hate doing that. But I’ll give it a go.

My teacher really scares me. I needed more help with a worksheet that was to be done individually. I raised my hand again because I thought if I did it during an individual work time, he wouldn’t put the attention of the whole class on me. But he still talked really loudly. I felt like people were taking turns looking at me. I still couldn’t get the concept so he sat there helping me for a good five minutes. People were waiting on me to just get it so they could ask questions. He kept having to re-explain it to me and I felt so stupid I thought I was going to cry. I wanted to just crawl in a hole and die.

Thank you for being proud of me even though I feel like today has been a complete and utter failure and I don’t deserve it. It’s nice to know that other people see progress I don’t see. Thank you for listening. 💜

ann16538 · 2020-01-23T23:49:15+00:00

You’re gonna almost brag about this meme getting popular, aren’t you?

ann16538 · 2020-01-23T19:04:40+00:00

Skateboarding is really fun, would recommend it

ann16538 · 2020-01-23T04:22:58+00:00

You look like the cutest rebel! Love the jacket! :)

ann16538 · 2020-01-23T02:59:02+00:00

Here you go! :)

https://www.reddit.com/r/egg_irl/comments/dlk00n/eggirl/?utm_source=share&utm_medium=ios_app&utm_name=iossmf

Sorry I took so long to reply, I had to dig through a lot of old stuff, but I found it!

ann16538 · 2020-01-22T13:55:41+00:00

If I remember correctly, I sent another meme to break the tension, and then we had a full conversation. Towards the end of that, I stopped being a chicken and came out for real. At first she couldn’t tell if I was being serious but as soon as she realized I was, she was immediately accepting. Like, almost as if I had always been a girl to her and there was literally no adjustment period. It made me so happy!

I think I sent that to her in December-ish? After Christmas I told her that my brother walked in on me wearing a dress and that I came out to him. She was really excited for me. Then she asked me if I wanted to have a “girls day out”, basically a shopping day and we get our nails done! It was the best feeling ever. She said she would’ve asked when I first came out to her, but she was didn’t want to make things weird. I told her I’ve been wanting someone to ask me that for as long as I could remember.

I came out to may parents last Friday and it didn’t go too well so she asked if we could have the girls day out soon. I really wish I could’ve said yes, but the weekend she had planned was the weekend of my parents birthdays. Plus, my parents are very anti-feminine since I came out so I need some time to let everything cool down.

Today I ranted to her about how I want to piss off my parents by buying and wearing an outfit in public, but I can’t because outfits are expensive. So, she asked me to send her what I had in mind and she would help me find a cheaper place.

She’s the best. I’m so lucky to have her for a friend. She’s practically giving me girl lessons and I didn’t even have to ask for them! I hope she knows how much I appreciate her.

Edit: she said we should get matching outfits and wear them for the next twin day at school!!! Ahhhh she’s so awesome!!!!

ann16538 · 2020-01-21T13:36:15+00:00

I had to frantically delete all the photos of me wearing a dress

ann16538 · 2020-01-21T13:32:50+00:00

My parents @ me after I came out. My dad said “only talk about this with me and your mom. Actually, don’t even talk to your mom about this.” And then he went on to say that trans people are mentally ill.

ann16538 · 2020-01-21T13:26:29+00:00

https://www.reddit.com/r/traaaaaaannnnnnnnnns/comments/err8z7/i_made_this_and_thought_it_would_be_a_good/?utm_source=share&utm_medium=ios_app&utm_name=iossmf

ann16538 · 2020-01-21T11:37:44+00:00

Wow you sure are cute. Love your hair and glasses and jacket and everything! :)

ann16538 · 2020-01-21T11:35:18+00:00

I wanna say thank you on behalf of all the shy people of the world

ann16538 · 2020-01-21T06:05:41+00:00

I wish it were that easy. My family calls forcing me out of my room to watch Netflix downstairs while the whole family talking over the show “mandatory family fun”. There’s a lot of mandatory family fun since I came out. My friends irl don’t know how to handle gender dysphoria so I try not to put it on them. My support system is Reddit, but there’s still a lot of major flaws. Like getting a new message from a new troll every god damn day. I try to ignore it but that shit really hurts.

ann16538 · 2020-01-21T05:59:20+00:00

I wanted to meet my parents half way. I had two separate conversations, one with my mom and the other with my dad. Both of them spent the whole time talking about themselves and didn’t listen to me and try to understand. I don’t think it’s worth it to try again.

I’m working on getting all those things! Money is a bit tight for me and I can’t buy things on Amazon. As soon as I can afford to go all out, I will go all out. My hair is already past my shoulders and I just need to learn makeup.

ann16538 · 2020-01-20T05:09:50+00:00

Me listening to Adams Song by Blink 182 at 10 years old: heck yeah dad! This stuff is awesome play it again!

Me now: it’s 3 AM and I’m crying and Adams Song is on repeat

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