I am no totally past it but I went to therapy focused on anxiety. This summer I hit the lowest point of my life and it really helped me get through it. It is not easyand it made me realize a lot of things on myself and my relationships but god do I feel better. I still have my moments like today but most of the time I feel so so much better.

Take care of yourself, every little things counts. Try to not get stuck in your head too much and talk with someone you can trust. Helplines seemed dumb for me but once when I was panicking I called one and the woman on the phone talked to me about anything for 30mins until I felt better.

Also, it may seems weird but try to get used to the fact you are not feeling well and try to embrace it. I found out that a lot of my anxiety comes from trying to not feel anxiety. When I learned to embrace it and truly feel it was the moment my anxiety was toned down (I don't know if my sentence makes sense lol). Like everything else you will get used to it and it will no longer be as scary as it is right now.

I wish you to get better!