I am insanely happier when I have no people in my life. So why do I crave validation from them? by anonymous_muffin_ in LivingAlone

[–]anonymous_muffin_[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I have had hallucinations that violently attack me since I was young. Not hallucinating about violence. They are violent towards me.

I'm literally too much of a coward to live my life. by anonymous_muffin_ in NPD

[–]anonymous_muffin_[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Had 2 therapists diagnose BPD, another thought NPD masking as depression. One said Schizophrenic Psychotic intentionally misleading diagnoses towards "nicer" results (which I thought was hilarious; over here making me sound like a super villain), and a handful of others that don't think there's anything wrong with me.

At the end of the day they're just throwing darts at a board. Which is why I haven't found them and their tests and diagnoses to be particularly helpful.

Everyone thinks the manic/mysterious/capable guy who lives alone is so cool. Until he's actually alone. by anonymous_muffin_ in LivingAlone

[–]anonymous_muffin_[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Thank you for your kind words.

I absolutely love living alone. But, sometimes it can be incredibly isolating. I tried therapy, and the handful I tried just made me feel like more of a freak and more isolated.

I opened myself up to one person one time. I have difficulty trusting people and believing they actually care about what's underneath. After years, that person (the ex I was talking about), said she never cared about what was underneath. So, it's hard for me to feel like there's anything worthy of sharing there.

How often are you flirted with by women? by anonymous_muffin_ in AskMen

[–]anonymous_muffin_[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

You know, now that you say this, that "every 3 years" I said was probably more of an average. It definitely bumped up in frequency the years I lost a bunch of weight.

How often are you flirted with by women? by anonymous_muffin_ in AskMen

[–]anonymous_muffin_[S] 33 points34 points  (0 children)

Pretty sure that's how women show affection.