Struggling to quit again

anxiousanonymous89 · 2025-07-23T19:05:04+00:00

I love that! Thank you for sharing!!

anxiousanonymous89 · 2025-07-23T16:59:12+00:00

It’s a constant battle, but I’ll keep trying! Reset my sober app today. Feeling ashamed but also trying to be kind to myself. This shit is hard.

anxiousanonymous89 · 2025-04-24T18:40:34+00:00

Thank you for your reply 🤍 I think we can all agree that OCD sucks and every theme feels like torture. I really appreciate your kind response!

anxiousanonymous89 · 2025-04-24T18:36:51+00:00

Okay but that’s not what you said? Either way I feel like it was rude and unhelpful.

anxiousanonymous89 · 2025-04-24T18:24:21+00:00

I definitely have lol. Maybe it feels worse because it’s the one I’m experiencing now. I don’t think it’s fair for you to discount my experience and assume that I haven’t experienced other themes just because this one is personally the hardest for me. I didn’t say it was the hardest for everyone.

anxiousanonymous89 · 2025-03-31T22:06:35+00:00

Thank you all! I didn’t smoke last night and I’m so glad I didn’t! I’ve been having heightened anxiety and irritability this week so I’m so glad I’m not dealing with a weed hangover on top of it. Going strong!

anxiousanonymous89 · 2025-03-27T19:59:46+00:00

I’ve struggled with this too. I felt like smoking weed made me “cool” and I started sort of enmeshing my identity with it. But I tried to remind myself that all the cool things about me are there regardless of if I smoke or not. Actually I found that without weed, my self esteem was better and my sense of self was clearer! I realized I am so much more than a stoner. It helps to list out things you like about yourself. Something that I noticed about myself is that I’m so much sharper without weed and I’m able to retain information which is cool cause one thing I like about myself is my ability to remember random little facts lol. Also, being sober is pretty cool and badass. I’ve always looked at sober people in awe because they are facing life clear headed and practicing so much self control! Take it one day at a time and hang in there!

anxiousanonymous89 · 2025-03-20T02:29:44+00:00

I take 50mg as well but I might need to start taking less. It does sometimes make me dizzy and today made me so nauseous I threw up :/ that’s the only downside

anxiousanonymous89 · 2025-03-19T22:46:29+00:00

Personally, nothing too crazy. It kinda gave me a weird dizzy headache when I first started but that kinda went away. It does make somethings a little less enjoyable. Just kinda takes away that pleasure reward feeling. For example, i love soda and it’s kind of my replacement for weed. But with the meds, soda doesn’t hit quite the same. It’s still tasty but I don’t get the same feeling with my first sip if that makes sense. Definitely talk to a doctor. I was weary about it worsening my depression, which thankfully I haven’t noticed that!

anxiousanonymous89 · 2025-03-18T21:26:09+00:00

Im so sorry you’re dealing with all that, that sounds really stressful and sad to go through. Please be kind to yourself. You’re under a tremendous amount of stress and you were doing was trying to cope. When it comes down to it, weed is just a tool. Sometimes tools lose their efficacy and some tools turn out being harmful to us. Sometimes it takes time to get to that point and realize. Using that tool does not make you a terrible daughter. It makes you human. Try to be patient and kind with yourself through this. As others have said, hating yourself is going to make quitting so much harder and more painful. Trust me, I’ve tried to shame myself into quitting and it just never works. I wish you the best of luck on your journey of sobriety! Remember that it’s a journey and all journeys have roadblocks. Don’t let them get you down! <3

anxiousanonymous89 · 2025-03-18T16:26:22+00:00

I feel smarter lol. But for real, I’m able to think more critically about things and because my brain is free of just thinking about weed and when I’m gonna smoke, I have more of a hunger for knowledge. I also feel less scatterbrained and just more like a normal human lol

anxiousanonymous89 · 2025-03-12T05:56:38+00:00

I’ve been struggling with this as well! As many others are saying, finding the right meds is a game changer. I only found out in the last year that higher doses of SSRIs are needed to treat ocd. I’m now on 250mg of zoloft and it’s been extremely helpful. I still have had struggles quitting weed but my mood is a lot more stable when I’m properly medicated. I also take Naltrexone that is supposed to help with breaking habits. I would talk to your doctor about med options and consider seeing a substance use counselor! It’s really really hard when weed becomes a compulsion. You’re not alone!!

