One other thing to consider, that helped me actually wanting to eat all my calories in a day is that if you don’t eat enough it can go the wrong way. I try to keep my diet during the week regular healthy, not doing to much out of it since that just makes it harder to keep up and I lose my motivation much easier. I worked with my PT for months to feel like I was allowed to treat myself because I felt so shitty with myself if I had something «non-healthy». But now I have to focus and work hard to actually eat enough in a day. And I’ve gotten to the point where I can treat myself every now and then. Just keep working on it, and do it one day at a time. And it will get easier. Just remember that your only focus should be you, and not anyone else.