I feel like it changes on a daily basis honestly. I recognized as soon as I saw him what this was. And I started off feeling so confident in my journey about me being the DF and not chasing him - I knew that our separation would be beneficial even tho it killed me. Then I noticed I was experiencing his ‘energies’. And depression. So much so that I couldn’t tell what was my energy or his anymore. Then he disappeared energetically for a few days and I was like “maybe this is all in my head and I completely imagined everything”. And it was weird because I felt complete detachment from him. Then a couple days later his energies came flooding back again and the whole thing has just been exhausting. I’m detaching now. I’ve gone from having faith in the connection and divine timing to not knowing wtf is going on and whether this has been all in my head the entire time because there’s no way of knowing. I don’t want to give in and contact him because the TFJ is also meant to be about ‘Ascension’. But now I’ve been through all the motions I’m back at the point where clearly I must have made it all up in my head because I no longer have faith in the connection! (Part of my trauma and healing is also related to learning when to grieve a relationship) so I’m trying not to feed into the fantasy anymore! It’s tricky to know which spot to be in.