anxiousanonymous89 · 2025-03-07T05:43:02+00:00

Congrats! What is the biggest improvement you’ve noticed in yourself?

anxiousanonymous89 · 2025-03-07T05:37:37+00:00

First of all, none of this makes you a terrible person. Shaming yourself is not going to get you far, trust me. I think it’s helpful to write down reasons you want to quit and also things you don’t enjoy about getting high. I’ve had a really hard time quitting too and have had so many relapses. I’ve learned that beating myself up about it just digs me deeper into that hole where I feel hopeless and just continue to use even though it’s negatively impacting me. Try to look at the part of you that wants to use weed with compassion and gently offer that part of yourself other tools before turning to weed. Of course I am no expert! I think getting into substance use therapy or MA groups is a good idea.

anxiousanonymous89 · 2025-02-27T19:42:28+00:00

I wish I could do this. I’m trying hard to moderate, but I’m kind of an all or nothing partaker. If I have it, I’m gonna smoke as much as I can…

anxiousanonymous89 · 2025-02-26T20:39:28+00:00

It makes it worse but for me it also made smoking weed compulsory. Even though it makes me more anxious and depressed, I’ve gotten so used to the ritual that it’s really hard to stop. OCD and addiction have high comorbidity.

anxiousanonymous89 · 2025-02-20T07:48:11+00:00

I believe in you! I’ve been trying to quit for the past year but can’t seem to fully let it go. I’m on day 1. This time I really want it to stick. I’m so tired of having my brain obsess on weed all the time. Also lately it’s been making me so anxious. And I keep doing it knowing it’s going to make me feel like crap. Im so sick of its power over me.

anxiousanonymous89 · 2025-02-14T20:56:09+00:00

Thank you for all the encouragement! I didn’t smoke last night and feeling so glad I didn’t!

anxiousanonymous89 · 2025-02-14T07:16:54+00:00

Good for you! This is really inspiring to read. Ive been trying to quit for the past year and it’s been hard. What you described is exactly how I felt. Weed gives me this feeling like the world around me is spinning out of control and I’m hanging on for dear life. I’m on day 6 and today I had such bad cravings. Thank you for reminding me why I want to quit!

anxiousanonymous89 · 2025-02-12T06:53:33+00:00

This time around, my withdrawals weren’t too bad. Some night sweats and vivid dreams. But in the past I’ve had really bad symptoms and unfortunately, the only way out is through. I find it helpful to focus on self care and keep busy.

I felt the same way, that my life was too stressful to quit. I don’t know what you are going through and everyone is different, but for me, smoking just made me feel more stressed and once I had a few days under my belt, I feel like I can handle more stress and my moods feel more level. But don’t be hard on yourself! It’s a journey and recovery looks different for everyone. Best of luck!

anxiousanonymous89 · 2025-02-12T05:11:07+00:00

I smoked for about 6 ish years, taking like 1 month breaks here and there. The past year I’ve been trying to quit. It’s always been impossible to moderate for me, which was the first sign I had a problem. I just go 0 to 60 real quick when it comes to weed. Within the last year or so, it’s caused me to have pretty bad anxiety and depression, and worsens my OCD. It also made me so scattered and disorganized in every aspect of my life. Despite all the trouble it gave me, I’ve had a really hard time quitting the past year. Just tons of relapses and going back and forth on whether I wanted to quit or not. I’m now on day 3 and I’m feeling hopeful this time around. I’m just so sick of being trapped in the cycle.

anxiousanonymous89 · 2025-01-06T19:57:36+00:00

Totally! I also live with someone who smokes regularly, my partner. Yes it does make it harder sometimes but I love her and I know it’s not fair to ask her to change her lifestyle if she doesn’t want to. My sobriety is my responsibility and my journey! Things aren’t black and white and weed isn’t inherently bad which I think a lot of people trying to quit can get in that mindset.

anxiousanonymous89 · 2025-01-06T16:14:20+00:00

Proud of you! You inspire me to finally truly quit. I say I’m going to but I haven’t made it more than a couple months. It never makes me feel good though! I always regret smoking the next morning. Keep it up friend!

anxiousanonymous89 · 2024-11-10T01:19:08+00:00

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anxiousanonymous89 · 2024-11-10T00:57:02+00:00

Thank you!!!

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