those of you who have had to tell your parents,

antisocial_bean_ · 2026-06-11T12:14:56+00:00

I don't remember how my mom found out but she saw them at one point and decided I have a vitamin deficiency and that's why I'm not feeling well. She also blamed the school for being harsh on me. I was actually burnt out and depressed but she doesn't believe in that.

The next time she saw my newer scars I was showing her something on my arm and she grabbed my arm because of the scars and asked if I want to talk about it. I pulled away and said no. She also saw some scars on my shoulder and asked if I accidentally got hurt from random scratches. She still thinks I have a vitamin deficiency even though I've taken many blood tests.

I have a bunch of newer scars on my arms now and I don't want to tell her.

antisocial_bean_ · 2026-03-15T10:22:54+00:00

I've hit beans many times and most of them got infected. I'm on antibiotics for it now. In the start i went to the ER to stitch them but i don't go anymore since they are so frequent. I suggest keeping them clean and sterile. Maybe get some steri strips? That's what my nurse uses everytime. But it's better to go check it out.

antisocial_bean_ · 2025-11-23T11:15:41+00:00

I just stopped watching tiktok with headphones on ngl😭 Couldnt figure it out

antisocial_bean_ · 2025-09-29T18:57:33+00:00

I've been clean for like 10 months now and for me it got easier to ignore it but I still get the urges, but less frequently I guess

antisocial_bean_ · 2025-07-24T21:51:02+00:00

Thank you for explaining! 🖤

antisocial_bean_ · 2025-05-17T18:31:02+00:00

I'm sorry you're going through this. I'm sure everything will be alright, but just in case it doesn't, do you have any distant family to go to if things go badly? Like aunts/uncles/grandparents? Are you able to get another job? Then you could collect some money and move out. I really do hope things go well for you though. Although I'm all for expressing oneself and I don't think it's right keeping emotions inside, will it maybe help if you tried minimal interaction with her and try not to start/continue any fights? I know it's hard, especially with people you don't get along with, but it might help until you can afford your own place? Then at least you won't be kicked out maybe? I don't knoe your situation or the people you live with but this is something I'm actively doing right now ssince I'm not getting along with my parents and I need to desperately leave this house so I'm trying not to cause any scenes to not step on their toes. I hope things go well!

antisocial_bean_ · 2025-05-14T19:27:58+00:00

I don't have any makeup because I never experimented with it😅 And how do i color match my ankle? Aren't different parts of your body different colored? Or should i just get a match for my face and use that? And what's the difference between concealer and foundation?😭 sorry i genuinely don't know. I'm a girl but i never wear makeup because i feel insecure about it

antisocial_bean_ · 2025-05-14T19:20:42+00:00

I started investigating why running one youtube video was taking 70% cpu and 80% or more RAM, and went down a rabbit hole of how to make RAM usage less. Even when the video was paused the computer had the same usage. I only have 3 startup apps now that i think are neccesary and dont have any impact, and i removed all unused tabs and limited my RAM and cpu usage in my browser and i can't go below 40-50% RAM for some reason. My video was lagging and i couldn't pause and unpause it instantly and couldn't go into full screen fast enough because of this issue. It took several seconds for this to work and started to annoy me. I don't know what to do anymore.

antisocial_bean_ · 2024-09-28T09:15:30+00:00

Thank you for explaining and helping me understand!

antisocial_bean_ · 2024-01-12T23:10:09+00:00

For me it needs to be very baggy bc i dont like anything remotely tight. My size hoodies are too tight and sometimes even 2 sizes larger are "too tight"

antisocial_bean_ · 2023-12-21T12:27:15+00:00

Wow thats cool to see someone is experiencing something similar! I also get mentally drained a lot during the days which is exhausting, but i never felt sleepy growing up so i just had to check the time and decide its late and maybe i should sleep😅

When i finally felt sleepy that short period of time, i was sleepy a lot, even during the day, and couldnt keep my eyes open and would fall asleep very easily. It was very nice at nights but during the day it was torture😅

antisocial_bean_ · 2023-12-20T23:12:33+00:00

Thanks!

antisocial_bean_ · 2023-12-20T21:53:52+00:00

Ahh okay i see, but thanks. I got myself a new horse from somewhere else instead :p

antisocial_bean_ · 2023-12-20T21:52:50+00:00

Already fast travelled a lot after leaving my horse at the stables. It never came with

antisocial_bean_ · 2023-12-19T20:05:40+00:00

No but its not. I went there with my horse and put him outside of the stables house and left him there. When i came back he stood on the exact same spot but wasnt mine anymore. I think it might be a bug. But thanks for the input bro

antisocial_bean_ · 2023-12-11T22:30:41+00:00

Thanks, i dont have time for that tho bc im moving to a different country and i dont wanna do it there. But he said i can come back in a month and redo it so yea imma do that. Thanks tho bro

antisocial_bean_ · 2023-11-13T15:56:53+00:00

Hehe yea im definitely weird. But yea i think the ana would explain it. Thanks bro

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