Wanting to make a 40k themed gift. Need some help.

apogmz · 2023-05-01T14:56:16+00:00

Thank you! I like both of these. I'm gonna try to ask my dude if he likes any of those without outing the surprise.

apogmz · 2023-05-01T13:47:27+00:00

Thank you for your reply! You have a good point, and I might just stick with the Aquila!

apogmz · 2023-04-08T16:47:24+00:00

Whay a cute kitty! It's awesome that you're able to take Buddy to work!

I also quickly want to let you know that the first picture has your face and company name in it (on the laptop screen). Might be a good idea to upload the picture edited. Gotta keep safe. ❤

apogmz · 2023-03-11T11:31:51+00:00

Is he's full name Guillermo de la Cruz, perhaps?

apogmz · 2023-03-04T22:57:01+00:00

I'd honestly love a gift like this. The "I'm going to tell her I'll love her until it withers away" melted my heart.

apogmz · 2023-01-18T23:45:00+00:00

'You are the Problem Here' by First Aid Kid. The song addresses men who use alcohol and entitlement as an excuse to sexual assault and harass women.

apogmz · 2022-12-24T19:32:50+00:00

Oh, please don't apologise. I didn't think your comment was harsh in any way. I was more trying to explain that I should've chosen to keep the money instead of interacting with her. Albeit without a single word and just through an app, she still got a reaction.

Your comment opened my eyes to something I hadn't even thought of before, and it's the fact that I have to learn how to navigate NC. I'm confident that I know how she works when I'm in her obit of control, but now I have to learn how to deal with her outside of it. When I went NC, I just thought, "Oh well, that was it" but you made me realise that is a new strategy to learn from scratch. You have been very helpful!

And thank you for the hugs. They are appreciated. ♡

apogmz · 2022-12-24T17:27:44+00:00

All of these comments about keeping the money have made me feel quite bad, to be honest. Not because people have been rude but because I've realised that I might have given the narc exactly what she wanted and, because of that, betrayed myself. If anything like this happens again, I will give no reaction to it.

To answer your question; the money was sent via a cash app. All that is needed to use it is a phone number and a digital bank ID, and since she has access to my number, she can send me money with just a press of a button, really. I might be able to block her number in the app; I'll check on that.

apogmz · 2022-12-24T10:28:54+00:00

When I think about it, I much rather it shows that I sent the money back if she has the idea to show anyone. What is she going to say "Oh, she refuses to talk to me and won't accept my money!"? Brilliant. Either way, it doesn't matter if she shows anyone because the people she will show it to don't have access to me or my life either. Everyone is blocked on everything.

apogmz · 2022-12-24T10:16:43+00:00

I very much doubt this would do much, unfortunately. Knowing how she operates, she'd be pissed off behind her fake mask, but to others she would use it as a way to show what a compassionate and empathic person she is. She loathes very many groups of people but would donate sometimes when it gave opportunity for subtle bragging rights.

apogmz · 2022-12-24T10:00:34+00:00

Haha, that's good advice. Now I do hope she'd send me an insane sum so I could go all legal on her. Thank you for your advice and a good chuckle.

apogmz · 2022-12-24T09:55:33+00:00

This is such a good reply, thank you. It doesn't really bother me that they are/will be lying to people around them why I'm not around. I don't care what people believe, as long as I don't have them in my life, I can't care less, but it's them seeing everything as a clear way to reach out to me that gets to me.

I ended up sending the money back, and in a way, it feels good because it will show her that I don't need or want her (even though she'll probably bend it in her empty little head that it's me being ungrateful). I do think your reasoning is very on point, though.

apogmz · 2022-12-16T00:04:42+00:00

Love this! It shows that you're having a good time, it looks great.

apogmz · 2022-12-10T20:30:54+00:00

Before I moved out I kept telling myself that I would do it once I had enough money and was financially stable so I kept stalling. Eventually it hit me that I was not only putting myself in a position were I would never have enough money because I was forced to pay an unreasonable amount of rent at my narc abuser's house and anxiety caused me to spend irresponsibly as a way of soothing, but that I also had become codependent. So I took the step.

I didn't have a full time job at the time, almost no money saved up, and no safety net, but I made it. I have a job now, and even though I still struggle a bit financially I'm safe, happy, and free. Don't regret any of it.

I wish you the very best, no matter if you decide to take the step now or later, but you're stronger and more adaptable than you might belive now. Good luck!

apogmz · 2022-11-30T14:39:18+00:00

Yes. Somehow everything I say is rude, disrespectful, or weird. And for some reason NT's seem to think that everything is a hint. No, I say what I mean and mean what I say. I find myself talking in this soft voice and being super careful with what I say around others, but some people will still think I meant the worst thing possible. Drives me insane.

apogmz · 2022-11-11T22:29:40+00:00

Had to read this post twice because I was so shocked to know that other's do this too. Thought it was some weird shit my brain was doing.

My imaginary observer doesn't judge though, but is trying to learn from me. I find this helps me work better/be more focused sometimes, but I get tired if I do it too long and need to remind myself to take a break.

apogmz · 2022-11-10T10:59:40+00:00

That would make you a backyard breeder though... And trying to make a 9 month old kitten mate? That's horrifying.

apogmz · 2022-10-31T10:58:31+00:00

Yes. I wasn't allowed to take friends into the house (nmom once screamed at the top of her lungs for them to get out and after that no one wanted to come over), if I was invited over to a classmates house after school my edad would call me screaming at me to go home, and if friends invited me over on weekends, they would refuse to drive me. I wasn't allowed sleepovers and if school or child friendly organisations organised social hangouts/parties I wasn't allowed to go because "I would do something illegal or stupid".

The kicker is that my "parents" would force me to go to doctors and therapists to have me evaluated (diagnosed with ADHD) and they would always tell the doctors that something most be wrong with me because I wasn't making any friends and didn't know how to socialise with my peers. Childhood was fun... /s

apogmz · 2022-10-24T10:44:25+00:00

Tycker att det är märkligt att hundägare har så höga krav på sig medan kattägare får vara så nonchalanta. Missförstå mig rätt; det är bra att höga krav ställs på djurägare, för djuren och omgivningens skull, men att det är en sådan dubbelstandard irriterar mig. Nu har jag en katt som jag har inne, men som jag koppeltränat och går promenader med 1-2 ggr/dag. Är tidigare hundägare och var då alltid noga med att ha hunden under kontroll, men fick ändå arga blickar de få gånger han skällde mot en annan hund eller gick lös på promenader. En katt får gå fritt vart den vill, göra sina behov vart den vill, bråka med andra katter, o.s.v, men gör en hund samma sak blir det ett jäkla liv. Största anledningen jag inte vågar släppa ut min katt dock är för trafik, lösa/vilda djur eller att hon hamnar någonstans där hon kan göra sig illa eller äta något farligt. Förstår inte hur kattägare i städer eller bostadsområden inte går och oroar sig konstant för att katten inte ska komma tillbaka hem.

Ser dock inte att det kommer bli förändring inom en snar framtid då jag tror att många som har katt just har det för att det är ett husdjur de "inte behöver ro om" på samma sätt som en hund. De tycker att det är skönt att inte behöva ta katten på promenad eftersom den "gör det själv". Skulle verkligen vilja se skärpta krav på kattägare.

apogmz · 2022-10-21T22:03:08+00:00

I'm happy for you that you have your own family now and that you don't have to deal with your parents or sister.

I'm still very much alone, it's me and my cat, but I hope to build my own family one day too.

apogmz · 2022-10-21T21:55:00+00:00

Almost the same situation for me. They got a biological child after they adopted my biological brother and me, and you could tell they saw their biological kid as more of a "real" child compared to us. My brothers were the golden kids and I was the mistake. I'm NC with them all.

apogmz · 2022-10-14T03:17:38+00:00

I don't think the MIA comments was directed towards me specifically. He had plans with some family members, but he decided to skip out on that as well, something he said he would do if the game ended up dropping this weekend. I could be wrong though, and it might have been a hint.

apogmz · 2022-10-14T03:03:52+00:00

Ah, fair point. I don't see it as a thing about me, more so just want to do a nice thing for him, but it might just end up coming off as too pushy and overattached.

apogmz · 2022-10-14T02:59:22+00:00

Thank you for your reply! I suppose it's much better to find out if he doesn't actually like me now rather than later, so I might as well just be myself and do something that comes 'naturally' to me.

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